Disclaimer: I do no own anything, Stephenie Meyer owns all, song is by Desree - Kissing you
There is the link to the song, I suggest that you listern to the song while reading this, then you really get the feel of it.
This is a one shot, it is when Edward leaves Bella in the woods in New Moon, I have used a paragraph from the book and this is found on pages 73-74 of New Moon.
Finally, I tripped over something- it was black now. I had no idea what caught my foot- and I stayed down.
I rolled onto my side, so that I could breathe, and curled up on the wet bracken.
As I lay there, I had a feeling that more time was passing than I realized.
I couldn't remember how long it had been since nightfall.
Was it always so dark here at night ?
Surely, as a rule, some little bit or moonlight would filter down through the clouds, through the clinks in the canopy of trees, and find the ground.
Not tonight. Tonight the sky was utterly black.
Perhaps there was no moon tonight- a lunar eclipse, a new moon.
A new moon. I shivered, though I wasn't cold.
I laid still as can be on the bed of wet bracken, feeling all my clothes and hair wet, but I didn't care, not no more.
I started to drift in and out of consciousness.
That's when I heard it. It was the most beautiful melody I have heard, apart from for my lullaby that is.
This music was so gentle and soft to my ears.
I lay and listen to the words as they are sung with an almost angel like voice.
Pride can stand a thousand trails
The strong will never fall,
But watching stars without you,
My soul cried
Heaving heart is full of pain,
Oh, oh, the aching.
The words of the song touched me deep.
They sent goose bumps all over my skin, and my eyes started to water.
I realised something then but I didn't want to give in and give up.
I held back the threatening tears and breathed in shaky deep breaths.
'Cos I'm kissing you, oh.
I'm kissing you, oh.
One very small tear escaped as those words whispered over me and filled me with sorrow.
Touch me deep, pure and true
Gift to me forever.
'Cos I'm kissing you, oh.
I'm kissing you.
My soul felt torn as did the hole in my chest.
Forever.
That word means so much.
It used to mean forever happiness to me. Now its forever sadness and forever is a very long time.
The melody continued and it felt like little fingers trailing over my skin as the words sung out true and were forever etched into my mind.
As this beautiful yet painful song, sung out all my hurt and it took me with it through the sorrow of the time passed and the times coming.
Where are you now ?
Where are you now ?
'Cos I'm, oh I'm kissing you.
I'm kissing you, oh, ohhhh !
I couldn't hold back the tears any longer.
Streams of salty tears fell down my face and mixed with the soil on the ground as they fell from my now tear stained face.
They were quiet tears as I realized what was happening.
Never.
Never again.
I curled into a small ball and stared into darkness, bleak, blackness.
I knew that is all my life will be now and forever filled with sorrow.
As the music died down and slipped away and I was yet again alone in the cold dark world.
I no longer have anything to live for.
I no longer have love, life or meaning, its over.
It was black for a long time before I heard them calling. Someone was shouting my name.
It was muted, muffled by the wet growth that surrounded me, but it was defiantly my name.
I didn't recognise the voice.
I thought about answering, but I was dazed, and it took a long time to come to the conclusion that I should answer.
By then the calling had stopped.
Yet again alone, cold and in the dark blackness of which is now my life.
Thanks for reading and I would much appreciate it if you would review please. I love this song and thought it would suit the time so well.
Thanks again and I hoped you enjoyed it )