If-
If I could have-
If I had-
Oh God, if-
If I could reach you
If I could drag you down
To the hard ground
Make you fall
Come back down to us
To me
And rip at you
And claw at you
Nails scrubbing skin
Hands twisting sinew
Rend you
Pull you apart
If I could lay you down
Among the other dead
Ripped from heaven
And bought down to my hell
Open your ribcage up
Fish through the gore
Find the sharpness in your heart
The sharpness of your heart
And tear it from you
Would it be enough?
Enough pain to break time?
Enough shame to erase this?
Just, enough?
To bring you back?
Surely the Universe
Must fold, cower
Turn its back in disgust
This impossible thing
This unthinkable thing
If this can happen-
If this-
If-
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Cas
I'm just so damn sorry.