Paul watched her turn her back on him. There really was nothing left to say. Her father gave her the world and somehow she felt obligated to abide by his every rule and fulfill his every wish. He had plans for her future and loving a wrestler wasn't one of them. All though Vince was the puppet master in the beginnings of she and him to begin with. He put the thought in her head, he'd planted the seed but like so many other times before he'd given her exactly what she wanted and then taken it away. How could a man whom loved his daughter so intensely cause her so much pain?
He swallowed hard, lord knows he was bad at these situations. Love was not his strong point and words not his forte but for her he'd try.
For she was everything.
"Stephanie." he said sounding almost cold he knew to cope he'd have to shut off but even he was surprised at his tone. He cleared his throat. "Steph?" he said more softly.
Fresh tears rolled down her cheeks. For so long all she ever wanted was someone to be there for her, to love her, to be her best friend... He was all that and more much more. He was like an angel. When they got too hot and heavy all she had to do was stop and he'd stop too. He'd just hold her. Sometimes she would cry, it was embarrassing but he never said a word. Instead he'd start a conversation. He understood. And thats what made their love so perfect. He understood the pressure she was under. Her father pushing her in the business her mother trying to make her leave it... Her mother knew what the stress would do. She was finding it hard to deal with until that night so many nights ago... Now it was all she could think of.
January 3, 2000
Stephanie watched him as he began getting ready for the night. He was taping up his fingers and she watched him do each one. He was sitting on the couch and she was on
The coffee table across from him. She had had a rough couple of days. Her dad had totally lost it on her about the storyline something she didn't " sell" on tv. She didn't know what he was rambling about Paul said she'd done amazing and his opinion trumped her fathers any day. He leaned close to her touching her thigh resting his hand on it. She looked up into his eyes and they pierced through her.
"what's on your mind?" he wondered.
You, that's what she had wanted to say it was at this time a small grin broke out on her face. She saw him, maybe for the first time she really truly saw him. Not Hunter her sexy intriguing bad ass "husband." Not triple h the world heavy weight champion. She saw Paul and suddenly she couldn't for the life of her see why he wasn't hers. All the nights they'd sat in bed talking on the phone. All the days they spent side by side. All the deep conversations ones shed never had with anyone not even a boyfriend. When he would know when something was wrong with her, how he always made her laugh no matter what the circumstance. She reached forward grabbing the fabric of his t shirt as she pulled him to her gently. She swallowed hard wondering if he could see her too. She found her answer as his face softened and he tucked a whisp of loose hair behind her ear. It was like a fairy tale like every story shed ever pictured herself in, she could almost see the sparks around him. He was beautiful.
"We don't have to be lonely anymore Stephanie." he had whispered.
She was in such a daze she almost didn't catch it, but she did. She leaned forward losing all her inhibitions as she wrapped her arms around his neck kissing him, sinking into him. It was exciting and new like nothing shed ever felt in her whole life yet familiar and comfortable like she had always belonged here with him doing this. She felt herself tremble as he wrapped his arms around her sliding her off the table and onto his lap. He deepened the kiss and she could taste him and he tasted so delicious. He was sweet and gentlemen like leaving his hands respectfully on the small of her back. He slid one hand up to the side of her face gently cupping it as he slowly pulled away. And that was it, that's the moment in time that she fell in love...
Back to reality...
"You don't have to speak just listen." he requested.
He took a deep breath blowing it out. He had to keep his emotions in check. He had to be strong for her, for both of them. He walked up behind her wrapping his arms around her waist pulling her against him. He kept his voice low as he spoke into her ear gently.
"I understand why you are doing what your father is asking of you. I'm not going to beg you to change your mind cause if you do change your mind I want you to do it on your own. I just wanted you to know that the thought of being without you..." he paused should he continue? He could feel her heartbeat vibrating through her against his chest. "Terrifies me. Stephanie, I love you."
He felt her begin to sob and shake. He spun her around holding her against his chest. He could feel her tears seeping through the thin cotton of his polo. He just wanted to keep her here with him forever. She was safe with him he loved her.
