A/N: So now I'm the mood for drama & angst, so I started writing this. Hope you like it.

I'l try to update iGo Camping, as soon as I finish the chapter I'm writing now.

Disclaimer: I don't own iCarly.

Freddie's Pov

I was in the parking lot of the church. Today it was the day I was going to marry Carly Shay, the girl I always wanted to be with. Since I meet her the first time, I knew that I wanted to be with her. I even made a plan to be her second husband after I find a way to remove her first husband and then I should comfort her and marry her after that. I was young and stupid then, so it sounded a lot better then. But things happened faster and now I was going to be her first husband and just 10 years passed. I spend all the years with her rejecting me t'ill one day, when she told me that she feels the same way. It was after we both graduated, when I got back in Seattle and then we started dating. I was so happy then, that I couldn't believe.

Today I was going to marry her. I should be the happiest man in the world but for some reason I'm not. I spend a almost a year dating her, I was happy all this time but for some reason it felt too wrong. And now when I'm about to marry her, I can't imagine spending the rest of my life with her. It just doesn't feel right. And now, I'm not sure if I really love her that way, to marry her.

Carly was a great girl. We were best friends since we were thirteen. She was smart, gorgeous, pretty, she was almost the perfect girl, but now I realized that it wasn't what I wanted. She deserves a nice guy, to treat her well and truly love her, but I'm not that guy. And I was sure she could find a guy like that.

But now, it was to late for me to retreat. I need to do this, I love her, she loves me. But now I'm not sure that it's in the same way, I still love her as my childhood best friend, but not romantically. I don't think I ever really loved her, it was just an obsessing crush that developed after all these years and it turned in a relationship that I though it was perfect but finally I realize that it was just a stupid childhood dream, that I woke up from.

I stood so much time thinking there that I eventually forgot where I should be now, until Spencer,who was my best man, came to me.

"Freddie, you should be at the aisle now. Carly's almost ready to come"

"Yeah, I was just thinking" I said and I followed him to the church. I walked to the aisle, where I saw Sam, who was Carly's maid of honor waiting. I can swear that I saw sadness in her face. I stood there looking at all the peoples I would disappoint if I didn't say I do. I saw Carly entering the church and the music started. She looked really nice and happy. Her dad was walking her down the aisle. She finally arrived at the aisle and she smiled at me. She would be destroyed if I ruined this. Maybe after we marry, I would really love her and it would feel right. But if it wasn't right now, would it ever be?

"Carly Shay, do you take Fredward Benson to be your husband, for good and bad, for..." the priest continued.

"I do" she said.

"Fredward Benson, do you take Carly Shay to be you wife ..." he asked me. I needed to do it. If I didn't mine and Carly's family would be mad at me forever. It's not that marrying her would be bad, it's just that she wasn't the one for me.

"I..." I paused. I couldn't do it. I strongly believed in true love and I wanted it to happen to me.

"I can't do it" I said.

I saw my mother having a mixture of anger and confusion on her face. Everyone in the room was also really shocked.

And with that, I run out of the church, while everyone was staring at me.