I don't believe in love.
What a sad thing to say, ne? Well, I can't help it. Due to the fact that I lived with five women from the time I was born, and four of them are the most obnoxious creatures to ever grace this planet. Grace? What am I saying, the four of them are the worst things that ever tried to take over the planet. But, I am so glad to say, that one person stopped them, and that was my Okaasama.
I don't believe in love. But, does that mean I don't believe in hate? That could be a possibility, or it couldn't.
Power is something that I came to Tomoeda for. No, no, not just the card. But, the *cards*. All of them, all fifty-two of them. Hai, all fifty-two of them. My Okaasama asked me to get them for her. She was very peculiar about it, as well. She was keen on saying that the elders wanted it, that she just wanted me to succeed in getting it. The elders wanted it, was what she was saying and she really didn't want me to. But, if she didn't want me to, why would she send me to Tomoeda? I would ask her, but I respect that whatever she is asking me to do is for my best benefit and also for the good of the Li Clan.
Hmm... again, I don't believe in love. But, that would mean I don't believe in hate. I believe in hate.
Hai, hate is a good and a bad thing. You see, I hated *her* whenever I was attracted to, wouldn't you know, power. But, then I hated *her* Oniisan when he attacked me, well, after I attacked her. But, that is besides the point. Then, I hated that infuriating Hiiragizawa Eriol, but that was after I hated Cerberus. The stuffed animal!
I can't tell you how many times I wanted to just throw the stuffed animal in the ocean with a brick tied around him. Him, her Oniisan, and Hiiragizawa Eriol. And, only a couple of times, had I wanted to throw *her* in the ocean, but with no brick tied around her. Why? Why you ask? Well, I wanted to throw her in the ocean, but with no brick. So, maybe she could only be confused, but later she'd come back. Because, as much as I don't want it, she helps me.
I knew her before I met her. Not believable? Well, it is. Before I came to Tomoeda, I did a fortune reading, my Okaasama made me do it. That fortune reading would change my life forever, but I didn't know aout it then. My fortune then, I didn't pay any mind to it, I thought of it as telling me she'd be a distraction. You see, my goal was to push all emotions aside, and get my power, the power that would put me in charge of the Li Clan, to become the Clan Leader. She was only a distraction, and that was all.
Now... she is a distraction I don't want. Because, she isn't helping me anymore. Maybe I should tell you about *him*. He was the power I was attracted to for a while. I worked better under the moon, and that was exactly what he was. And she liked him, too. HER! Again, she was a distraction for the cards and for him.
"Ohohohoho... Li-kun, are you blushing?" Daidouji-san asked me.
Kuso, she noticed. Thank goodness she didn't have that unhealthy habit with the evil eye with me. She and that damn Hiiragizawa-san are the bane of my existence. But, that's okay, because I don't believe in love.
But, she is my distraction, my rival, my objective, my...everything. Hai, my everything. I get here early every morning, just to keep my mind off of... distractions. Well, now, I don't have the cards. And, I lost to that distraction. I lost him to her, too. Well... maybe it wasn't her fault that I lost him. No, no, no it is her fault I lost him.
But, that's okay, because I don't believe in love.
I never fully told you why I didn't believe in love, did I? Well, like I said, it was because of those five women I lived with. Maybe the four of them, my sisters, were a big part. They always teased me and taunted me. Made fun of me, practised their magick on me. Whatever they needed to do, it was done upon me. I remember when they would have problems, instead of going to bother the others, they came to me and opened my door and terrorized me. No, if they would've loved me, they would've cherished me, and they wouldn't have let okaasama and the elders send me here, to Tomoeda.
But My Okaasan has to be the real reason I don't believe in love, though. She made me practise, and do everything that a normal child shouldn't do. Meilin said so herself, that I never smiled, never played. I can honestly say that she saved me (Meilin did), until she got old enough to realize that I was a real boy. I still remember our promise... I didn't mean to break it. Gomen nasai about that, Meilin.
