A/N- I never intended to write anything sequel-ish to "How can this be normal", in fact the word sequel makes me slightly nauseous, but this flowed from me after reading "Unbreakable" by Chya (my favorite fanfic author to date). This goes along with the theory that Jesse was very introvert coming into MX (refer to above story for details). And for anyone who cares, I'm not really sure why I keep writing Shalimar poems when I don't think of her as very creative. Perhaps my subconscious thinks that deep down poetry is how Shalimar expresses her caring side. Or maybe I'm just crazy. Anyway, enjoy! Reviews are always welcome!
Orphans
By Paper Pieces
Even though you're quiet
I know you're there
But you don't
You don't know you're there
You don't believe you exist
You don't want to exist
There is no courage
where you are
Only a faint energy
of surrender
But if I know you
and I do
You will astound me
~*~
You ask what you are
You know you're a creature
An ugly one
Evil
Hellish
You know you should be locked away
You know that's why you're here
If you know that
You know nothing
~*~
Show me who you are
I wish to know
Why are you scared
Why do you hide
Can you not trust
You may be meek
You may be weak
You can be strong
You can be brave
Can you not trust
~*~
You live in fear
In your solitude
Isolated from the world
A world you think
will give you up
Like your other one did
in boredom
in disgust
in fear
You don't want to be
the world's orphan
~*~
Look at me
I feel you there
I feel a bond
A strange bond
Can you feel it
It runs from me
to you
I am you
You are me
We are both orphans
Of that world
Here we are
together
I have you
Will you have me
~*~
Jesse smiled as he walked down the long Sanctuary hallway. He could remember the feelings he had when he found the first poem on his bed. He remembered the tingling in his chest as he read the simple words on the paper. They had struck a strange chord in his heart. They felt pure and stripped of fanciness that might clutter the point. They said everything he needed someone to say. They answered every question he had.
In those moments when he received the small works, he knew that even though he didn't put himself out there, someone knew him and wanted to help him. They kept him from retreating into the background and dissipating into the nothingness he thought he belonged to. As they continued to come, he suddenly felt more and more understood, like someone cared, which, due to his early life experience, seemed so foreign.
Although she never admitted it, he knew the feral had written them. He had felt the bond between them, the bond of being different. It had been that poem that gave him the courage, the drive, to look her in the eye, for the first time, and smile. The smile she returned, one of joy and relief, was enough of a confession, as was every hug, every joke, every word, every look she gave him thereafter. It was the first step of the powerful friendship they had forged together.
As he reached his destination, he tucked the thin sheets of folded paper into his jacket pocket. Relaxing his muscles, he exhaled a long breath, expanding the molecules of his body and clothes. Easily he slid through the solid wood structure, past the locked door.
The bedroom was practically bare. With the exception of a small pile of clothes and the light flowery scent on the air, the room appeared to be hardly used at all.
He crept carefully to the side of the made bed. Gently, he pulled the paper from his pocket and looked over them again. In a way, he was sorry to see them go. Even now they were a source of comfort and assurance in his life.
But he knew that there was a better use for them.
He placed them delicately on the pale green sheets near the pillow and turn away to leave. With one final glance, he smiled again to himself and phased back through the door.
"Jesse, Jesse, Jesse."
Jesse turned in surprise and slight shock, fearing he'd blown the secretive act.
Shalimar smiled as she sauntered up the hallway. "How many times do I have to tell you? Use your powers for good, not a free peep show."
Jesse face tinted red with embarrassment as the feral stopped in front of him. "I wasn't, really."
"Right." Shalimar rolled her eyes at him playful as she nudged his shoulder. "You could at least make sure Emma's in there before you go phasing through the door." She chuckled through her words. "Come on. Adam's got her in the med lab, giving her the good and bad mutant lecture. We can watch from the upper window."
He watched as she extended her slender hand to him. Without hesitation he took it, gracefully moving it up and around to rest in his forearm. Linked arm in arm, the two began to walk down the hallway, together, toward their future friends, future battles, and future triumphs.
