Author's Note: This is the sequel to Then I Did, it's told in Mike's point of view instead of Freddy's. The kids are now 15 so it's been about 10 years since Then I Did and Freddy and Zack got together and everything.
Warning: Slash, language, angst
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. The song lyrics at the end are to the song Some Things I Know b Billy Gilman.
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My life has been everything but normal.
I never met my dad and I know I had a mom, but I can't remember her.
My sister, Amanda, remembers her, but she's always had a better memory then me, and from what I know it took her longer to adjust to mommy's death.
I've always wondered what life would be like if my mom hadn't been killed, if it had been just her, Amanda, and I. I've always wondered if Amanda and I would have turned out any differently.
I love my family; don't get me wrong, but sometimes I just wonder what could have been.
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When we were younger, Amanda and I were inseparable, but things have changed now that we're in high school. She has her friends, and I have mine.
I miss the time we used to have alone, though. I miss her knowing everything about me, everything I felt, everything I thought. I miss her gentle smile and soft words.
I wish we could spend more time with each other, but Amanda has cross-country practice while I have soccer, she practices guitar with dad, while I drum with Freddy.
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I never told anyone I was gay.
It's not that my family wouldn't accept it, they would, no questions asked. I guess I'm just scared.
I'm scared of what my friends would think.
I don't want anything to change, change anymore then it already has anyway.
I want to be seven again when all that mattered was coloring inside the lines and naptime, and you could kiss whomever you wanted without it meaning anything.
I want my sister back; she's the only one who's ever known me well enough to realize something's up, the only one that I let know everything about me.
Amanda knows something up though; I can see it in her eyes. But, after a year of not being so close, she doesn't know how to approach me about it.
Telling her I'm gay isn't really the problem though, I mean, our parents Zack and Freddy have been together for ten years.
The problem is telling her I have a crush on her best friend.
There's some things I know to be true
Snow is white, and the ocean is blue
Rain is wet, and it falls from the sky
And the stars come out every night
And just as sure as the sun will rise
This love is real, you see in my eyes
Fantasy and it will grow
Some things I know
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Author's Note: Eh, I'm not sure if I liked that very much? I kinda did, lol.
Well, anyway, I hope you guys all liked it!
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