I myself have endometriosis so I know exactly what I am writing about and I know for myself how painful this whole thing can be. I also know how much love it ant patience it requests from your partner or husband to live with this illness and how much strength it take out of you. It for some time makes it almost impossible to go out with your family because you cannot walk or sit without almost screaming out in pain and having a hard time enduring the pain. For the children it is very hard because there are days where you cannot play with them or take care of them and you need help with them. That at some point becomes normal but in the beginning it makes you feel incompetent.
November 1995
Bethesda Naval Hospital
They have been dating for three years. Now Harmon Rabb and Sarah Mackenzie are at the hospital bacause Sarah has incredible pain in her lower abdomen and Harm had insisted to check it out. They are waiting for the doctor to check her out.
"Hello Mrs. Mackenzie. Hello Mr. Rabb." The doctor answers and shakes hands with the couple
"Hello." Both of them answer
"The nurse told me who have incredible pain in your lower abdomen."
"Yeah."
"I´m gonna do an ultrasound and then we will know more."
After the ultrasound
"I can see a little abnormality in you uterus. It looks like you have endometriosis. Because of that you have bigger pain during your cycle that are more like crampes and it might happen at some point in time that it hurts all the time in your back and your stomach. It might also happen that it attacks your ovaries at some point in time."
"What can I do."
"There is an operation you can make to have the endometriosis cells removed and to the the penetrability of you ovaries if you want to have children. But I have to inform you that it yould happen that you become unfertile."
"Thank you doctor." Says Harm who has is arm wrapped around the now crying Mac. The doctor leaves the couple alone.
"Harm I do not want to be operated just yet. I want to try without first." Says Mac
"Whatever you want honey." Answers Harm
After leaving the office of the doctor Mac and Harm where quiet during the whole drive. After the arrive at home Mac goes to the bedroom and lies down on the bed crying. Harm wants to comfort me but she says. "Not now Harm. I just need time to realize it." Harm leave her and gives her the time she needs to realize what the doctor has told her earlier. She is lying on the bed and has made up her mind that she does not want and operation until it is really necessary.
She is afraid of operations and hospitals and just hopes that she can last for a few years without an operation and will be able to have children and be happy.