Little note: Obviously the characters don't belong to me. The song is called "Holy" by the Greek/Roman and whatever other goddess can she be king princess. If you haven't heard of her shame on you, she's an amazing singer. oh well, toodles!
What am i doing with my life?! I've the perfect life a lovely mum, lovely dad a lovely pain in the ass sister and a so,so lovely boyfriend, then why does it seem like i'm missing something?Like there's a piece of me that isn't here? Like I'm living in a lie, i slowly release the air that i didn't even noticed that i was holding and with a loud groan i get out of bed.
I stare into the room in the front of my double bed a tiny girl stares me back, her green eyes seem quite big comparing to the rest of her features.
I try to look presentable, combing my shoulder length hair- it's brown almost black that was spiking in every direction and lazily reach for my school uniform, the skirt looked too big and so did the shirt but, it's just school! where the girls are mean and the boys were silly, where the teachers are demanding and the food is kinda sucky...but in the end, it's just school!
Sleepily, I go downstairs and prepare to leave the house. I drink a tall glass of water like i always do every morning with some vitamins to then i will start looking for something to bite, a granola bar would do the trick and with that i slowly i get into the car.
It was cold today, so cold, humid and cloudy that i just didn't wanted to leave the house, when finished the small granola bar I just lay against the cold window where i observe the abstract clouds of condensation were form in front of my nose...it was cold!
I waited for what seemed years until a tall leggy blonde girl that i have the luck of calling sister, slides on the driver seat.
I just slightly move my head and groan "You're late!" to which she replies " I'm sorry, Alice. Emmett was struggling to fall asleep, i stayed with him, he wanted some company" i look at her by the corner of my eye " I know the type of "company" you're talking about!Hope mum didn't caught you, again!" to which she replies smirking "Well, i bet you do the same to Jazz, you just better at hiding that i am".
I actually never did it, I didn't understood the appealing behind it, why and how girls would dare to send bold pictures of themselves to their current boyfriends. Jasper had implied that they would be more than welcome but i just never actually send it to him,nor he ever pushed me to, he was a gentleman. 'Poor little jazz and his blue balls' Emmett would say mockingly multiple times, it didn't really bothered me but i knew Jasper was getting quite irritated towards my apathy towards the situation. I just really didn't mind it, i was content, i was happy...I guess.
Trip towards the school was fine as it was made in silence. My eyes felt so heavy that everything surrounding me was just blurs of different colors, where green and brown were the main attraction and as soon Rosie parked the car, she jumps out of it, certainly to just go and deep throat her big 'bear looking' boyfriend that she was so proud of.
My sister was a proud girl, shes the oldest of us two so she tends to be very protective and caring. I always thought it would be complicated for her to find someone that would be able to give her everything she needed but Em (for sure!) was her perfect match with an equal big attitude and a bigger smile with a heart that could love and appreciate all of what Rosie was.
I take a deep breath and sight while getting out of the car, I was then hit by the musky smell of rain and the earthy notes that the trees around us had, it was a rather delicious smell that compensated for the annoying coldness of the morning, a second thing hits me, this time is not a smell but a person, quickly am embarrassed by a strong but lean arms that pulled me to his muscly chest, a soft kiss was placed on my cheek and a little smile appear on my lips "Hey Jasper, how are you feeling this morning?" his chest shakes and a little giggle reaches my ears, a warm deep chocolate smell involves me, it smelled so good, I wouldn't mind staying here instead of getting into one of those cold, boring classroom "I'm alright Ali, slept quite well actually! But i bet my night wasn't as good as theirs!" he says while using his chin to point towards Rosie and Em devouring each other, Ems hand was dangerously too low on her ass to be ONLY touching it...oh well.
"I doubt that anybody had it to be fair!" i say to then turn to my dear sister and say "Rose, common! First period is the only class I've with you!Don't spoil it for me." they separate with a massive grin in their faces.
"Let's go, daisy!" she calls and with a low groan i kiss jasper cheek and start moving towards the classroom. As we got there, it wasn't that full so, i started scrolling throughout Instagram hoping to find anything worth my time. Rosey was seating next to me, probably wondering if Em really went to class or just skipped, i knew how much she disliked when he did it.
"He will go to class, Rose" i assure her, she gives me a slight nod and says "How do you know?" and i reply "I just do" and then our conversation was a suddenly interrupted when a turmoil starts in the back of the classroom, some exciting squeals by the girls and some pleased moans from the boys that it made me cringe "What is it?" I ask Angela that is seating behind me, she gives me a small smile and says " Oh, don't worry about it!Its just this really popular singer that is coming to Port Angels for a concert, apparently you don't need a ticket!Just be there early and they let you in" , "Oh! How odd!" I say, to which she replies very excited "That's Purple Queen for you! She's always doing this kinda of things! She hits you a few hours before the show and as soon it fills up the bouncer blocks the entry, so it's really a question of timing".
Rose and I gave it each other a look, we didn't know who she was but it sounded really nice of her to do it so, if only to get more people to get to know her music." You should totally come with us! Mike,Eric,Jessica and I have been waiting for her to come here! I've heard that her music sends you to another universe!" she smiles brightly to me, her puppy eyes were irresistible, there was no way i would be able to say no "Alright!Alright! Rose and I will show up!".
