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thing of it. I hope you all like it.
Yes it is a yaoi. And if you don't like it to bad. Just leave now then. I warned you.
Disclaimer: I do not own shaman king. Never have, never will.
Family ties
Ren sat there all alone in his dark room. En had been right, "a Tao could never
love or be loved". Ren remembered back to the first time en had told him that.
Ren was bleeding profusely from his arm. The maid's huge husky had bitten him. En had
watched the whole thing. Ren had seen the dog before. It was always so sweet. But as
soon as he had entered the room the dog had lunged at him. The dog went straight for his
throat. Luckily he had moved and blocked. But his arm still received the dog's wrath. The
tears just continued to stream down his face. He had done nothing to agitate the dog. He
just walked in the room. The dog turned to face En. A deep growl emanated from deep in
its throat. En showed no emotion. He just glared at the beast. To Rens horror the dog
started to shake. Not just a little but viciously. The menacing growl stopped abruptly and
was replaced by whimpering. En had not even moved. Just stared at it. En stepped
forward. He picked the dog up by the back of the neck. Any living thing would have tried
to get away, but the dog just lay limp. Ren shivered. He knew that feeling all too well. All
the times he'd been held like that so many times. That's when en's booming voice rang
out.
"Ren you see what has happened? You showed this creature an opening. You showed
him that you would not hold him out. So what happened to you?"
Between sobs he answered "I… I got bit."
"It's not this creatures fault. It is yours." He waved the dog as it hung lifeless in the air. It
was too afraid to move. "You are a Tao. The Taos are cursed and blessed. We can not
feel love or give it. Showing love is to show weakness. Do you understand my son?" Ren
sat there silently. Slowly he shook his head yes. He continued to stare at the ground.
"Good now let us continue your training."
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"He was right." It had been such a long time since he had last cried. He refused to show
those emotions. En had been right. He had fallen in love with him and now look, He was
hurt. Rens heart hurt so bad. It felt like a clamp was squeezing all the life out of it. Ren
stood up and walked out of his room. He lived in a one bed room suite. It was nice to say
the least. But it was all he needed. He could not go back home. Not if En found out that
he had not won the shaman fight yet. He shivered at the mere thought. It scared the life
out of him. Even though he would never admit it. He was afraid of En. He went to the
fridge and grabbed the milk. He chugged it. Not like anyone would care if he drank right
from the container. He went to the coach and plopped down. Usually he would go train,
but seeing as it was 2:47 am he just could not justify it. He really didn't care right now
either. He looked around him "home". It was so empty. 'Just like me'. Then he rolled
over and he heard it. Crack. He stood up and lifted up the cushion. There was a picture
under it. He bent over and picked it up. His heart stopped. It was not just any picture. It
was one of him and Yoh. He threw the picture and ran from the room. He hit his bed and
just laid face down. Yoh ….. He had never loved him. It was all just a game. He put his
face in the pillow and yelled. "Why ….. why does it hurt so bad? I know it was not real.
But I still hurt. Why? Please make it stop." The last part was just a whisper. But it was
still there. He slowly drifted to sleep. His dreams were horrible. Be just wanted it to go
away. But luckily for him help was on his way.