My Mistake
Tear's note: This is my first oneshot. please forgive me if make some mistakes and If you feel that Hibari is OOC please tell me. this oneshot is based on a song called " My mistake "
Hibari POV:
I'm still at the same place, weary from wandering by your side
As I wander in circles, days have passed and I find myself at this place
Here I am ..
Seeing you standing at the altar .. holding hands with other man .. not with me .. smiling to that
Man .. like a child ..
You know, you know that my heart is aching
Watching you smile makes my heart ache more
Seeing you smile .. makes my heart hurts ... reminding me.. of the memories that I don't want to
remember .. reminding me of my mistakes ...
It's my mistake for not making you love me more
It's my mistake for loving you more than you love me
It's my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to
The day she got a boyfriend..
[ Reception Room ]
" Hibari-kun! Hibari-kun! Hear me out! Today, Yamamoto-kun confessed his love to me! Aaaah .. It's hard to believe."
Yukianesa said to me, smiling like a fool and dance with joy like a child.
Unaware that her word is piercing my heart.
"If that is what you want to talk, you'd better go now. You're interfere my work .."
I replied her words coldly, and turned my face away from her. Not interested in the subject which
she expressed to me.
"Okay. Sorry to interrupt your work, Hibari-kun."
She lifted her feet, leaving this room. But before she left the room, she turned around and saw my
face with a sad .. expression? Before I know it she smiled again for the last time, before she
actually left the room.
I do not understand what is the meaning of the expression she gave to me at that time ..
How much longer must I cry as I trust in that promise?
You lied to me to wait for you, even my greed for your love has grown weary
10 years later ..
The day she decided to get married ..
"Hibari-kun! Yamamoto-kun and I are getting married and the wedding will be held next week! Hibari-kun, you're going to come, right?"
Yukianesa smiled and gave me her wedding invitation, hoping that I would come to her wedding.
I felt my heart fall to pieces.. when .. I Imagined her in the hands of other man..
My heart cried out, "Stop her! now is not too late! Say that you love her!"
But ..
My pride is getting in the way.. prevented me to saying those words ..
The words that are foreign to me ..
You know, you know that my heart is aching
How can you play dumb and smile like that?
After the wedding ceremony is completed .. Yukianesa walked toward me and said ..
"Hibari-kun, you're really coming!"
She seemed surprised about my presence at her party.
..Why I decided to go to her wedding?
I tried not to think about it .. because it will makes my heart hurt again .. When I tried to calm
myself .. she returned to talk to me ..
"Hibari-kun, Do I look beautiful today ..?"
She asked me as she played with her white wedding dress and then smiled at me softly.
I saw her appearance from bottom to top .. She was wearing white high heels .. White wedding dress
that makes her shining .. her long golden hair that tied with a white ribbon .. her face that still
radiates innocence and still childish ..
She is beautiful ..
I want to tell her .. but .. once again my pride stopped me .. I put on my cool expression as always ..
and .. I did not answer the question that she asked to me ..
It's my mistake for not making you love me more
It's my mistake for loving you more than you love me
It's my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to
I knew I couldn't have you but my love for you just kept growing
It's my mistake for waiting by myself, regretting by myself, loving you by myself
I saw her small figure running from me .. ran towards her husband .. and smiling in front of him ..
laughing happily .. and I finally realized that I can't reach you anymore ..
Even though my heart was aching, it's my mistake for not letting you go (I'm such a fool)
I knew I would get hurt and couldn't let go (It's my mistake)
Even though it's all my fault
Even though it's all my fault
That's ok. As long as you're there (Always…)
My heart is hurt .. seeing you smile .. seeing you laugh .. with anyone other than myself ..
Now.. I finally realized .. that I love you ..
Please forgive me for being like this
Who loved you
- The End -