And while I was alone, I was not alone. For in him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it. (John 1:4-5) He came to me, but I did not receive him... for I do not know him (John 1:11)
In every darkness was a story...
and this is my story...
for while in darkness there lives a story, in light there lives eternity...
This is a series told in accordance to the Gospel of John. In which the purpose of the Gospel was expressed in John 20:30-31. There reads: Jesus did many other miraculous signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not recorded in this book. But these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name.
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In the darkness a man stood before me. Behind him was a light... a light I always wanted. So I told him "Sir, I want to see the light." He smiled to me and said, "Come, and you will see." (John 1:39) I got up and went with him. Together we spent a night in his kingdom.
In that kingdom we were eating... and then I asked "Sir, may I know who you are?"
His nail scarred hand took mine, and we were silent. "My name is Jesus, I am the king," (John 18:37) he started. "whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe me?" (John 11:26)
I was silent. For he claimed himself to be king. That anyone who believes in him will never die, yet Abraham and the prophets whom God loved has passed away. Who is this man who is not the Father? Who is he who claims that he who believes in him will not taste death? (John 8:52)
He asked this only to test me, for he already had in mind what he was going to do. (John 6:6)
He took out a cup of water and gave it to me. I held the cup with my hand as I draw my sight to his eyes. "Unless you people see miraculous signs and wonders," He told me, "you will never believe." (John 4:48) whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. The water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." (John 4:14)
I took the cup and drank from the water... not knowing what to expect. As I took a sip, it wasn't water. I moved my eyes to the cup, and what was once clear is now crimson. What was once tasteless is now sweet. What was once water is now wine. (John 2:9)
I almost dropped the cup in amazement. This is the first miraculous sign Jesus performed (John 2:11)
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The next day, I was in pain. For my ears have become heavy and I was near deaf. (This was a truth that happened to me when I was a child. My ears are not what once my ears were. I tell this to you so that you may believe. For in Jesus whom I trust, I did not fall deaf.)
Jesus saw me lying on the ground. So he sent to me and asked "Do you want to get well?" (John 5:6)
"Yes Lord!" (John 21:15)
Then Jesus said to me, "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk." (John 5:8) At that very moment I stood and walked... and I was healed. No longer was my ears heavy... and I could hear.
I was shocked in amazement. No word came out of my mouth... I stared at him and he stared at me.
"Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe me!" (John 8:45) Jesus turned his back and walked away. I was there alone... and I was cold... and I fell asleep.
In that sleep I had a dream... and while I was alone, I was not alone. For whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God (John 3:21) I was not alone, for there was light...
and on that light I saw a cross. and on that cross I saw a man. and on that man I saw the words: JESUS OF NAZARETH, THE KING OF THE JEWS (John 19:19) He was lifeless in front of me. His body flogged and ruined (John 19:1) and His arms are stretched (John 21:18). He was crucified. (John 19:23)
This was the man who fed me bread and wine. and he was lifeless. In that dream I cried. As long as tears lasted, and cried.
Then I heard, "Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world! (John 1:29) I wiped off my tears as I searched for the voice. As I raise my head I saw a man, his name was John.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son. This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God"
(John 3:16-21)
(I repeated verse 3:21 twice on purpose in this story... so that you may remember that he who does good holds his deeds for the love of God)
and on that dream... I started to believe. For the man who was with me is no longer with me. He has died on the cross before I could thank him. He fed me bread so that I may not hunger. He gave me wine so that I may not thirst. Yet I fell short for not thanking him. I wanted to ask for forgiveness, but it was too late. He who was once with me is no longer with me.
I knew I was wrong...
For when I had the chance to believe I did not believe. Now that I didn't had the chance, I did believe.
Then tears began to crawl... and before I knew it I was already blind.
to be continued...
Belated Happy chinese new year J
God bless,
July