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Warning: may contain spoilers, may not. Your call.

"He loved you, and he left you. Is that really something you want to experience another time around? It's like being bitten by a spider then saying you enjoyed it."

Zero Kiryu

Chapter one: Kaname.

I had never been interested in love. I guess since the day my whole life was taken from me (literally) it had never crossed my mind that one day, I would in fact, fall hard for a girl. Well, actually if she was just a girl this might not be so difficult to admit. But, to add to my misfortune she is my friend, who is in fact in love with someone else. Maybe I should explain. I guess it started almost two months ago today.

My names Zero Kiryu by the way.

She was sitting on a park bench reading, which was rare. She didn't ever study, so curiously I approached her. "Are you sick or something?" I asked, merely teasing. I was answered with a glare.

"No. I have an important test tomorrow. You wouldn't understand, you don't have to study." She was right. I was fairly brilliant, not to brag or anything, my parents were big on education.

"Your right." I sat down next to her. Her name was Yuki Cross, and she had been my best friend since I was very young. I was forced out of my home and her adopted father was kind enough to take me in. He was the headmaster of a prestigious school that not only taught human students, referred to as the day class but also a night class full of vampires. I, much to my own disgust am also a vampire.

"You sure you're not running a fever?" I laughed, which was rare for me.

She sighed. "I'm fine, Zero." She answered. Then I remembered why she was studying so hard. She made an absolute zero on her last test, dropping her grade to an abysmal level. At this rate, she would flunk a grade and her precious Kaname Kuran would think less of her. If only I was that lucky.

Kuran and I have a certain understanding. Yuki is his and it is in his twisted mind my job to protect her until he can have her. Or so he tells me anyway. I don't know exactly what he is 

planning, but I know I don't like him, or any other vampire for that matter. And before you ask, yes, that includes myself.

"It's going to be a tough night. Are you sure you're up to it?" Her eyes had black rings around them, and she looked very dis-shelved and upset.

"I think I can manage." She said. Tonight another pure-breed vamp was coming to attend some kind of party they were holding at the night class, and Yuki and I happened to have personal invitations. We were the guardians of the school, and our soul duty was to keep the night class at bay and make certain that the day class never discovers their secret.

I leaned back against the bench, attempting small talk. "I don't really know what to wear." Not that I was concerned about what the vampires thought of me, but in the darkest part of my mind I was slightly worried about what Yuki thought.

"You shouldn't worry. Just wear your school uniform, it looks pretty formal." She shrugged it off. I realized that attempting conversation with her was futile; I was just going to have to wait.

"Right. See you tonight then." I left, and she never said a word.

The headmaster bathroom was amazing, much better than the one in the guy's dorm room, so when the party drew nearer I headed to the bathroom to get ready. The headmaster had given me a few blood tablets to tide me over. They were substitute blood products, kind of like soy is a substitute meat product. Except, unlike soy, they weren't satisfying in any way.

I dropped them in the toilet and flushed. Maybe I just liked torturing myself? There was a slight nock at the bathroom door, and I figured it wasn't the headmaster. "Hold on." I made sure all the tablets were gone; Yuki was sensitive about me taking them as I should. Once I was sure that I was in the clear I opened the door for her.

She came in and stared at herself in the large mirror. All the makeup in the world couldn't have covered up her blatant lack of sleep, and judging by the look on her face she knew that. She was unusually down, most of the time she was perky, clumsy and hyper, but today she just looked sad.

At the time I didn't think much about it, but now I wonder if her mood wasn't a sign for what was to come.

I left her alone in the bathroom and headed back to my room. No use in getting to the night dorm early, I wanted to do as little social activity as necessary. It was my job to be there after all, even if Kaname Kuran had given me a personal invitation a few days earlier.

It was five minutes prior the party before I began my trek towards the knight dorm. The night air was cold and refreshing, and the silence was sweet. I closed my eyes and breathed in the night, unable to resist. Nothing unordinary in the air, nothing sinister, just absolute calm.