Stephanie tried to compose herself. She wanted to say it back, cause she truly felt it-she loved him shed been in love with him for so long. They'd been together since that night in the locker room 4 months ago. Never the less here she stood and her tongue felt like sand paper. She couldn't do it. If she admitted she loved him and walked away it would hurt that much more. He really did deserve to hear it though. She pulled away from him folding her arms over her chest trying to catch some kind of composure. She looked up slowly and her heart broke she watched him try to hide it but it was too late he was wiping away his own tears.
"I don't want to do this, I have to." she said almost angrily. "I'm sorry Paul." she said as she turned again this was too hard.
"goodbye Stephanie." he said softly.
She nodded acknowledging him. This was without a doubt the hardest thing shed ever had to do. To watch him walk away because she was making him do it. To break his heart and shatter hers at the same time. To hold back what she desperately wanted him to hear.
The door shut and Paul leaned against it.
"I love you Paul." he heard from the other side.
He smiled hugely about to turn the knob and go back in when he realized she had said it to herself. He would always remember the way she said that. He heard her sob and he cried too wanting so badly to hold her. This was like a nightmare he didn't know how he'd survive.
March 25, 2001
(10 months later)
Today was the 10th month. 10th month alone. 10th month without him. They had continued their storyline and talked almost every night on the phone but it never crossed that line. Suddenly she couldn't stand it anymore. Fuck her father, fuck the "rules", fuck what made everyone else happy. She deserved to be happy and so did Paul.
Paul laid in bed wide awake. It was 2:30 and Stephanie never called him. He thought he would have heard from her she called almost every night and especially after the shows. Maybe she was tired of this of him. No he told himself. She wouldn't have kissed me like that. She had kissed him so passionately during their scene tonight. He flipped onto his side he couldn't stand this anymore. Why wouldn't she call? He held his cell phone he should call her. No if she wanted to talk she would have called. Suddenly he heard a soft knock on the door. He groaned tossing his cell on the bed as he got up running his hands through his hair as he pulled the door open.
She nervously looked up into his eyes. She knew hers were red she'd been crying since she got to her room she missed him. She was in pieces without him.
Paul looked at her shocked. She looked like she'd been crying for hours. He sighed as he ran his hand over his stubble on his chin. He reached out his hand taking her hand entwining their fingers. She sniffled as he pulled her inside the door as it shut behind her. he sat on the bed as she stood in between his legs. She played with his fingers as she looked down. He reached up with one hand running it over her cheek. He kissed her fingers gently.
She ran her fingers through his hair pulling his head to rest against her stomach sighing gently as she shut her eyes. She committed this moment to memory. He pulled her into his lap playing with the string on her sweatpants.
"so you ready to talk about us?" he asked.
She nodded staring at a spot on the wall.
"look at me." he whispered.
He tucked his finger under her chin making her look at him. She let a tear slip down her cheek not bothering to wipe it.
"I thought you should know that I'm going to tell my dad I can't stop thinking about you Paul and I'm In love with you."
Paul's eyes widened as he stared into her eyes. Her smile was huge as she looked back into his. She started crying worse as she pulled him into a huge hug.
"I love you." she said with a huge smile. "but you'll be risking everything you've worked so hard for though."
"you're worth it." he whispered as he moved in and kissed her lips.
She moved her lips gently against his before deciding to take it further then she ever had before. He just told her he loved her and was going to make the ultimate sacrifice for their love. Suddenly she saw their wedding day and kids grand kids and rocking chairs. She let her tears slip from her eye lids as she turned in his arms straddling his lap. She moaned deeply into his mouth over and over as her tongue moved with his. He broke the kiss for a moment feeling her tears on his cheeks.
"don't stop I'm ok." she said catching her breath.
Paul nodded as he wrapped his arms around her slowly beginning to rock her back and forth on top of him. She was getting him so hard as her hot center rubbed against him. He knew it would probably just be heavy touching and nothing more but he was ok with that.
Stephanie felt an animalistic need take over her. He was it he was the one. She reached her hand down to his waist before running her hands up his chest and pushing him back on the bed she placed her hands on his chest grinding herself against him. It felt too good to stop she couldn't help herself as she bit her lip. It'd been so long since she'd touched him since she'd felt him touch her, it was incredible.
