Hi! Yeah, well I'm new to this section of Fanfiction because I mainly read Twilight, DOTM, and LWD fanfics but I've read and loved every one of Sarah Dessen's books and I decided I should write my own. Besides…no one wrote a fanfic about my favorite. Well one of my favorites…Dreamland. I loved that book! I don't know about you but yeah…Well, please at least give this a chance! I'm begging you…please!

Disclaimer: The amazing Sarah Dessen owns all of these wonderful characters, I am just using them for my own amusement as well as those of fanfiction readers…

!Rogerson Biscoe Junior!

My brother Peyton left for college three weeks after my eighteenth birthday. He was one year older than me and was the "perfect" son. He was smart, a great athlete; just perfect. I was always the one who screwed up time and again with school and drugs and just life in general.

My father never stopped reminding me what a failure I was either. He'd always been an abusive father, but I've always had more beatings than my brother. Sometimes mom tried to stick up for me but that has been happening less and less recently.

The point is that my brother Peyton left me alone with dad, alone at home, and alone in the world.

Peyton and I weren't ever that close despite how close we are in age. I guess we're just too different. However, he taught me so many things like how to drive, how to fix my car, where to find the cheapest drugs, stuff like that…I was always jealous of him for one reason or another. I wished I was dad's favorite so I'd get less beatings of I could have less of a temper like my brother so I wouldn't be in high school anymore. I envied him two things most as we got older though. First it was how he seemed to know what he wanted in life. And second, all of his girlfriends. Peyton had a long history with girls. I guess it came with his jock status or something. Of course I'd had my share of girlfriends too but they were only amusing for a little while. My longest relationship lasted for almost a month, I think, but I'd spent more time without her than with her while we were going out. Peyton was currently engaged to a girl, Sarah, who he had been seeing since the beginning of his senior year.

Generally my girls were druggies that I'd met either through Peyton or during one of my many "jobs". It wasn't difficult for me to make friends but to find a girl who could keep me interested…That was hard. I still hadn't found her…

Oh please tell me you like it. I'm doing a rewrite of Dreamland in Rogerson's point of view. You know you're curious about what he was thinking as he did that to Caitlyn. I am too…review please! They give me reason to keep going ).