A/N – So after 3x11 I couldn't stop thinking about how everyone feels sorry for Jane and Kurt is suddenly the bad guy. And I had the feeling that it was so damn unfair to him... so this might be a little angsty but I am still Jeller fan so hopefully my muse will follow this direction.

I am leaving for my parents for a couple of days but after that (and after another episode which I won't get to see straight away...) I hope to finish Revelations – sorry for leaving that without an end!

Mistakes are mine. Anybody wants them? They're free! ;o)

Not enough

Just when Roman disconnected the call Jane realized that he was right. She would never have the life she would want. She would never be at ease and without need to worry.

Before her mind could start making her even more miserable she noticed Avery watching her. So she nodded at her and quickly texted Kurt to tell him she'd just had Roman on the phone.

She got back to Avery as the nurses were leaving.

"Hey, how are you?"

"I'm fine. Just tired. The doctor said they would keep me here for a day or two just to be sure but then I can go..."

"Have you thought about where...?" Jane asked worriedly.

"Not yet." Avery admitted.

And then came heavy silence. Both wanted to say something but didn't know where to start.

"What about Kurt, is he okay? And the other guy that was with you?"

"Yes, they are both fine." Jane said.

"I know you want to talk but can it wait? I am tired..." Avery told her and Jane nodded. "Of course. Can I stay?" She asked instead.

"If you want to..."

And so Avery went to sleep and Jane stayed in her room. She knew that as she was the FBI they won't kick her out. She checked her phone again and found texts from Patterson and Zapata. So she replied to them and watched over her daughter through the night – left alone with the steady beeping of the machines in the background to think about her life.

In the morning Kurt came and brought Jane a duffel bag. She didn't really know what to say to him at this moment.

"Hi..."

"Good morning."

"I just thought you could use some fresh clothes and such... so..." He said and handed her the duffel.

"Thank you." And she even smiled at him.

"How is she?"

"She's doing okay..."

"Good." And he paused. "Can you tell her I stopped by? I promised I would."

"Sure." She said and her voice trembled.

"Look, I, ehm, I talked to Reede and I thought this could help things." He said and gave her large brown envelope. She took it and before she had a chance to look into it he just smiled sadly at her which stopped her in her actions.

"Kurt?" She asked suddenly really worried.

"Goodbye, Jane." He said, leaned in and kissed her forehead softly.

She closed her eyes, sighed and before she could realize what was going on, he was gone. And after a really long time it made her feel sad and worried.

Jane went to Avery and noticed the young woman awake. She smiled at her and they began with small talk.

"Jane, what's in the envelope?"

"Oh, I don't really know." Jane realized and sat down to open it. What she found inside made her breathing stop for a moment. She needed to take a deep breath.

"It's an agreement. If we both sign it you can be told about ... things." And she couldn't believe it. Kurt arranged it so she could openly talk to Avery – if they both sign the whole 'top secret' bunch of papers.

"What things? Your past? About Roman?"

"It seems so. There is a note here for you." Jane said and handed Avery folded piece of paper. Avery took it. It was from Kurt. He was explaining to her that she might not believe Jane right now but that Roman was indeed the bad guy and that she should give her mother a chance to explain. And that this agreement could help. It had already been signed by Reede and himself. He wished her well.

Avery showed the note to Jane and noticed the painful look in Jane eyes. She didn't comment on it though. Before they could talk about it, the doctor came in.

"Morning, ladies."

"Good morning."

"So how are you feeling?"

"I'm fine." Avery said. The doctor checked her vitals and what had been written in her folder and smiled at her.

"It seems you might be free to go tomorrow if you have someone to take care of you for a few days as you need to rest. We can talk about the rest later, if that's okay with you."

"Thank you." Avery said and smiled at him really happy she wouldn't have to stay in the hospital for long.

When the doctor left there was a thick silence in the room. After couple of very uncomfortable minutes Jane finally asked her.

