Oh! I don't own Weiss Kreuz or the song Kiss the Rain. They belong to their rightful owners!
Note: I've just done a couple of fixes to this fic. Put the song lyrics in italics. Found that lyrics between ~~~~~~ was too confusing. Anyway, enjoy!
I run my hands over the smooth receiver. I pick it up and listen to the dial tone. I start to dial his number and hang it up again. It's never been this hard to talk to him before. I pick the receiver up again and hit the speed dial button with his number. No turning back now.
"Moshi, moshi," he greets. His voice chipper.
Hello
"Hi Yoji."
"Aya!," he sounds too surprised. "H-how are you?"
There's a lot of noise in the background
Can you hear me?
"Fine, thanks. You?"
"Fine."
Am I gettin' through to you?
"What are you up too?" I ask.
Hello
"Not much. Hangin' out mostly. How about you?"
Is it lately, there's a laughter on the line
"This and that."
A picture of him and Schuldig flashes into my mind. The two sitting on Yoji's couch smoking and watching tv. A nasal chuckle rings in the back of my head.
Are you sure you're there alone?
"So what can I do for you?"
"Umm...well...."
"Look Aya, if you called to chat you're not doing a very good job."
Something's wrong, you just don't sound the same
"I'm sorry. I'll leave you alone."
I hang up before he can answer
Rain trickles down my balcony doors.
Why don't you
I stand up and open them and step onto my balcony
Go outside
I tilt my head back letting the rain fall on my face. The coolness feels good.
Kiss the rain, whenever you need me
Yoji, I'm sorry. I'm the one who asked for this stupid time apart. I did what I always do when I get too close with someone. I run.
Kiss the rain, whenever I'm gone to long
Who was there? Someone was there, weren't they Yoji? I don't know if that image of you and Schuldig was real or if I conjured it up.
If you lips, feel lonely and thirsty
The rain drizzles down the corners of my mouth. Hair clings to my face.
Kiss the rain and wait for the dawn
Ten blocks from each other and it's been two months since we've seen each other.
Keep in mind, we're under the same skies
For two months now I've slept alone. No one to curl up beside in the middle of the night when cold. No gentle kisses waking me up in the morning. No one to comfort me when the world becomes too much.
And the nights as empty for me as for you
Are you being comforted by someone else? Do you even need comfort? Are you alone anymore? Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
If you feel you can't wait 'til morning
All I want to do right now is let the rain fall over me.
Kiss the rain
"Moshi moshi." His voice is cheerful again
Hello
"Yoji, hi."
"Hey Aya. How you doin'?"
"Fine thanks. You?"
I'm such a liar.
"Good, good."
"I've been.....I've been thinking."
Do you miss me?
"Oh. What about?"
"Ummm...us mainly."
"Have you? What have you thought about us?
"That I....well that is...I....I miss you."
"I miss you too."
I hear you say you do
"Really?"
"Yeah."
His voice sounds off. Like he doesn't mean it completely.
But not the way I'm missing you
"Thanks."
Pause.
"So what have you been up to?"
What's new?
"Not a lot.
How's the weather?
Especially with all the rain."
Is it stormy where you are?
He doesn't sound like he wants to be on the phone. Or at least talking with me.
'Cause I'm so close but it feels like you're so far
Another image of him and Schulderich flashes in my head. This time the image is much more erotic. I must have made a noise 'cause Yoji's repeating my name.
Or would it mean anything, if you knew
"Aya, are you okay?"
"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. Just bent a finger the wrong way too hard."
"Oh, well, ice it so it doesn't get swollen."
"I will. I'm....I'm not interrupting anything am I? I mean you don't have guests over do you?"
What I'm left imaging
A slight stunned surprised silence on the other end.
"N-no. Why?"
/He's lying, liebe./
In my mind
Schuldig
In my mind
"No reason. I have to go. Bye."
I hang up the phone before he can say anything else.
Schuldig you bastard.
Would you go
Why are you there?
Would you go
Tears stream down my cheeks. I can feel their saltiness on the corners of my mouth
Kiss the rain
Rain has always made me feel, well, different. Never better but never worse. Just feel. I walk along the street letting the rain pour down on me. Thinking of me, him, the image in my head.
Kiss the rain, whenever you need me
Is Schuldig really there? Is what I pictured true? Have I left you too long Yoji?
Kiss the rain, whenever I'm gone too long
Did I drive you into his arms? Do you share the passion we once had with him now? Have you replaced me this quickly?
If your lips feel hungry and tempted
What would happen if I told you I wanted to see you again? Wanted to hold you again? Tell you I'm sorry? That I love you and miss you and want you back? That I want you to take me back?
Kiss the rain and wait for the dawn
Or can you live without me now? What will happen when I return to work? Will we be able to work together? Ever have things normal again?
Keep in mind, we're under the same skies
I don't suppose so. I don't suppose anything can be anymore. I suppose I should get use to my empty nights and empty bed.
And the night as empty for me as for you
I guess I took too much time Yoji. I'm sorry. I really am. I didn't want to lose you.
If you feel you can't wait 'til morning
Tears start to mix with the rain on my face.
Kiss the rain
I shake my head and wipe the tears away.
Kiss the rain
I look around and see I'm in front of Yoji's apartment. the one we use to share after moving out of the Koneko.
Kiss the rain
I start to walk up the stairs. The front door leads onto a balcony of the building.
Kiss the rain
The stairs never took this long before. They seem to stretch out endlessly.
Kiss the rain
I remember nights we would fly up the stairs, restless and filled with passion.
Kiss the rain
Suddenly I'm at the top. Slowly I walk to the apartment door. i raise my hand to knock but instead I let it fall back down to my side. I can't. He's happy now with Schuldig. I can't disturb that. I don't have the right too. After all *I* pushed *him* away. I turn and start to walk back to the stairs. I hear a door and the jingle of keys.
"Aya?"
Hello
I turn to him looking at me wide-eyed and mouth gaping.
"What...what are you doing here?"
"I..." my voice croaks. I can feel the tightness in my throat.
Can you hear me?
"Aya? Are you okay?" he asks stepping closer. I feel my knees start to give and tears spill over my cheeks. I fall to my knees sobbing.
Can you hear me?
I feel his arms around me. Hugging me, soothing me.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Yoji. I'm sorry for what I did. Can you forgive me? I'm sorry..."
Can you hear me?
Words spill out of my mouth.
"It's okay Aya. Of course I can. Come on."
He helps me up and we go into the apartment. Our apartment. It's empty. No Schuldig.
~Owari~
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