Yuki was already there, being harassed by Aido more formerly known as Idol to the day class females, one of the most popular vampire students. She was wearing a clingy yellow dress, and getting plenty of attention from all the vampires, male and female. Kaname was nowhere in sight, and neither was the other purebred who was supposed to be attending. I went over to tell Aido to shove off. A hand landed on my shoulder, it was the night class vice president. (A/n: I don't know the V.P.'s name, and I don't have my books with me so…sorry)

"Don't look so grim, Zero, he is just kidding around with her." He offered me a blood colored drink. Seeing the look on my face he assured "It's just wine." I declined his offer anyway. "Suit yourself." He headed off towards one of the night class girls, offering her the same drink.

By this point Aido and his cousin, Kain had noticed me."Welcome school guardian Zero Kiryu." Aido joked. He wasn't too fond of Zeros higher position.

"Aido Hanabusa." I answered "You're not causing problems are you?" I didn't need to ask, Aido was always causing problems.

"No school guardian, I'm being a good little bloodsucker." He smiled, showing off his fangs.

"Put those away" Yuki snapped at him.

"Sorry Yuki" Aido leaned down to kiss her hand, but froze at the last minute.

"Please, Aido, show some restraint." Kaname stood just inches away from Yuki. The look on his face was impassive as always, but the air around him was angry. Aido backed away respectfully.

"Sorry Kaname, I was only joking."

"Where is this mysterious purebred anyway, Kuran?" I asked. No one had talked much about the guests. Purebreds were hard to come by these days, but no one seemed to know which purebred had been invited.

"He is a friend of the family so to speak. His name is Bato Hatake; I have only met him once, when I was younger." He seemed uninterested in meeting him again. Yuki stayed quiet, watching Kaname.

Kaname held his hand out for her, and led her away. Aido sighed in relief "That was a close one." He turned to me "Enjoy the party." He headed off to another group of night class girls. Kain shook his head.

"Don't be so stiff" He said, and then followed Aido. Like he had any room to talk, Kain was more unemotional than Kaname.



I stood against a wall surveying the partygoers. The red liquid in the 'chocolate' fountain poured free, and the smell pulsed from it. It wasn't wine that much was clear. My temple pulsed, and I felt my fangs grow. It defiantly wasn't wine.

Another hand landed on my shoulder, it was a man I didn't recognize. He was older and wrinkled, with grey frizzy hair and dark eyes. "Could you tell me, friend where I can find Kaname Kuran?" He asked, smiling.

"You must be Bato Hatake." I didn't consider myself a vampire, so I didn't respect their formalities.

"That you are, son." He clasped me on the back "I like you. No reservations." He laughed whole heartedly.

"Common, I am sure he is on the balcony." Kaname liked to take Yuki to the balcony where they could sit on the couch and talk in private. Bato followed me and as expected Kaname sat curling Yukis hair in his fingers talking to her in an intentionally low voice.

"Kaname Kuran!" Bato boasted, his chubby face turning red "How nice to see you!" Kaname stood up and they bowed to each other.

"Bato Hatake, I am glad you could make it." Kaname smiled a tense smile. Yuki looked out of place. "I hope you were treated kindly" Kaname said, pointedly looking in my direction.

"Oh yeah, more than I could have hoped." Bato patted me once more. I wished he would stop touching me.

"That is good to hear. Would you like to look around?"

"Well, a peak might not hurt, but I am old and these night time suare's are a little much for me." He followed Kaname, but stopped long enough to wink at me before he left. My skin crawled. 'Creepy old man.' I thought.

"I'm about ready to go." Yuki said, yawning. There was a slight tremble in her voice.

"Yeah, I've been ready." I snorted. She stood up and looped her arm in mine.

"Common then." She smiled. At least she was acting a little more normal. I didn't bother pulling away, I just allowed her to drag me through the partiers.

Aido stopped us at the door. "Going so soon? Why, it's just getting good." His fangs were fully protruded, and his eyes were splotched with red.

"Go back to your drink, Aido." I warned.



