Ashes of a Lonely Heart
Summary: Oneshot of Angel's thoughts while fighting in NFA
Disclaimer: Use it don't abuse it
A/N: Wrote it down in math and it stuck with me, short but sweet
All the years of fighting, saving, and helping the helpless. I wanted the reward in the beginning, still do just not as much.
Everyone says that I want Shanshu, sure it's a plus but not why I keep fighting.
Now I'm going to die in this alley, without my reward. If I survive I'll try. Even though I had my chance.
This will be the one time I saved the world.
My family is gone, my friends are leaving, and my love had been lost for so many years.
I wanted her and I screwed it up because I wanted to give her a life. Not going to blame her for hating me, I did too.
Shanshu was the gift and Buffy was the prize.
Now I'll never know how it would end. I'm leaving becoming ash, the ash of a lonely heart