i don't own anything just this idea.
I've got this story in my head since the first season finale's cliffhanger. And after Skye finding out that her dad is alive in 2x03 I thought 'damn, just fucking write it already.'
I want to stick true to the show so I won't change much. I'll try to base most of the storyline from the show unless it doesn't fit with my story.
I hope you'll like it. Enjoy.

CHAPTER 1

The First

"Your father's alive. He's looking for you."

It's been hours since her talk with Ward, but his words kept on replaying in her head. She was rattled, that she cannot deny. She hadn't expected this sudden revelation coming from the man whom she once considered her S.O.

It should be easy to think of it as a lie. Why shouldn't it be? He betrayed her and the team, he hurt her friends, and he even took advantage of her feelings for him... But, for some reason, she just couldn't. She didn't know what it was that made her believe in his words. Was it because he promised her that he would only tell her the truth or because, deep down, she always believed that somehow her parents were alive.

And now, after hearing him say the one thing that she so deeply wondered for so many years, she felt that her hoping for them to be alive wasn't as hopeless as she thought. Her parents, or well, her father, is alive. And he's been looking for her.

"It's okay to feel overwhelmed." a voice pulled Skye back from her thoughts.

"M-May." Skye stuttered when she turned and found her new SO leaning against the wall, studying her. Skye shook her head lightly, trying to clear her head from the issue that was bothering her. "Overwhelmed? Overwhelmed about what?" she then asked.

"Shooting Donnie Gill." May replied. "You've been looking at that target with such intensity. So I presumed that that's what it's troubling you. Unless you're imagining that the target is Ward again?" she said as she gently walked towards Skye.

Skye looked at May, confused, before realizing where she was. She had no idea how she ended up at the shooting range, or why her feet even brought her here. But here she was, and staring at the target she was. Skye just shrugged.

May studied the young agent. "Is everything alright?"

"Yeah." Skye said too eagerly, resulting for May to give her a more suspicious look. "I mean, yes. Why wouldn't anything be alright? And, yeah, you got me, I was picturing the targets to be Ward since I'm not really supposed to think of the targets as targets when I'm actually going to put a bullet through it."

May sighed. "And here I thought you've become a better liar."

"Damn." Skye muttered.

"Well?"

"Okay. It's just that... I'm confused... Earlier I..." she paused, unsure how to start it or if she even wanted to share it to anyone just yet. After a long pause, she sighed. She decided that she didn't want to make the team worry about something that Ward told her. Something that could be a lie but to which she is a hundred percent certain that is true.

"There is still no news about Donnie." Skye then said, choosing to divert her worry to another topic. It wasn't a lie. She was worried about Donnie. The memory of pulling the trigger and of Donnie falling from the cargo ship haunted her. And since May had been bringing up Donnie every chance she got, why not finish the talk once and for all. For some reason, although it felt that May thought of her weak after incapacitating someone, she was glad that she could at least talk to her SO about one of the issues that was burdening her. "If he's dead..."

"If he's dead, he's dead." May finished, which took Skye by surprise. "It's okay to feel guilty; to mourn even. But you should understand that sometimes you just have to do things that goes against your nature, not because it's the right thing to do, but because you had to." She said and gave Skye a sympathetic look. "You shot him. And he may have died because of the shot, but it's not because you wanted to kill him. It's because you had to in order to save people." May said as she placed a hand on Skye's shoulder. "You shot him, Skye. You didn't murder him. Those two things are different." May said before adding, "Don't forget that, Skye."

Skye could only nod.

Seeing that the young agent seemed to be still a little bit rattled by the earlier event, May reached for the earmuffs and handed them to Skye.

"Practice." May said and pointed to the target.

"Seriously?" Skye said. It took her by surprise that May would ask her to do something after informing her how disconcerting she felt.

"I don't care if you're going to sulk all day." May started.

"Of course you don't." Skye said under her breath as she rolled her eyes.

May just ignored her. "It's never going to be easy. From here on, it's going to get harder and harder. So hard that you'd want to give up. But this is our job. Your job. And we need you to stay focused." May said and grabbed one of the gun from the armory. She took hold of Skye's hand and placed the gun on it. "Take all your frustration out on the target as you practice. But remember, you're aiming to shoot, not to kill."