"Do you want to stay with me? So you wouldn't have to be here."

"I don't know..."

"I promise not to push you into anything. We can talk and we don't have to. It's all up to you. I just..."

"You what?" Avery asked, folding her arms in front of her chest.

"I just hope I could get to know you a little, if you let me." Jane admitted. She couldn't understand why she felt this sense of protectiveness so suddenly and what was happening inside her but she was also worried about Roman pulling some stunt on them. Then she remembered something else.

"Or I have friends you can stay with. I work with them in the F.B.I." And she told her about Patterson and Zapata.

"They're actually very eager to meet you... and they both offered you could crash with them if needed."

"If needed or if I didn't want to be with you?"

"Both." Jane admitted honestly and Avery nodded. She could appreciate it.

"I can stay with you, if Kurt doesn't mind." She just really didn't want to go to a hotel and she became quite curious about her mother and the whole story.

Jane didn't have the heart to tell her about their current situation. It was not something she felt comfortable talking about with Avery just yet. She didn't know how close the two of them were or how they felt about each other after everything. She didn't ask to be honest.

Plus she didn't know where they stood at all.

Jane and Avery agreed that Jane would leave to make sure the apartment was ready and to do some grocery shopping. Jane knew that after yesterday's call from Roman Kurt had asked about protection for Avery and soon she noticed two men sitting not far from the room. She nodded at them and they nodded back. So Avery had her detail presented.

Jane tried calling Kurt to ask him about the apartment – he had offered to let her stay there but she wasn't sure if the offer was still up now – when he knew about her and Clem. She couldn't reach him. And so she drove over to their place and found it empty. There was a note on the table.

"Jane, I took few days off. Apartment is all yours. Kurt."

And she couldn't quite explain it but her heart sank a bit just as she read it. Something in her screamed at her that this was not a good thing. He couldn't have known she would come over. So he just left it there in case...

She confirmed with Reede that Kurt had indeed asked for some time off and it made her sad. His goodbye this morning in the hospital suddenly seemed important. Like the last goodbye. Was he gone? And did she care?

Yesterday when the Paramedics at the airport were talking to Avery, getting her settled in the ambulance, she had her chance to say goodbye to Clem. He had told her before he would leave right after the plane landed.

"Take care of yourself, Jane." He said.

"Thank you, for everything."

"You're welcome..." And he hugged her, needing that little contact with her. He was honest with Kurt on the plane, he knew Jane had never stopped loving her husband – but he couldn't help but notice that Kurt had just about given up on them. But he cared about Jane and yeah, he would gladly step in if there was a chance for him to win her over, but... But. But he considered Jane a good friend and after seeing her with her husband he actually began to hope – for their sakes – that they would fix their marriage. He honestly didn't know how that would be possible though.

"You have my number..."

She nodded and thanked him again.

"Don't be a stranger." He told her, kissed her temple and left. Only then she noticed Kurt watching them. She didn't know what to say so she turned and walked over to the ambulance. Both Avery and the paramedic agreed on her tagging along with them.

Kurt didn't follow her.

And now he was gone. His things were still presented; the place looked still the same. So he was planning on coming back. Right?

She had to sit down, feeling empty somehow. Like she had told Clem before – one moment she felt everything and the other there was nothing. What was happening to her?

Jane decided not to analyze that in the moment. She needed to make sure their guest bedroom was ready – or to make it ready – and she indeed had some grocery shopping to do. When she checked the fridge it amazed her that Kurt had bought her vegan products even though she wasn't living there with him anymore.

Jane made a mental note to ask Avery about her preferences when it came down to eating and drinking habits. But she guessed pizza or take-out could save them if needed. Although she should probably try to have something healthy in stock as well.

She called Reede again and they agreed she could stay with Avery – but that she would be on phone in case some tattoo would get cracked.