"My cute descendent, you are yet again blushing," Hiiragizawa had to say, again. Damn him.
"Oh my... Li-kun, your face is so red! Is that healthy, Eriol-kun?" Daidouji-san asked Hiiragizawa.
Damn them both. Damn all of them. Really, damn *him*, damn Cerberus, damn her Oniisan, damn my Okaasama, damn my sisters, and dammit, damn *her*! It's her fault I'm like this. It's her fault that I have to hate and damn everyone. I was fine not loving anyone and not caring about it in Hong Kong, with my cold family, my compulsive-obsessive cousin, my abnormal family, the Li Clan elders, the cold atmosphere of my family. But, yet respect was due to them, because they, they made me realize I had to live on my own. That I had to support myself, become the Li Clan leader, and be the most powerful one at that. I am a direct descendent of Clow Reed. I will pervail! But... but...
Oh no, I can feel it. The heat, the heat... it's going to burn me alive.
"Li-kun," Daidouji-san whispers, "She's here."
She and Hiiragizawa laugh together as from my toes to the tip of my ears turn an unhealthy shade of red.
"Ohayo!"
Everyone responds to you. Everyone is happy to see you.
"Ohayo, Sakura-chan!" Daidouji says to you.
"Ohayo, Sakura-san," Hiiragizawa says.
"Ohay, Tomoyo-chan, Eriol-kun," *she* says, smiling chipperly.
"Ohayo, Syaoran-kun!" She says to me, as she puts her face in front of me.
"O...o..ohayo," I stutter, mumble, and blush as I stare at your beautiful emerald eyes.
You smile, you smile so very beautifully. You turn to Daidouji-san and you hand her something... I can't tell what it is, then you sit down. You sit and Hiiragizawa comes next to you and smiles that infuriating, EVIL smile. Then he turns to me, and those evil glasses glint in the sunlight, and he smiles wickedly as he hands you a flower.
Oh, the green monster of jealousy. You blush, and smile and tell him "Arigato!" What a terrible day. What a terrible thing. Oh, damn all of you. Why, Okaasan, why did you have to send me to Tomoeda? Did I tell you I don't belive in love? Hai? Well, too bad. I'm telling you again.
"Syaoran-kun?" You ask me.
What the hell do you want? I turn around from my backpack, a look of distaste on my face. You smile on happily anyhow. My glare just doesn't effect you, not anymore anyhow.
"Syaoran-kun, do you want to come to the festival with me, and then I'm making dinner so you can go to that, too? Or are you too busy?" You ask me, then that cute look on your face surfaces as you notice my silence. Like you're nervous I might say no, but I do believe that is incorrect. No way can you be nervous about what I would say.
BUT! *I* am nervous. I don't know what to say now... dammit! Daidouji had that evil piece of machinery out filming you. Now, I know that I am blushing furiously.
"H...hai," I respond hesitantly. The look on your face is enough to make my heart flutter, and me to blush until I pass out. Which I won't do, not for Daidouji's or Hiiragizawa's sick enjoyment. Plus, Daidouji would get it on video with that evil thing and...and she'll get *you* to see it.
"Oh!! Syaoran-kun, we'll have so much fun! Here, since today is Saturday, we can do it today!" You grab my hand, and I feel an electric tingle throughout my body, but you don't seem to notice. Then you write down the time to meet and meeting place, which is at your house.
You look at me once more, smile and say, "I can't wait, Syaoran-kun! We'll have so much fun!"
I stutter, and look down as you turn around, and then you and Daidouji converse. So, maybe I lied a little earlier. Maybe I do believe in love. And, it's all because of you, Sakura. All because of you.
~*~
finis
Sorry, if it's a wittle weird. It's supposed to be! *smiles* It's not set in any episode, but you can tell it'd be during or after the 3rd Season. Yet, in a way, it's slightly out of Story line. Okies? They all know who Eriol is, and the cards are Sakura Cards. So, let's say it's after the 3rd Season, then. Well... a little reading and a little reviewin' never hurt anyone, especially me!
Chotto Matta, minna san!