Instead of making some funny retort, or even sneering at me, Aido simply threw his drink in my face. He leaned in and whispered "Common Zero, you know you want it." Then he left, chuckling to himself.

The blood smell swam in my brain, I had to get away from the night class, and I had to get away from Yuki. I pulled away as gently as I could and took off for the headmaster's bathroom. I had to wash the blood off before it drove me crazy.

I scrubbed and scrubbed but nothing would get rid of the smell. I sunk down to the floor, burying my head in my hands. I hated this, my cursed existence. I hated the need, the unavoidable craving I had for blood. But most of all I hated the fact that Yuki offered hers up to me, as if it would solve some of my problems.

Why did she care about me anyway? And why did I care whether she cared or not? It seemed like every time I was exposed to the need, I thought about her. There was a knock at the door. Now I knew why I thought about her, because every time I was exposed, she turned up.

"Zero?" She peeked in the door. There were still dark marks under her eyes. I couldn't hide it from her. She curled around the door and shut it, turning the lock. "That wasn't right of him to do. I don't think he did it on purpose."

I almost rolled my eyes at her, and then thought better of it. "Of course he did. He knows about me." My status as a vampire is a complete secret, and if it were to get out the knight class would start a riot.

"Maybe he was only kidding?" She was attempting to rationalize the situation to make me feel better.

"No, he knows." I sighed "It doesn't matter; Kaname won't let him tell anyone." I wanted her to leave; she was only making the need worse.

"Are you ok?" She asked, sitting beside me.

"Yeah, I'm fine. It wasn't blood anyway." I lied.

"Zero…I know you. You've got that look." She looked at me with a concerned expression.

"I'm fine." I looked away from her.

She held her hand out to show me something, I couldn't resist looking, but I immediately regretted it. She held five blood tablets; they looked like everyday prescription medication, except for the label on them. "He told me you haven't been taking them." She said, speaking of the head master.

"I don't need them." I lied again.



"Zero!" She stood up and stared down at me "You know that isn't true." She held up a compact mirror "Just look at you." I ignored my reflection, because I knew what I would see. Shame, and hurt, anger and fear, my own personal nightmare, and the darkness in my eyes. "Bite me." She said. She didn't mean it to be cute. She was serious. She dropped down to her knees and held her head up, revealing her neck to me. "Please Zero" She begged.

I was no longer able to ignore it, so I leaned into her, pressing my mouth against her neck and burying my fangs deep. Maybe what bothered me the most was that she never made a sound, neither pain nor pleasure crossed her features until she was at her limit and the color drained from her cheeks. I didn't get quite that far this time, before the headmaster was pounding at the door.

"Zero! We have a problem!" He sounded anxious and urgent. I looked at Yuki, and she knew as well as I did that the headmaster couldn't catch us together.

She ducked into the bathtub, trying her best to stay out of site. I opened the door "What kind of problem headmaster Cross?" I asked, hoping there was no blood on my face.

"Kaname Kuran is injured, we must hurry!" He took off running expecting me to follow. Before I could register what he had said Yuki stormed past me, running down the hallway as if she had wings. I ran after her, if Kaname really was injured, she couldn't be the first one to find him.

I beat her to the night class dorm, he was easy enough to find since all the students were gathered around him. "Move out of my way" I snapped, pushing through the angry vampires. He was covered in blood, it was smeared through his hair and dripping from his stomach. Yuki shoved me out of the way.

"KANAME!" She shouted, dropping down to his side. She still had blood running down her neck.

He looked saddened to see her "Yuki please" He placed his hand on her cheek "I am fine, you need to go" He leaned closer to her "Your attracting a lot of attention." She reached up to the bite mark on her neck.

"Oh" She blushed, and then her panic set back in "But Kaname-sama your hurt!"

"I assure you I am fine, I will heal quickly." He smiled reassuringly at her. Headmaster Cross dragged her away in tears. Kaname looked at all his spectators. "Leave us." He said. The others did as they were told.