Paul groaned as he placed his hands on her hips guiding her movements he could feel every part of her rubbing against his hard cock and it was driving him insane. He closed his eyes as he let her do her thing. Every part of him wanted to flip her over and make love to her but he knew he couldn't.
Suddenly he felt her lay complete on top of him kissing his throat up to his neck as her hands reached under his shirt pinching his nipples and scratching his skin.
He had never been so turned on in his life he was dying to take her she was killing him. He felt like he was going to explode.
"show me." she whispered into his ear.
"what baby?" he asked Ina haze.
"make love to me Paul." she whispered against his ear kissing his temple.
He sat up with her sitting in his lap. He looked into her eyes as he ran his hands up and down her arms. He was about to ask if she was sure but he could see it in her eyes. She was ready.
He slowly rolled them over before helping her move up to the pillows. He laid her down as he took a deep breath composing himself. He wanted to go crazy on her but this was their first time he wanted to show her what she had been missing. Hed had sex plenty Of times. He had never made love before so this was a moment he'd Waited his whole life for.
Stephanie smiled up at him as she ran her hand through his soft hair. She couldn't believe how perfect this moment really was. This was it the rest of her life was starting tonight.
Paul smiled gently at her as he hovered over her he pulled his shirt off as he threw it and leaned down capturing her lips in his own. He kissed her slowly running his hand down her stomach running small circles all over it. She trembled beneath him. So innocent so beautiful.
Stephanie shuddered as he slipped his hands on her waistband pulling her pants and panties off throwing them off the bed he pulled the covers over them as he ran his hand over her most tender spot. She shivered as she licked her dry lips her stomach was flipping In and out. He kissed her again slipping his tongue in her mouth as they ran together smoothly. She pulled her lips away suddenly feeling him slip one finger then another one inside her. She cried out wrapping her arm around his neck as he began to pump at an even pace. He kissed her temple and moved his lips to her throat. She tasted sweet and he loved it. She pressed her forehead against his tacky shoulder blade feeling his arm moving as he picked up the pace rubbing her with his thumb in soft circles.
"it's ok baby." he whispered in her ear. "let go."
She gripped his back tightly her nails digging in as she began slamming her hips against his hand.
"oh my god, I'm gonna I'm gonna..."
"yes baby..." he said clamping his lips over hers as he felt her come to a stop under him shuddering as she released on his hand. He smiled as he moved his hand away slowly.
Before she could even get her bearings she felt his soft hair on her thighs. She lazily reached her hands down to run through his hair when she felt his arms wrap around her legs as he dipped his tongue into her.
"oh my god... Paul... That feels sooooo good." she said moving her hips upward at him.
He smiled as he licked and nipped at her most tender spot. He placed his hands on her waist holding her down to the bed. She writhed underneath him as he moved his tongue faster thrashing against her. She threw her head back as she came again.
"oh my god!" she exclaimed grabbing his hair pulling him up to her so she could kiss him. He smiled against her lips as her orgasm still coiled through her body. He felt her little tremors as she fumbled with his shorts.
"off." she said as she grabbed him though his shorts.
He complied as she rolled them over pushing him on the bed she crawled under the covers as she laid on top of him.
"I want you Paul." she whispered against his ear.
His eyes rolled in his head as he felt her hand pump up and down on him softly as she kissed his throat. She sucked on his collarbone as she ran her thumb over his tip.
"Steph...god..." he groaned as he ran his hand up her back to her hair. She slowly slinked down his body slipping him into her mouth as he gripped her hair tightly. "fuck, that feels amazing." he groaned.
She ran her hand up his abdomen flicking his nipple. It was too much he reached under the blankets pulling her up.
She immediately moved her lips to his as he gently made eye contact with her as she sat up. He took her hips in his hands as he gently slid her down on top of him.
"mmmmmm, Paul." she muttered as she began to move he held her hips moving her as his eyes slipped shut. He rolled them over never stopping as he looked down at her she opened her eyes gently smiling at him. It was then he noticed the ring around her necklace. It was the promise ring she had bought him he thought it was cute and bought her one in turn. He couldn't believe she still had it never mind wore it around her neck. He made eye contact with her and her eyes slid shut. She moaned Gently in his ear as she held him by the neck right against her. "yes... Mmmyes." she moaned into his shoulder lightly sucking on it. He moved slowly wanting to savor this cause you never know what tomorrow will bring. God shed been in love with him still this whole time. He could feel her getting close again he reached his arms under her back as he pulled her up into his lap. She wrapped her arms around his neck pressing her forehead against his. He looked deep into her eyes and she looked back at his before slamming them shut as he picked up his rhythm.
