Chapter 1
Bella's POV:
I didn't go to Jake's place today. I decided he needed time away from me. I can see I am annoying him a lot lately. So I called and told him to hang out with his friends and I would just catch up on some homework and chores. Right now I am doing the laundry. Soon I will be making dinner and heading off for bed.
That night I had another one of those nightmares. I was standing in front of Edward staring at his beautiful face. He stared at me with the most loving eyes. Then he suddenly started fading. I started to scream.
"NO! Edward don't leave! Please stay!" I was screaming and then I felt tears coming down my eyes and my breathing had a hitch to it. I was sobbing. I leaped at Edward and missed. He started fading faster and I sobbed harder. Then Jacob was in his place. Jacob was smiling my favorite smile. The tears didn't stop but they slowed. I was just crying now. No sobs. Then Jake started fading. I cried a little harder and then sobbed again- though not as hard as before. He was then replaced with Edward. I stopped crying all together then and went to hug him. I was so happy to see Edward again, I forgot all about Jacob. Then Edward was fading again. I screamed and sobbed again. Then right before he finished fading Jacob stood besides him. That was when I saw the two paths before me. One led to Edward and the other to Jake. I vaguely knew this was a dream so I decided to choose Edward- I knew I would never get that choice in reality. Jake faded all the way this time and Edward stood there perfectly. He leaned down to kiss me and I stretched to my toes. Instead his lips went to my ear. He whispered words that I had hoped to never hear again. I wanted to die at those words.
"I don't want you Bella," he whispered. I noticed I was crying again. "You should have stayed with Jacob. He wants you, not me."
"NO! I NEED you! You can't leave! Not again!" I was sobbing so hard I was on the edge of hysteria. My knees trembled and gave out. I fell to the ground and watched Edward disappear. Then I got up and told myself that I will live. I could survive. Then I realized Edward was never returning and instantly wanted to die. I screamed and woke up.
Whoa that was a weird dream. Or nightmare I should call it. I was crying when I woke and sweating. I got up to start another dreaded day without Edward. After my shower I crawled in to bed and cried for at least 2 hours. When I was all cried out, I ate breakfast and called Jake. I needed to be with him today.
Edward's POV:
Here I am. I finally made it. I would suffer no longer. I will beg if I have to, but no matter what I am never going back. The pain was too much for me to ever want to go back. But would the pain be even worse if I was rejected? For that I had no answer. At least I would see her everyday. That should ease the pain. I am not going back so I must do this and I must do it soon. First, though, I want to see how she is doing. Did Bella move on? I am going to find.
So I am here outside of her window. Waiting for her to sleep. She was soon in deep sleep so I opened the window and went to the rocking chair. There was a faintly bad smell to her room but I didn't mind. As I watched her sleep I thought that maybe she had moved on. Then she did something that told me that no she hadn't moved on. She said my name with a sigh.
"Edward," she said softly. "Oh Edward you're back. I am glad you are back. I missed you a lot. Oh Edward please don't leave me again. I need you to stay."
I will, I could never leave you again. I thought.
"NO!" She suddenly screamed. I jumped up to protect her and then sat down when I realized she was still sleeping. "NO! Edward don't leave me. Please stay," She was suddenly sobbing. I watched knowing I could not stop it. It was torture. Her whole face was wet. So was the blankets. She looked like she was about to roll off her bed.
Suddenly she was quiet. There were still tears coming out of her eyes. "Jacob," She said softly. I knew that she had moved on then. This Jacob was probably better any way.
She started to cry again but not as hard. Then her face lit up like magic. She reached out of her bed and then put her arms back down. "Edward!" She shouted happily. Now I was just confused. Had she replaced me or not? Then she screamed and sobbed for about a minute. She was then quiet. She whipped her head back and forth. Then she smiled. It was a brilliant smile.
"I choose you, Edward," She whispered. I was for certain she hadn't replaced me now.
"What you don't… want… me?" She was crying again. "I should have picked Jake? NO! I NEED you! Please don't leave me again!" She sobbed so hard it was like a fountain. She was suddenly quiet and I knew the dream was over. I went to the window and jumped out. Then I went for a hunt so that I could figure things out.