"Kuran…" He held his hand up to stop me.



"A purebloods blood is the only thing that can kill another pureblood. How do you think I killed Maria?" I didn't comment. Maria Kurenia (A/n: I think I spelled her name wrong.) was another story entirely. "I will die."

"But, what about you're healing powers?" I asked, not that I cared about Kaname, but this was going to crush Yuki.

"We're not really immortal Zero. You need to understand that." He sighed "There is always a limit, and for every life there is certain death." He seemed so calm.

"Bato, He did this to you didn't he?" I asked, although the answer was obvious.

"Yes, I didn't expect it. He caught me when my guard was down, the coward. I feel foolish for trusting him." He just smiled.

"Why? What motive is there?" I asked

"To kill off the Kurans." He answered matter-of-factly. "Our bloodline will die with me. It's a brilliant plan." He was staring at the door, as if expecting someone.

"Zero, promise me something." He looked solemn.

"Sure" I reluctantly agreed.

"Take care of her. She is all I have, you don't understand. Or rather, you do understand, and that's why I need you to help me." He continued staring at the door.

"Kuran, I mean Kaname, you can't leave her. She loves you, Kaname." I didn't know why I was being so sentimental, but I had never been put on the spot in this type of situation before.

"I know, I love her as well, but there is nothing I can do." He touched the wound on his stomach, and then held his hand up to view the blood. He brought his hand down and licked the blood off his longest finger. "You need to go, Zero. I need to be alone."

I stood up and headed for the door. I turned back to say something to him, but he was gone. "Don't worry Kaname." I whispered. I would take care of Yuki. She had already cared for me more than enough.

Three Days Later-

The funeral wasn't traditional, it was royal. No one from the night class was invited, even headmaster Cross received only a single invitation. He left early in the morning, on a private plane dressed in his finest black clothes, fit for a royal vampire funeral. I hadn't seen Yuki since the vice president of the night class announced the death of the pure blood Kaname Kuran.



I was worried about her, but she wouldn't answer anytime I knocked on her door. Even her best friend and roommate had been staying in another room because Yuki wanted to be alone. I approach Sayori, Yukis best friend after class. If I could help it, I didn't make habit of talking to her, but this was important.

"Sayori, can I talk to you?" I asked.

"What Kiryu?" She said.

"How is she?" I tried to be nonchalant.

"Not good Zero, she won't open the door, I haven't seen her cry. She keeps staring into space with this distant look, it's really sad." She shook her head from side to side.

"You need to talk to her." I said.

She gave me an annoyed looks "No, Zero, you need to talk to her."She said.

I stared at her "Me? Why me?" I asked.

"I know you have self-esteem issues because you don't think you're as good as Kaname Kuran but, and I don't mean to be morbid or anything but Zero, he is dead." She watched my reaction "You need to talk to her, seriously. Before she does something stupid."

I knew what she meant, even if she didn't know. It would be just like Yuki to go after Bato Hatake, to try and seek revenge for Kaname. I headed for her bedroom and knocked on the door. "Yuki, open the door or I will kick it down." I heard something move inside the room and a moment later the locks clicked and the door opened.

I had never seen her like this, dark black mark around her bloodshot eyes, her hair was messy and her cloths dis-shelved like she had been wallowing in self-pity. Her cheeks were pale and she hadn't even bothered to bandage the bite mark I had left on her. "Yuki…" I didn't know what to say, consolence wasn't my strong point.

"Don't start Zero. I know." She went and sat on her bed.

"If you know then why haven't you come out? You've been in here for three days Yuki." I said, closing the door and sitting on the opposite bed.

"They didn't even invite me to the funeral." She said, clamping her eyes shut.

"Yuki, maybe it's better that you didn't go." I said, looking at her from the corner of my eyes.

"How can you say that?" She asked. "He was…" She stopped mid-sentence. I didn't want her to answer. I didn't want to know about her and Kuran.



"You haven't slept; your body has to be wearing down." I said. "You have always been concerned for me, can't I return the favor?"