Rose grunts next to me i knew she wasn't very excited about it, not because the whole music thing because she would see it as a challenge but the trip to Port Angels was a couple hours it self, but for certain she wouldn't ever choose a place closer to Forks( We didn't had big venues enough to held a concert, at least, only dinners and tiny bars covered in clouds of cigar smoke and pungent smell of alcohol) but, with a single look, I could see she was curious about it, plus it would mean that she could be with Em after school without feeling like she was doing things behind our parents back, because in the end of the day, if Rosie goes to a nightclub, there's no way there won't happen something utterly annoying, my sister was hot, mum and dad wouldn't let us go without some kind of 'manly shield' which I believed to be idiotic, like my brown belt and a good can of pepper spray wouldn't do the trick.
The rest of the day went fast. At lunch time Jasper tried to kiss me, not that he wasn't supposed to do being my boyfriend and all but it started to unsettle me a bit, i knew that's was he was supposed to do what we were supposed to do, as boyfriend and girlfriend, but kissing jazzie now seemed forced.
Around seven-ish, I started getting ready. I didn't know what to wear but by eight, had decided on a black dress with little daisies all over it that hugged my curves just right, it was a bit childish but it also gave me a kinda edgy cutie that I like to identify with,my hair was messy as always and my make up was darker than usual but kept minimal, i finally left my room not before giving a last look at my outfit, this was the best it would get. Oh well. I finally entered the kitchen and started looking for something to bite while i waited for Rosie and 13 million years after, 14 cheesy twist sticks and my lipstick gone, she shows up wearing a tight red silk shirt and Black pair of jeans everything so skin tight that i was already seeing someone loosing a tooth tonight.
Emmett picked us up on his jeep, not the comfy-est car in the world but definitely needed! Rosie would never allow him to drive her precious BMW and we all knew that Rosie liked her drink.
Jasper opens the back door for us, swiftly sitting in the back with me while letting my dear sister in the front, so then start a whole snogging session with her boyfriends face. "You look stunning tonight, Ali!" Jasper whisper at my hear, making me slightly tense and give him a tense smile "I think i will be in trouble!" i just give him a shrug and kiss on his cheek, it was nice of him anyway.
The drive was quite pacific, Jasper was keeping a light conversation flowing while Em stripped Rose with his eyes. all of the sudden feel Jazz hand on my thigh rubbing and what he thought it would relax me or by him slowly moving it upwards my middle trying to make me jump on him it just made me grab his hand and just give him an uneasy smile and lace our fingers together, he gives me a small kiss on the lips and brings our hands to his mouth here he kisses it, i could see in his eyes that he was hurt, but i couldn't really care i mean i did, but i didn't wanted to be touched in front of my big sister! That's just wrong...
We got there and as soon we found a parking space we were on! Rose and i laced our arms together and enter the club, it was horribly crowded and immediately we weren't pleased. Boys stared at Rosie' cleavage, Emmett shooting death glares and jasper trying to pull me to his chest.
I groan, this would've been so much easier without the boys! We went straight to the bar and grabbed myself some whiskey and coke, it was nice and strong just like i liked it. The stage wasn't big at all, just enough for a set of drums, bass and a guitar one in each corner. I take a sip of my drink and i see the people surrounding me, they all very excited... "Ali!HERE!" i heard Rose yelling and screen trough the crowd until i spotted her in the corner slightly higher than Emmett which meant she was on top of something. I fought against the current and got to them, Rosie actually looked excited for the concert and that made excited too, swiftly jump on the little stool that she was standing.
I had a great view of my surroundings, Jazz was standing in front me forming a barrier between me the floor and the world.
They then turn the the lights off and slowly the musicians make their way trough the stage, there's whistles going and all the sudden cords fill the nightclub and then I hear "I got no time no..." and i swear that by that moment i could only listen to her voice, melodic sweet, alluring and then the lights were on and i could only look at her face. She was beautiful.
Her brown hair cascaded around her delicate heart shaped face, her dark sparkling brown eyes looked like she was up for no good and if there was any doubts, her marvelous wet lips just took them away. She definitely was up for no good.
As i delineate her figure with my eyes felt everything get hot around me, my legs started to shake a wave of lust drowned every single thought of my, i could only see how her white tank top hugged her breasts, my mouth gets dry when I could notice that she wasn't wearing a bra, with her nipples almost showing and i couldn't breath when i noticed the outline of a piercing on the right one. My mind was blank, I could appreciate how her dark culottes allowed her to move freely but still draw her so perfect perky ass.
I didn't know what was happening to me, when she finally reached the chorus "Honey, on your knees when you look at me/I'm dressed like a fucking queen and you're begging, "please"/I rule with the velvet tongue/And my dress undone/And I'll get you lost but I'm having fun/Holy, holy, holy, yeah/Holy, holy, holy, holy" i could feel my cheeks burn, my core got tight and i could feel my underwear completely soaked.I din't fully comprehend what was happening to me.
Rosie wasn't even paying attention, she was just sipping her gin and tonic and kissing Emmett in order to keep him quiet about the dirty looks that other horny teenagers were giving her. Jasper looked uncomfortable, giving me some questionable looks with his arms crossed in front of him, he wasn't happy about something but, in that moment, i spotted Angela in the front row and me being, well me, I decided that I wanted to see Angela. I push through the sea of people to finally reach the metal bars, when all the sudden i end up being squish against it. At point is was barely able to breath, Angie pulls me to her side and keeps other at bay, enough for me to be able to take some small breaths and try to regain control over my heartbeat and the ring in my ears but, as i finally compose myself, I look to the stage and see that she's crouched right in front of me and the understand why i was squeezed against those silly barriers, i could see a slight sign of concern in her beautiful brown eyes but as soon i was able to identify it, it was gone, she gave me a crocked smile and a wink getting up and going back to dance with the guitarist, but i was frozen, she noticed me and in those 2 seconds i felt like i hadn't felt even. I wanted her.