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Chapter 1: I'D LIE

-Lucy's POV-

I don't know when I started feel guilty. The worst moment in my life is that I have the person I love same as my best friend. I know it's wrong for me to love that person knowing that he was my best friend's boyfriend. All this time I've been locking up all my feelings for me but there comes a time that the feeling I've been hiding comes out. And the worst thing is he is my neighbor and a childhood friend. I know it's wrong. I'm stupid.

-Normal POV-

Lucy leaved her house early. As she was about to close the gate of her house she heard some noises. She sighed and ignored it; she already knew whose voice she just heard. She knew it. Gray fullbuster was talking to his girlfriend on the phone. It seems that they were bickering again. Lucy was used to it; it seems that almost every day there won't be a time that they would not argue with each other. Gray didn't notice her. They walk in the same direction so she walks briskly so she wouldn't hear their conversation.

'Here they go again. Almost every day.' She sighed.

Lucy tried to give up Gray for the sake of her best friend, Juvia.

Lucy just rolled her eyes and continued walking, and when she was farther from Gray she paused awhile, the smile plastered on her face changed. Her heart throbbed. She feels like she was about to burst out. She shook her head.

"What was that? Lucy! Give up on him…he already has a girlfriend…I'm stupid." She told herself. She bit her lower lip to stop her from releasing a single tear in her eye. She inhaled and gave a long sigh.

When she was already inside the campus, Levi, Erza and Cana greeted her. She smiled at them.

"You seem energetic today huh." Cana pointed out. 'I'm not. I feel like I want to go home and sleep.' Lucy thought and faked a smile.

"Hey, tell us, did they argue even today?" Levi asked.

"Well, what you expect?" erza butted in. Lucy let out a chuckle.

" They always argue even in small things." Lucy teased. Again, she faked a chuckle. They all laugh.

"Hey, today's the tournament right?" Erza reminded.

"Oh yeah right!" Levi screamed. Lucy just shook her head. Cana dragged her along.

The girls headed to the field because there was a football competition. Gray is the best player of their school.

"She even joined the cheering squad for him." Lucy whispered. Levi glanced at her and snickered.

"Eh? What?" she asked sheepishly.

"Tell me, do you have any feelings for gray?" Levi straightforwardly asked. Lucy flinched and look at Levi and make face.

"ME? Oh come on. Don't kid around Levi. You know Juvia is his girl and there's no way I would fall for that guy. Juvia is our friend there's no way I would betray her." She hissed. Levi shrugged. "If you say so."

-Lucy's POV-

LIES. I know in myself that I already betrayed her. Right now, I need to hide it in order not to ruin friendship we all had.

I looked around and saw the cheering squad started their cheer. I stared at her. I envy her so much. This time, they were okay again…I will take a guess, tomorrow they'll argue again and then after some time they will be okay again.

The game started.

My heart throbbed whenever I looked at him. It's really wrong to have a lingering feeling for him. It hurts whenever he asked for my advice about his love life. It hurts whenever he introduced me to his other friends and told them that I'm just his neighbor and a childhood friend. It hurts whenever I saw them having good time with each other. It hurts…whenever my heart keeps beating for him.

It's like that I'm inside a game…where I can't win no matter what.

The game has already finished and my mind still playing some thoughts about him, about her, about THEM.

"Lucy." Cana called. I snapped out of my thoughts.

"Yes?" I nervously asked. She patted my head. I stared at her confusedly. She just smiled and pointed where Juvia and Gray was. I looked at them.

"See? They're okay again. Well, don't you notice that Juvia was frequently hanging out with us?" erza pointed out. Levi and Cana nodded, while I can't take off my eyes off of them.

"Hey Lucy, I noticed that you always spaced out." Levi said.

"Yeah, me too." The other two girls said in unison.

"Eh? Well uhmm…I think the sun was too much for me." I told them and fake a smile. They ruffled my hair and laughed.

