Hey all! Here I am again, writing a new story. Don't ask me where I got the idea from, I just had it and I wanted to write it. Thanks to my dear friend Axel who helped me with this! Hope you all like my story! Pls review!
Chapter 1
"Mommy!" the little girl shouted as she ran into the bathroom where Carol was sitting and staring at the pregnancy test in her hands. She almost jumped when she heard the scream. "Oh honey, you scared me there! What's up?" "I need to pee!" little 3 year old Tess said who was just learning to go to the toilet. "Ooh, c'mere, I'll help you", Carol answered and helped Tess up the toilet seat. "Hihi", Tess giggled when she was ready. "See, this is how it works! So great that you remembered to tell me when you have to pee! You're a big girl now", Carol smiled and kissed Tess on the cheek. "And Katie isn't?" the little girl asked. "Not yet...but you're going to tell her what you just did and then she's gonna want to do the same, I'm sure!" Tess was really proud that she was a big girl now, her smile showed. "Okay mommy", Tess answered and ran away again.
Carol sighed. The twins were getting so tall already and she missed the times they were babies. She missed the baby scent, their cries at night, the breastfeeding, the changing of the diapers. Now they were three years old already and learning how to use the toilet. Carol was really proud of them and she loved both girls deeply, but there was also the wish to get another baby with Doug.
She remembered the talk she had with him some weeks ago.
"What are you thinking about?" Doug asked crawling into bed and realizing that Carol had something on her mind. "I wanna have a baby, Doug!" she answered out of the blue, looking at him. Doug smiled at her. "You what?" "A baby, Doug. I want to have another baby with you!" "Wow...you're really sure about this? I mean, I'd love to have another baby, but..." "I know, Doug. But it have been three years and Dr. Coburn said I can have future kids..." Carol answered, taking his hand in hers. "Yeah...well..." "Doug? Do you want to be a daddy again?" Carol now asked, sitting up and turning to him. Doug smiled again. "That sounds wonderful", he whispered and placed a kiss on Carol's forehead. "I'd love to be a daddy again...I love you and I could have a thousand babies with you!" "Well, let's try for just one this time", Carol laughed and kissed him.
"Hey, what's up?" Doug interrupted her thoughts and she looked up to him. "We're still not pregnant", Carol answered with a sigh and showed the pregnancy test to him. "That sounds so familiar..." he murmured and took her hand. "It's okay. We're not stopping to try it, okay?"
Carol nodded. "Okay!" she answered with a weak smile.
Why all this again? Why couldn't she just be like other women who get pregnant when they wanted to get pregnant? Why was she one of the women who didn't get pregnant so soon? She didn't understand it.
"Girls, get ready for kindergarten!" Carol called to her daughters who were still in their room. "We coming!" Kate called back and seconds later they ran down the stairs. "Don't run down the stairs, kids", Carol said and the twins nodded. "Sowy mum", Kate said and put on her sneakers. "Not mum…It's mommy", Carol answered, shaking her head smiling. "But mum is awright, yes?" Kate asked, standing in front of Carol. "Well…yeah, it is…now let's go!" Carol smiled and put her hands out so the kids could join her.
"Sandra will pick you up today…daddy and I will come home later then, okay?" Carol asked and bent down to her daughters. "Awright mum", Kate answered and put off her coat. "I love you two", Carol said and kissed both girls on the cheek, "have fun!" Tess and Kate waved back to her before they went into the room. Carol chuckled but now it was time to get to the hospital.
"Did somebody die?" Carol asked when she entered the silent ER at Washington Medical Center. "No…but there's the possibility. A young family came in…father was driving the car, a truck hit them. All three of them injured badly…" Matt, the med student answered with a sigh. "Three?" Carol asked, now getting curious. "Yeah…they had their baby in the car…" he answered and Carol looked around. "Is Doug there?" she asked without looking at him. "Think so", Matt answered as he went away.
Carol made her way to the pediatrics ER. "Doug?" she asked silently when she entered the room where Doug was examining the little baby. It had a tube down his throat; his little hands were tied down on the gurney. "How is he?" Carol asked and Doug looked up at her. "Not good. His heart stopped beating for almost 15 minutes. We're waiting for the x-rays now…" Doug answered and Carol nodded. "What about the parents?" she asked again and Doug shrugged his shoulders. "Don't know…they're up in surgery." Carol sighed. "Oh God…and I thought this would be a calm day…" Doug smiled at her. "We never have calm days down here…you're not used to it anymore since you're in the transplant team!" Carol nodded with a weak smile. "What's his name?" she asked, looking at the baby again. "Travis. Only about three weeks old…" Doug answered, controlling the machine that helped the little baby to breath. Carol nodded, thinking that this was so unfair to this little being. She traced a finger down Travis' cheek and wished him all the luck in the world.
"I see you're missing the ER!" Betty smiled when she saw Carol looking through some charts. Carol looked up with a smile. "To be honest, sometimes I do!" Betty shook her head. "Don't lie to me…" "I'm not lying…I love my work and I don't want to miss my shifts in the ER", Carol answered. "But I don't get it. How did you manage all this? Twins, a full-time job, head nurse…" Betty asked who now had the job as head nurse. "Well…I always loved working and I've had a lot of help when the twins were little…you'll get used to the manager job, believe me!" Carol answered again and smiled. "Hopefully…" Betty murmured, working on the shift plan again. Carol just giggled. She was happy to still have some shifts in the ER but the work on the transplant team was really great.
When she saw Doug coming out of the elevator, Carol looked up from her paper work. "Hey…how's it going?" she asked but Doug just shook his head. "They didn't make it. Rhonda's kidneys failed and her husband had too much internal bleeding…" "That's horrible", she murmured and Doug hugged her to kiss her forehead. "It is…" Carol suddenly backed away from him. "What about Travis?" she asked, thinking of their baby, who was all alone now. "We're still searching relatives…but the family isn't living in Seattle, so we don't even know if there is anybody…" Doug said with a sigh. Carol just took a breath. This all seemed so unreal.
At the end of her shift she went into the ICU to visit little Travis. "Hey, little one", she whispered and took a seat beside his little bed. She touched his little hands, which were now already untied. "I'm so sorry Travis…your parents are in heaven now..." She stroke over his fingers again. "I'm so sorry…"