I'm sleepy.....
....or is the death coming for me?....
I guess so, because I'm soaking this papper with blood.
My blood may I add.
Oh shit!!! look at this. I'm making a mess.
The stains in the armchair will be difficult to take out.
My clothes doesn't matter. They were dirthy anyway ^^.
Take that God.
Funny. It seems I haven't heard myself laught for a long time.
I tried to stop, with the amount of blood in my mouth I maight choke.
One way or another I'm dying.
Why? because today was a boring day, and I felt depressed.
But I might not die. Maybe I'll just pass out for blood loos and then someone will come, he'll see me and take care of my self-inflicted wounds.
Funny, ne?
I think they care for my life more than mysefl. But just because they need me as an element of this team.
And it's not that I desperately want to die. I can hurt God more here, hurting his children, he, he, he,....but still....I need something else, but I can't figure out what. At least not now that my brain have stopped receiving it's proper amount of oxigen.
Maybe I should sleep now.
My lids felt heavier.
And I'm cold.
Maybe I should take that blanket with me before going back to my bed and pass out.
Or....
....I can redecorate Brad's favourite painting.
It's not that he can do something to stop me.
He's busy right now fucking Schu.
I guess he won't mind if I put my red hands here....and here....and in this corner....and over Rembrandt's signature.....
There.
It has never being better.
Now I can rest....the carpet id soft.
Bradley won't mind if I ruin this too. He might kill me....If I don't die fisrt...
Oh no.
That boy is coming this way. He have 'saved' my life so many times. Isn't he satisfied?!
Well. At least this time will be more difficult.
I can't even feel my legs and arms anymore.
Good luck Nagi. I hope you succed.
But.....if I die, I'll see God and then I'll kill Him.
To live or not to live. That's the question.
If I woke up I'll think about that. Now I'm to tired to keep thinking.
Good night....
....and fuck you God.....
Ende ^^
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Sorry, I just happen to have a boring day and this came out. Sorry for not bein updating lattely but I've just discovered I can just writte oneshots fics *cries*
But hopefuly, If I'm depressed enough, I'll writte some chapters of 'pieces of shattered glass' ^_~