Choices
Another period dance was coming up, it's a 70's dance. Another dance where something will go horribly wrong. Last year Klaus took over Alaric's body, I slapped Damon because I thought Bonnie died protecting me. Any and everything could go wrong. To make things worse, Stefan's going. He's still under Klaus' compulsion. I'm not sure he would hurt me or not. He's too unpredictable right now. I can't take Damon, he's not speaking to me. It's weird, I miss him. He's been with Rebekah since I caught them together. He says I don't have a reason to be jealous, but I do. He's suppose to care about me and yet he's putting me in danger. I stood in my mirror brushing my hair, hating the fact that Damon wasn't speaking to me. Angry with me because I said something I shouldn't have, especially when he's been there for me since the start of Stefan over the edge phase. There was a knock on the door. I went downstairs and opened the door. Damon stood on the other side and smiled. His eye blue and perfect.
"Hey, Damon. What's up?" I asked him. He walked inside and didn't say anything.
"I got your text. What is it?" Damon asked.
"Right. Um. Are you- are you going to the dance?" I asked him. He took a deep breathe nodded his head. I looked down at the ground and tried to keep my composure, excitement rushing through my body but then I had to prepare myself for what he was about to say next.
"Rebekah asked me to come with her, so I figured since you don't want me to care about you anymore, I'm going to go with Rebekah."
"Damon, I'm sorry. But just because I say something you don't like doesn't mean-"
"Stop Elena. Stop making everything about you. I'm going with Rebekah has nothing to do with you. I'm done with my feelings for you Elena. You made it perfectly clear that they mean nothing to you. So you can fight for Stefan and love Stefan all you want because you now mean nothing to me. I wasted time on you and Katherine and I'm done. If I had my way, Elena…Rebekah would kill you and I would watch."
Damon walked right out of the front door and leaving me there in complete shock. I had to fight for
Damon, he's been there for me and I keep pushing him away, rejecting his love and no I don't deserve his forgiveness or even for him to give me another chance but I love him. I opened the door and saw him walking away with Rebekah and something came over me. Anger, pain. Jealousy, hurt, heartbreak. Everything I made Damon feel, I was feeling right now.
"Damon! I love you!" I shouted, they stopped. Maybe if I said those words out loud, he would come back but after five seconds, they started walking again. As if I said nothing. As if the words I yelled went in one ear and out the other. At that moment, I realized that we all make choices and I've been making mine for so long but pushing Damon away and now he doesn't want me. He doesn't want to be my friend, my lover, my nothing. I closed the door and walked upstairs to my bedroom. I text'd him and hoped he didn't just delete it when he saw my name. I even called him, he sent me straight to voice mail. I wanted Damon to know I loved him but that couldn't happen if he was ignoring me. I made a choice, he made a choice now we just have to live with those choices.