It Burns And Freezes Likewise

I find no peace yet all my war is done

It is over. There is no longer anything going on yet that silence is war in itself. I can't just take it. I hate it.

I fear and hope, I burn and freeze likewise

I know that even if I tried, it will only lead to disaster. There's no use trying. The consequences are too grave yet I still wish some light would appear and help me.

I burn and freeze. It hurts so much. The lack of your presence... is so hard to take.

Tyki, I miss you. I miss you so much.

Only a few days and weeks have passed but cliche as it may sound, for me it feels like centuries.

Lying on this bed alone makes me feel so cold without you by my side. I feel so cold and alone with you not here.

I miss you so much. I miss you, Tyki. I miss you.

I want you back but I know that can never be. I destroyed every chance I had to be with you. I severed all my ties leading to you.

I miss you, Tyki. I miss you so much. I want you back. I want to be back by your side. I miss you. I miss every part of you. I miss you so much, Tyki. I miss you.

Please go back. Please come back, Tyki. I miss you. I miss you so much. I miss you.

The red head longs for the older man but he knows his wishes can no longer be. He himself was the one who severed his ties. He left Tyki on his own.

They were so happy, smiling and together. Simple moments they cherished and enjoyed not wishing for anything greater.

The older man worked in a company while the younger was simply a college student working part time in his grandfather's library. They had been together for more than three years and planned on living together despite the protests of the older man's family about the relationship. They were going to go on with it and firm about their decision but something happened.

The older man was out of the country doing business for a week. The younger man worked like usual in the library not expecting a visitor. It was the older man's brother. He threatened the younger man to end the relationship else problems will befall the older man endure as he might try. The younger didn't waver and stood firm with his decision. He and the older talked the possibility about this situation happening and Lavi was told not to believe the brother of the older man's words.

The brother not wanting to give up decided to use drastic measures. When the red head was going home, strangers suddenly dragged him from behind to an unknown place. They held him in provocative and misleading positions and took pictures of it. They beat the hell out of him then left him there in the alleyway.

He went home bruised and covered all injuries. He went back to work pretending that nothing happened. He figured that the brother was the one behind the attack. The older man might only worry so he never said a thing over the phone.

Going back to his a apartment, the brother met up with him once more to talk. He threatened the red head about the pictures. Nothing did happen but the pictures suggests otherwise. The brother even told Lavi that Tyki should have been promoted many times but it didn't happen. He reasoned out the Lavi is one of the reasons hindering Tyki from his future. And lastly, the brother threatened to close down the library which will cause the old man and the employees to lose their jobs. The red head although reluctant agreed to end the relationship with the older man. He stopped answering the calls and messages. The older man returning went straight to the red head.

With an indifferent face he tried to hold, Lavi ended their relationship. He said hurtful words to stop the older man from trying. He said his goodbyes and closed the door.

The moment the engine started and left. The red head fell to his knees crying until he fell asleep on the cold floor.

Tyki, I miss you. I miss you so much. I want you back. I miss you. I miss you, Tyki. I miss you so much. I miss you.

The pain burns and freezes likewise.

`littlebunny1412: This is just is just a short oneshot tragic story that I won't continue since it's a oneshot. The few lines that may seem familiar there came from a sonnet by Petrarch entitle "Love's Inconsistency". I'm giving this to you guys and hope you like it since the next update I'll be doing for my other fanfics will be in march.

If anyone really wants this continued and in detail, if you are a lot of people, I might continue it. My priority though are the first fanfics before this one.

If anyone would like, I might place Tyki's point of view.

02/20/2012