Jane was woman on a mission. She stopped by at the hospital to check on Avery and ask her about the shopping, she also asked if she should by her some clothes as she didn't have anything but what she had been wearing the other day. She talked to Patterson and Zapata and they promised her helping hands so everything would be set.

The night came and Jane was ready to pick Avery from the hospital in the morning. She tried calling Kurt but it always came straight to voicemail. So he was not available. She didn't blame him.

She tried sleeping in their bed but soon realized she couldn't. They bought this bed together so it would be only theirs – not shared with another person before. It was a silly thing but it made her feel better given the circumstances back then. Now it was strange to be there without him.

She could sleep anywhere – as she had found out during her months on the run – but sleeping back home was something she couldn't accomplish. In the end she crashed on the couch to get at least couple of hours of sleep.

There was a storm inside her she couldn't quite describe.

The next day she brought Avery home and after talking to her called Tasha and Patterson to invite them for a girl's night. Plus there was a lot to talk about.

To their surprise they both came with lunch – it was quiet in the office so she could afford to leave for once. And this was important – because Avery could have heard something from Roman, something that could give them a clue or a hint. So they were basically working.

After small talk and finished their pizzas and Italian take-out they sat down in the living room. Jane and Avery gave Zapata the signed documents so she would take them back to the office.

"So, how do you want to do this?" Zapata asked Avery.

"We can tell you the story or you can ask questions... your call." Patterson added. Avery contemplated it for a moment and then exhaled loudly.

"Okay. Tell me the story and I will ask if there is something unclear." And they all looked at Jane.

"It starts with me crawling naked from a duffel bag in the Times Square covered in tattoos with Kurt's name on my back..." Jane started.

And in the next few hours they filled Avery in on the most important parts of the whole story. There were things they left out and she knew when not to ask. Mostly she let them talk and only when their story was different from what Roman had told her she would ask.

When she did it the first time Patterson stepped in.

"Well lucky we have proof, right?" She said and opened her laptop. She typed in something and a case file appeared. She pointed out the important parts to Avery under Jane and Zapata's supervision. And it had the desired effect. Avery began to believe them step by step.

She asked when something was unclear and sometimes she told them to 'skip to the interesting parts' which made them smile.

Patterson and Zapata noticed that Jane left Kurt out of the story – well their personal relationship. She also didn't tell Avery about how they used to treat her...

"I know you're not telling me everything. You're leaving out the personal stuff, aren't you?" Avery asked. Clever enough to notice.

"Yes. For now."

"Why?"

"You need to understand the whole scheme of things. We can talk about the other part later."

"What is it you're not telling me?" Avery asked not ready to back down. She looked at Jane, then at Jane's friends and it was clear where this conversation was heading.

"What if we leave you two alone for this?" Patterson suggested. She looked at Jane and then at Avery. "If you want to, call us. We can talk later. With or without Jane." And after seeing her nod, she wished her a nice evening and along with Zapata they left them alone.

Jane walked them out, thanked them and closed the door behind them. She knew that now she would have to face the inevitable.

"Jane?"

"So, ask me." Jane offered. She didn't know where to start so she felt it would be best to leave it to Avery.

"Where is Kurt? Why isn't he here? I thought you guys are married. And you're not wearing your ring. Why? What happened? And what is you left out about the story? You said Oscar made you follow his orders by threatening you. But with what? What happened?"

And Jane sighed. She should have known better than to leave her the option of asking. Avery was not at all shy, she wasn't afraid to ask. She was bright and smart – as her question had proved.

Jane wasn't ready to face the consequences of answering these questions yet but she knew that if she wanted to start fresh with her daughter this was her only chance. So she took a deep breath and sat down opposite her so she could tell her the rest of the story. Her story – and Kurt's. She suddenly wished he'd be there with her to help her out.

But he wasn't there.

A/N – so it seems it's turning into a multichapter fic... heh... I promise to try to finish it ASAP – it's all kinda in my head just waiting to be written down!