What a sad thing to say, ne? Well, I can't help it. Due to the fact that I lived with five women from the time I was born, and four of them are the most obnoxious creatures to ever grace this planet. Grace? What am I saying, the four of them are the worst things that ever tried to take over the planet. But, I am so glad to say, that one person stopped them, and that was my Okaasama.
I don't believe in love. But, does that mean I don't believe in hate? That could be a possibility, or it couldn't.
Power is something that I came to Tomoeda for. No, no, not just the card. But, the *cards*. All of them, all fifty-two of them. Hai, all fifty-two of them. My Okaasama asked me to get them for her. She was very peculiar about it, as well. She was keen on saying that the elders wanted it, that she just wanted me to succeed in getting it. The elders wanted it, was what she was saying and she really didn't want me to. But, if she didn't want me to, why would she send me to Tomoeda? I would ask her, but I respect that whatever she is asking me to do is for my best benefit and also for the good of the Li Clan.
Hmm... again, I don't believe in love. But, that would mean I don't believe in hate. I believe in hate.
Hai, hate is a good and a bad thing. You see, I hated *her* whenever I was attracted to, wouldn't you know, power. But, then I hated *her* Oniisan when he attacked me, well, after I attacked her. But, that is besides the point. Then, I hated that infuriating Hiiragizawa Eriol, but that was after I hated Cerberus. The stuffed animal!
I can't tell you how many times I wanted to just throw the stuffed animal in the ocean with a brick tied around him. Him, her Oniisan, and Hiiragizawa Eriol. And, only a couple of times, had I wanted to throw *her* in the ocean, but with no brick tied around her. Why? Why you ask? Well, I wanted to throw her in the ocean, but with no brick. So, maybe she could only be confused, but later she'd come back. Because, as much as I don't want it, she helps me.
I knew her before I met her. Not believable? Well, it is. Before I came to Tomoeda, I did a fortune reading, my Okaasama made me do it. That fortune reading would change my life forever, but I didn't know aout it then. My fortune then, I didn't pay any mind to it, I thought of it as telling me she'd be a distraction. You see, my goal was to push all emotions aside, and get my power, the power that would put me in charge of the Li Clan, to become the Clan Leader. She was only a distraction, and that was all.
Now... she is a distraction I don't want. Because, she isn't helping me anymore. Maybe I should tell you about *him*. He was the power I was attracted to for a while. I worked better under the moon, and that was exactly what he was. And she liked him, too. HER! Again, she was a distraction for the cards and for him.
"Ohohohoho... Li-kun, are you blushing?" Daidouji-san asked me.
Kuso, she noticed. Thank goodness she didn't have that unhealthy habit with the evil eye with me. She and that damn Hiiragizawa-san are the bane of my existence. But, that's okay, because I don't believe in love.
But, she is my distraction, my rival, my objective, my...everything. Hai, my everything. I get here early every morning, just to keep my mind off of... distractions. Well, now, I don't have the cards. And, I lost to that distraction. I lost him to her, too. Well... maybe it wasn't her fault that I lost him. No, no, no it is her fault I lost him.
But, that's okay, because I don't believe in love.
I never fully told you why I didn't believe in love, did I? Well, like I said, it was because of those five women I lived with. Maybe the four of them, my sisters, were a big part. They always teased me and taunted me. Made fun of me, practised their magick on me. Whatever they needed to do, it was done upon me. I remember when they would have problems, instead of going to bother the others, they came to me and opened my door and terrorized me. No, if they would've loved me, they would've cherished me, and they wouldn't have let okaasama and the elders send me here, to Tomoeda.
But My Okaasan has to be the real reason I don't believe in love, though. She made me practise, and do everything that a normal child shouldn't do. Meilin said so herself, that I never smiled, never played. I can honestly say that she saved me (Meilin did), until she got old enough to realize that I was a real boy. I still remember our promise... I didn't mean to break it. Gomen nasai about that, Meilin.
"My cute descendent, you are yet again blushing," Hiiragizawa had to say, again. Damn him.
