I was lying to myself I never felt.
this feeling that I'm feeling now
Of course you wanna know why she thought and felt like this. It was because, when she saw Inuyasha and knew that His true love was Kikyo and she was only a distraction, or a lust of a love that was forgotten. She thought it was best to say that she didn't love him. So, that he would return to his true love, Kikyo. I mean she did kinda distract him or atleast that's what she thought.. It wasn't right. She could see how Kikyo felt and it was tearing her to shreds inside. She knew the lust of the love of Inuyasha and Kagome was making Kikyo into a person she wasn't.
Inuyasha sat near the well and still couldn't believe what had happened and said these words of a song When you left I lost a part of me it's still so hard to believe come back baby please 'cuz we belong together who's gonna take your place there aint nobody else...
ok fine there's Kikyo, but it's different.. I mean I'm not used to Kagome not being here.. with me.
She would always tell me about things in her time and make me laugh and see me for me.. not the stupid guy that acts all tough just so he wouldn't get hurt.. sigh.. why was I so dumb.. I should have been myself atleast once.. I mean yeah when I see Kikyo I think of all the times we had before and all the memories, but I can't just forget all that no matter what I do.. they're always there in my mind only to be remembered when I see or hear of her.. I mean Kikyo was a love that was lost and... I just don't know.. for one I know Kikyo still cares for me, but it's not that easy.. If I did decide or tried to love her again, I just can't just forget about everything and everyone that came into my life in those years that Kikyo and me fought. Trying to forget Kagome is like trying to forget something that you have cared so much for, but know that no matter what you do you could never ever forget.. like the best day of your life, but instead it was the person that made you the happiest, or atleast you thought so...
Kagome layed on her bed in tears and thought of these words to a song I get sleepless night when you are on my mind.
I only think of you as breaking my heart.. I tried to keep it together, but I'm falling apart
What do I do.. how am I going to go on knowing that I lied to the person I cared for just so that the right thing would happen.. I mean how could a person that wasn't even supposed to be there in the first place be meant to be for him.. Kikyo was meant for him, I mean she still loves him and I know no matter what she would love him until the day they died.. I did what's right so, now just go on with everything here..
Written on July 25th, 2005 by Kirei
Disclaimer:
I did not write this song even if I might have wished I did but it is a song by Mariah Carey, if you didn't know that already. Also, I do not own and did not create Inuyasha. Thank You to the creator and thank you so much to the readers of this fanfic.