Skye nodded. She put the earmuffs on and locked her eyes on the target.

May gave her a reassuring nod before she left her subordinate to practice.

"Like I've told you, my ex really thinks I'm useless." Skye heard Hunter say in reply to something Mack said as she approached the team. Fitz was sitting at the corner, his eyes locked on a prototype he and Mack are trying to perfect but Skye knew better where his focus really were.

"You keep bringing up your wife. If I didn't know better, I'd think you actually miss her." Skye teased while she searched the fridge for any refreshment. The only thing that she could find was a bottle of water.

Hunter forced a chuckle. "Ha. That's funny."

"Please. It's hilarious." Skye said as she sat at the empty seat next to Hunter. She untwisted the cap of the bottle and almost finished the entire content in just one gulp.

"Easy there, koala." Hunter said. "What? Was there a wildfire where you came from?"

"Now, that's funny." Mack chuckled.

Skye just rolled her eyes. "I was at the range, practicing. And when I looked at the time, more than half an hour has gone by. So yeah, I'm thirsty."

"Woah. That's a lot of ammo you've spent practicing with." Hunter said and looked at Mack. "Didn't you jus told me that we're below the required inventory?"

"I did." Mack confirmed. "But it's fine. The director wouldn't mind it as long as it's Skye who spent the ammo."

"Oh, right. I forgot that she's his prodigy."

"And I think you forgot that 'she' is sitting right here." Skye glared at Hunter. "And please, I'm nobody's prodigy."

"Oh please. You didn't go to the Academy, and yet you're currently one of the top field agents in Coulson's team. So yeah, you're the prodigy."

"Call me that again and I'm going to use the remaining ammo on you."

"Why can't you just threaten me like a normal girl would do?" Hunter said. "There's too much testosterone already. It gets kinda boring."

"May's a girl." Skye said.

"May's a woman. And she's totally on a different level." he said in a very serious tone.

"Well, if only Simmons-" Skye stopped when she remembered that Fitz was sitting at one corner of the room. "Well. I guess you just have to get used to it." she then said only to get a frustrated grunt from Fitz before the young scientist scrambled to his feet and left the room while shaking his head disapprovingly.

"Great. " Skye sighed, exasperated with herself before standing up.

"Let him be." Mack said. "The kid's better off left alone."

"But-" Skye started but one look from Mack told her that she shouldn't go after Fitz. She nodded. "Well, I need some fresh air. Today hasn't really been good to me." she said before leaving the room.

"How did she take it?" Coulson asked as he watched his young agent walk out of the room before switching off the monitor.

"I didn't tell her." May said. "Skye was still a little bit shaken when I found her."

"I suppose that's for the best. The kid has too much on her plate right now. The whole team actually." he said and looked at May. "What did she say about Simmons?"

"She's worried about her, but she understands that you needed a source from the inside."

"Is she mad at me?"

"Yes."

"You should really try to practice on your approach. Sometimes you're too direct." Coulson said, then sighed. "Should I have told her?"

"No. She would've talked you out of it. Maybe she would have even volunteered herself just to protect Simmons." May said. "Just as you are trying to protect her."

Coulson nodded. "But I don't really want to lie to her."

"If I told her about Donnie, I wouldn't know how to comfort her." May replied.

"That's true." Coulson agreed. "It was a good thing that it was one of our agents that found his body. His power went rogue when Skye shot him. He was solidified when they brought him at one of the labs. We don't know if his powers encased him in ice to protect him, but we aren't getting any vital signs." he paused. "As long as there isn't any development, Skye can't learn that Donnie is in one of our labs. She can't see him like that."

"I understand." May said and added, "The first kill, after all, is the hardest one to move on from."

Hiya! So yeah, this is it. Boring, isn't it? Well, it is just the 1st chapter so please bear with me. But before I move on to writing chapter 2, I should tell you that have the worst case of writer's block so yeah... Don't hope that this story will reach its ending very soon.