"oh my god..."she moaned out as she felt herself ready to explode.
He heard her breathing change as she was heaving ontop of him. He ran his arm under her ass hoisting her up with him as he turned pinning her against the wall.
"fuck..." she whispered in his ear.
He smiled Stephanie never swore it was adorable and hot at the Same time. He suddenly felt her spasm around him and felt her teeth sink into his neck as she wrapped her arms tightly around his neck.
He moved even faster forcefully against her as he felt himself coming undone. She was moaning so loudly in his ear he couldnt hold out anymore. She came as he did.
"fuck Steph... Ahhh." he slowly stopped as he turned again falling on the bed with her. She smiled up at him as he tried to catch his breath.
"that was unbelievable." she murmered against her forearm, holding it over her forehead. Paul smirked as he ran his hand over her soft abdomen. He turned to his side facing her she turned to face him to as she grabbed his hand and kissed it.
"what are you staring at?" she asked softly.
He looked at her eyes and back down to the ring around her neck. He shrugged as he smiled.
"I was maybe wondering if I could make you a trade for that ring around your neck." he asked.
She smiled as she fingered the ring. She ran her hand over his cheek as he leaned his face into it.
"what kind of trade ?" she inquired.
"hang on." he said holding up his finger as he reached over her grabbing his wallet. She looked at him quizzically as he opened it sticking his finger into the little change part of it.
She gasped as she sat up pulling the sheet around her chest. He smiled watching her face light up.
"oh my god Paul." she said as she shook her head. It was the ring he'd given her. He still had it and not Only that he'd been carrying it with him this whole time. All the lonely nights she thought he'd totally forgotten her and moved on he really hadn't. A tear slipped down her cheek as he gently placed it on her right ring finger. It was a simple little gold band but it spoke volumes for the both of them. She giggled as he kissed the ring.
"here." she whispered.
She tried to unclasp her necklace but her hands were shaking. Paul smiled as he stilled her hand. He Locke his eyes on hers and she sighed nervously. He reached behind her neck unclasping the necklace. He took the ring in his hand and she took it from him.
"let me." she said her hand still shaking.
He held out his right hand as he ran his left one through her hair. She gulped hard, she couldn't believe she had this beautiful man all to herself never in her wildest dreams did she think this was possible. She nervously took his hand slipping the ring on his finger he held her fingers in his and looked at her.
"what's got you so nervous?" he asked.
"you, this." she bit her lip blushing and swallowing hard. "you are so beautiful, I feel so complete right now... It's more than I ever imagined or dreamed of... I can't explain it." she said shaking her head.
Paul smiled. " I think you just did."
She shrugged biting her lip nervously. He could tell she was overwhelmed. He reached out grabbing his t shirt. She wondered what he was doing. He handed it to her and she held it.
"you always said you'd love to wake up in your boyfriends old t shirt."
Stephanie held up the Motörhead t shirt smirking . She slipped it on pulling her hair up in a loose bun.
"how hot am I?"
"let's just say I doubt that shirt is staying on"
She giggled as she reached to the bottom of the bed grabbing his boxers she tugged them up her legs standing on the bed. He laughed as she gave him her best bitchy Stephanie McMahon Helmsley look. He scrunched his face back at her in his mean triple h face.
She looked him the eye and tried not to laugh.
"are you ready?" she said in her triple h voice. "no, is said are you ready!?"
Paul started laughing so had he hurt. He cleared his throat looking up at her.
"hunter! Hunter!" he said in a really bad SMH voice.
She giggled as she lightly kicked him he reached up pulling her leg out pulling her down on the bed. She smirked as she sat in his lap.
"excited?" she asked wiggling her eyebrows
"mmmmm just a little bit." he replied as he leaned up kissing her.
"Steph..."
"yeah?" she asked
"I love you."
"I love you too baby."