"What the hell was that?" Cana chuckled.

'Yeah, what the hell was that.' I thought.

After lunch, Juvia spent her time with us. She keeps on bragging about how lovey-dovey she and Gray were. Cana and Erza teased her. They keep on chatting. I feel furious at myself, why can't I just tell them that I like Gray too! I want to tell them but I can't I don't want to ruin this happy time together with my friends.

Juvia looked at me.

"Lucy, what's wrong?" she worriedly asked. I snapped out again from my thoughts.

"She always spaced out since morning." Levi complemented.

"And she would answer 'the sun was too much for me' "Cana teased and mimicked Lucy's voice.

"What the hell, Cana. My voice isn't like that!" I said and slapped her shoulders. I chuckled.

"Lucy, I will not be able to make it later. I have appointment with Seig." Erza butted in.

"Eh?" Juvia confusedly looked at them. "Later?" she asked.

"We are planning to work on together the homework at Lucy's house." Levi answered. Cana nodded.

"But I can't make it too…I have to visit Mira's bar, she prepared a special wine for me!" Cana said.

"Me too…Jet and Droy will drop by at our house." Levi added. Juvia seemed out of place.

"Is that so? Well, Juvia how about you?" I asked her to ease the 'Out-of-place'-ness she felt. She gave me a devastated look.

"I get it, well, there's always next time." I said to cheer them on.

Dismissal.

At last! I can go home early. As I walk towards the gate of the campus, someone called me. A very familiar voice.

"LUCY!"

I turned around and my eyes widened.

"Gray…what's up?" I nervously said.

"uhh well, Juvia still have a practice and she told me not to wait for her...so do you mind going home together?" he said nonchalantly. I stare at him expectantly. Silence embraced us.

"Ahh, well, I don't mind, we're neighbors after all." I said and broke the silence.

"I miss you." I murmured. Gray turned to me.

"What?" he innocently asked.

"Aahh! W-well, I miss hanging around with you; I mean we're childhood friends so I miss those childhood moments. Hahaha." I said. I walked ahead of him to hide my blush.

"Hey! Lucy, wait up." He shouted as he tried to catch up.

I really missed these times, where we walked together, laughed together.

We passed by the park where we used to play around. We sat at the bench and looked around the park. Reminiscing the past together.

"Hey, Lucy, do you still remember…the promise…" gray murmured. I looked at him.

"Yeah...the promise that…we would share secrets with each other? I vaguely remember that. Ahaha. That was when we're in middle school right?" I happily said as I reminisce those times.

"Yeah middle school. I used to like you that time." He revealed and chuckled. I astonished. I stared at him.

I'm tired making up lies. I'm tired fooling myself. I'm tired locking up my feelings. Maybe it's time that I should tell him my feelings too. I'm hoping that maybe his feelings towards me will change if I told him…

"Gray…you know-"I was cut off when his phone rang. I knew that ringtone…it was his ringtone when Juvia make a call.

"Save it later, excuse me, Juvia was calling." He said and smiled. He stood up and answered the phone.

-Normal POV-

"Uhh Juvia. What's the matter?" gray asked.

"What the hell, Gray. You leave me. I thought you would wait for me." She whined.

"What? Didn't you tell me to go home first because you have practice?" he retorted back.

"This is so frustrating, when I said you go home first I'm testing you if you would really leave…AND YOU REALLY LEAVE."

"I don't really get you."

While the two continued bickering, Lucy stood up far behind Gray. She had enough.

"Gray, I've always loved you." Lucy unconsciously said. Then she realized that she just blurted it out. She covered her mouth.

Gray paused for a moment. Lucy didn't notice that Gray already hung up the phone. Gray turned around. Lucy gasped. 'What did I do…stupid me!' her inner self screamed.

"Did you say something? What did you say?" Gray said. The expression in his face was blank. She couldn't think of lies to cover up what she just did right now. She was afraid of how he will react if she just told him the truth.

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