"Haa-san?" Shigure would always say, whenever I was deep in thought.
"Yes?"
"Ever thought about getting out more often?" That threw me. Even though Shigure was the most annoying thing to walk this planet since those berks who created Tom and Jerry, he did have a point. I spent my time cooped up indoors, and as Aaya put it, 'wasting away'. I did have a social life once. It's just, I've had bad things happen to me out there, things worse than I could have ever imagined. Kana. The girl I thought I was once going to marry, my only love destroyed by Akito. Akito was feared by all of us, yet we could not abandon her. Akito was my dream, and my nightmare. My heaven and my hell. I owe it to her that I can't see properly through my left eye. That fateful night, I lost all hope. Shigure tried to stop her, but it just wasn't enough. Since then, I froze my heart, unwilling to open up to anyone, eyes as cold as stone.
Then came her. Tohru Honda. She allowed to me to open my heart to her, and accepted me for me. She didn't even laugh when I transformed in front of her. Like Kana. I always felt jealous about Kyo, knowing that she loved him more than she did me. In her heart, I was merely a dear friend. However, to me, she was much more. I longed for the day when the curse would break, so I could hold her in my arms freely, and tell her I loved her. When that day came, she was with Kyo. And, once again, my heart broke, never to heal again.