"Oh my... Li-kun, your face is so red! Is that healthy, Eriol-kun?" Daidouji-san asked Hiiragizawa.
Damn them both. Damn all of them. Really, damn *him*, damn Cerberus, damn her Oniisan, damn my Okaasama, damn my sisters, and dammit, damn *her*! It's her fault I'm like this. It's her fault that I have to hate and damn everyone. I was fine not loving anyone and not caring about it in Hong Kong, with my cold family, my compulsive-obsessive cousin, my abnormal family, the Li Clan elders, the cold atmosphere of my family. But, yet respect was due to them, because they, they made me realize I had to live on my own. That I had to support myself, become the Li Clan leader, and be the most powerful one at that. I am a direct descendent of Clow Reed. I will pervail! But... but...
Oh no, I can feel it. The heat, the heat... it's going to burn me alive.
"Li-kun," Daidouji-san whispers, "She's here."
She and Hiiragizawa laugh together as from my toes to the tip of my ears turn an unhealthy shade of red.
"Ohayo!"
Everyone responds to you. Everyone is happy to see you.
"Ohayo, Sakura-chan!" Daidouji says to you.
"Ohayo, Sakura-san," Hiiragizawa says.
"Ohay, Tomoyo-chan, Eriol-kun," *she* says, smiling chipperly.
"Ohayo, Syaoran-kun!" She says to me, as she puts her face in front of me.
"O...o..ohayo," I stutter, mumble, and blush as I stare at your beautiful emerald eyes.
You smile, you smile so very beautifully. You turn to Daidouji-san and you hand her something... I can't tell what it is, then you sit down. You sit and Hiiragizawa comes next to you and smiles that infuriating, EVIL smile. Then he turns to me, and those evil glasses glint in the sunlight, and he smiles wickedly as he hands you a flower.
Oh, the green monster of jealousy. You blush, and smile and tell him "Arigato!" What a terrible day. What a terrible thing. Oh, damn all of you. Why, Okaasan, why did you have to send me to Tomoeda? Did I tell you I don't belive in love? Hai? Well, too bad. I'm telling you again.
"Syaoran-kun?" You ask me.
What the hell do you want? I turn around from my backpack, a look of distaste on my face. You smile on happily anyhow. My glare just doesn't effect you, not anymore anyhow.
"Syaoran-kun, do you want to come to the festival with me, and then I'm making dinner so you can go to that, too? Or are you too busy?" You ask me, then that cute look on your face surfaces as you notice my silence. Like you're nervous I might say no, but I do believe that is incorrect. No way can you be nervous about what I would say.
BUT! *I* am nervous. I don't know what to say now... dammit! Daidouji had that evil piece of machinery out filming you. Now, I know that I am blushing furiously.
"H...hai," I respond hesitantly. The look on your face is enough to make my heart flutter, and me to blush until I pass out. Which I won't do, not for Daidouji's or Hiiragizawa's sick enjoyment. Plus, Daidouji would get it on video with that evil thing and...and she'll get *you* to see it.
"Oh!! Syaoran-kun, we'll have so much fun! Here, since today is Saturday, we can do it today!" You grab my hand, and I feel an electric tingle throughout my body, but you don't seem to notice. Then you write down the time to meet and meeting place, which is at your house.
You look at me once more, smile and say, "I can't wait, Syaoran-kun! We'll have so much fun!"
I stutter, and look down as you turn around, and then you and Daidouji converse. So, maybe I lied a little earlier. Maybe I do believe in love. And, it's all because of you, Sakura. All because of you.
~*~
finis
Sorry, if it's a wittle weird. It's supposed to be! *smiles* It's not set in any episode, but you can tell it'd be during or after the 3rd Season. Yet, in a way, it's slightly out of Story line. Okies? They all know who Eriol is, and the cards are Sakura Cards. So, let's say it's after the 3rd Season, then. Well... a little reading and a little reviewin' never hurt anyone, especially me!
Chotto Matta, minna san!