Her eyes began to tear up. "Zero…just tell me one thing…is he really dead?" She was in the denial stage.

"Yes Yuki, he is." I whispered. She stood up and for a second I thought she was going to leave the room, but instead she sat down next to me and broke down in tears. I awkwardly put my arm around her. "It's ok."

We stayed like that for a long time, before she finally tired herself out and fell asleep. I lay back on the bed, careful not to wake her and she slept on me for a good two hours. I watched her chest rise and fall, her steady rhythmic breathing almost made me want to go to sleep.

She woke up dazed, but she didn't say anything. "You need to bandage that wound" I said. She simply nodded. The next day she came to school smiling her usual smile. Her eyes were no longer dark and she looked as if nothing had ever happened.

I didn't talk to her, I still felt a little strange about last night, but she waltzed right up to me. "Good morning Zero." She said.

"Good morning." I answer, confused by her mood. She walked off, greeting others in the same eerie fashion. There was something wrong with her, so after school I cornered her. She was standing by the night building, waiting for darkness to fall. "Hey" I greeted.

She jumped when she heard me. "Oh hey."

"Not really on your guard tonight, are you feeling better?" I asked.

"Yeah, I feel fine." She smiled.

"I don't believe that." I said.

"Look, if you're talking about yesterday I'm sorry. I was upset and confused and I didn't really know what I was doing." She shook her head from side to side as if she couldn't believe her own actions.

"That's not the problem. I know you loved him." I said.

She looked shocked. Obviously she didn't know I knew. "You know?" She gasped.

"Oh Yuki, Everyone knows! It's obvious; it's been obvious since I moved in with you and the headmaster." My voice raised up a few octaves before I could help it. She glared at me, then simply turned and walked away. I grabbed her hand "Yuki, say something."

"Fine, LEAVE ME ALONE!" She shouted, storming off.



Aido stepped out of the shadows once she was out of sight, clapping his hands. "Bravo, Kiryu." He applauded. "Very smooth."

"Oh shut up, Aido." I said, heading back to the dorms.

The next day Yuki wouldn't talk to me. She wouldn't even look at me. Her roommate cornered me after school. "Some talk you guys must have had." She said.

"I don't know what went wrong. She is being unreasonable." I answered angrily.

"Maybe you should have respected her feelings, instead of rubbing it in her face." She said.

"She told you?" I snarled.

"No I…uh…" She rubbed the back of her head "I was standing nearby." I didn't notice her holding her neck.

"Don't patronize me." I mumbled walking away from her. Yukis door was open, I glanced in but it was empty. A moment of panic struck me. What if she had gone off to find Bato? I ran down the hallway, but ended up in front of the headmaster's bathroom. The shower was on and the door was open.

I didn't want to peak at her, and I certainly didn't want to walk in on the headmaster taking a shower but I had to make sure she was ok. "Yuki?" I asked through the crack in the door. I received no answer. "Yuki?" I asked a second time.

The shower water turned off. "Zero?" Yuki peaked around the door, her hair dripping wet a towel wrapped around her body. "What's up?" She asked, acting as if we hadn't just fought.

"I wanted to" I swallowed my pride "Apologize, you know, for earlier." I looked away from her. "I didn't mean to say the things that I said."

"It's ok, Zero. Don't worry about it. I understand that you're worried about me and I'm grateful for it." She pushed the door open a little wider "I promise that I am ok." She smiled, and then held her arms open. I rolled my eyes and hugged her.

As much as it pained me, I had to say it. "Yuki, you know I'm here for you, right?"

She smiled "Of course." She touched her neck, and then closed the bathroom door. I leaned against the door. Why was I feeling so helpless? And why did I have the darkest suspicion that she wasn't ok?

A/N: Hey! Mitsuki here. So this is my first Vampire Knight Fan fiction. I apologize in advance for any mistakes on name spelling; I don't have my books for referencing. Well, you know what 

to do people read and review, and please NO FLAMES! Stay tuned for chapter two: The littlest black spider, coming soon.