Disclaimer: Character are not mine, they belong to Joss
Authors Notes: This is set after Chosen, Spike has died and Buffy still told him she loved him everyone is back on the bus except for Buffy who is spending a few minutes saying goodbye to Spike. Cordelia is still in a coma and everything happened in Chosen and Home.
Chapter One: Come Back
Buffy stood at the edge of the crater staring and thinking. Thinking about everything that had happened over the last seven years of her life, the moment she came to Sunnydale with her mother and sister, when she entered the library and met Giles and how he told her that they were living on the Hellmouth, when she meet Willow, Xander, Jesse and Cordelia at Sunnydale high, meeting Angel for the first time everything was just flooding back, then she started to remember the memories good and bad, from her first kiss with Angel, to her having to stab Angel with a sword and send him to hell, to all the time she spent with her mother, to the day she died, and then a final memory came to her head, Spike, the vampire she had known for the last six years, spending the first three years fighting him, then sleeping with him then she thought of the time they spent after he got his soul, it was different, she thought about her last moments with the vampire that saved the world with his soul, the soul he got for her. She thought about what she said to him before she got out, her last words to him
'I love you'
She thought to her self did I mean it what if I said it out of pity what if I convinced myself in that moment that I was head over heals in love with the beautiful creature standing in front of me or is the fact that I have been feeling that same feeling every time I saw him or touched him since I rescued him from that cave and looked into his deep blue eyes count for anything. She sighed as her deep thought lead her to wishing that Spike was their holding her, comforting her and whispering into her ear that it was going to be ok and that everything was fine and that thought lead her to realise that she meant what she said to Spike, she loved him with all her heart, body and soul and now he was gone and with that thought she cried, cried for Spike and for the fact that he didn't believe she loved him and she cried out of anger at herself for not telling him sooner. She looked out into the crater with tears streaming down her face and shouted out
"SPIKE, Spike if you're out there somewhere, I know you're not but... I love you, do you hear that you jackass I love you, but you're a complete ass for leaving me Spike, I mean why couldn't you come out with me, Spike why I ..."
She trailed off her words as she cried uncontrollably as she fell to her knees. She heard footsteps coming from behind and automatically thought it was someone from the bus to come and get her so she started to wipe away her tears even though they were still coming from her eyes, she called back over her shoulder not wanting whoever was coming to see her crying
"I'll be there in one sec ok just go back to the bus I'm fine." She said a little to quickly, but who ever was there just kept walking towards her so she got up and turned "I said I'll..."Buffy trailed off her words as she saw an amazing sight and whispered "Oh my god"
"Happy to see me luv"
"Get –away- from me." Buffy said with anger raging in her voice, as she turned round from the figure she thought was the First, "Your not Spike, I want the real Spike your not real so get away from me."
"Buffy look into my eyes and tell me if I'm real or not," he said to the back of her head as she was turned back towards the crater. She turned round slowly and looked up into his blue eyes and she began to cry again.
"Now do you think I'm real" he said with his famous grin.
"Oh my God, Spike," she cried as he picked her up into his arms and she wrapped her legs around his waist and cried into his shirt.
"Guess that's a yes then luv." He said as she began to frantically kissing her way up his neck and up his jaw line and to his lips as they were locked in a passionate kiss. When she broke off for air she said quickly with excitement filling her voice,
"What's happening? Why are you? I don't care." she said just before she kissed him again feeling him chuckle under her mouth. She broke off the kiss and started to hug him tightly as her legs tightened around his waist.
"Oh god Spike don't you ever leave me again not ever ok I love you too much for you to leave me again promise me that you will never leave me again." She said frantically as she held on to him.
"I promise I will never leave you a...wait what did you just say?" he said as he realised what she had just said. Buffy lifted her head and looked into his eyes and said,
"I love you Spike, god I love you so much."
"Buffy you don't have to say that I know you don't mean it I know you could never love me," He said as he bowed his head so not to look at her and as he did that Buffy lifted it back up again to look back in to her eyes.
"Spike, I –love-you." She said looking directly into his eyes
"Buffy..." He said with sorrow in his eyes, as he still didn't believe her.
"Oh my god, Spike will you listen to the words I am saying *I*am in love with *you*." Buffy said, not only for him but also for herself as the more she said it the more she knew it was how she felt.
A big smile came to Spikes face when he realised Buffy was serious and that his dream had come true.
"Really." He said just to make sure he wasn't hearing things.
"Really Really." She said before kissing him softly on the lips still with her leg wrapped around his waist.
She broke the kiss and started hugging him again and said to him into his shoulder "We should get back to the bus."
"Ok then" he said as he broke his hold on her only to find her still holding on to him tightly.
"Err pet don't you want to walk to the bus"
"Would that mean me letting go of you?" she asked still hugging him
"Well, yeah"
"Oh, well then No, I mean not just yet" she said chuckling into his shoulder as he started to carry her to the bus.
"Buffy." He said as they came closer to the bus.
"Yeah"
"You do know I love you don't you." he said nervously.
She lifted her head and looked into his eyes. "Yes, and I love you too." She said with a smile.
They were close to the bus when Buffy suddenly realised something.
"Wait a minute Spike why aren't you in flames?" she said realising that all this time they had been in the sun light.
"Ah yeah, that, I'll tell you when we get inside luv."
Authors Notes: This is set after Chosen, Spike has died and Buffy still told him she loved him everyone is back on the bus except for Buffy who is spending a few minutes saying goodbye to Spike. Cordelia is still in a coma and everything happened in Chosen and Home.
Chapter One: Come Back
Buffy stood at the edge of the crater staring and thinking. Thinking about everything that had happened over the last seven years of her life, the moment she came to Sunnydale with her mother and sister, when she entered the library and met Giles and how he told her that they were living on the Hellmouth, when she meet Willow, Xander, Jesse and Cordelia at Sunnydale high, meeting Angel for the first time everything was just flooding back, then she started to remember the memories good and bad, from her first kiss with Angel, to her having to stab Angel with a sword and send him to hell, to all the time she spent with her mother, to the day she died, and then a final memory came to her head, Spike, the vampire she had known for the last six years, spending the first three years fighting him, then sleeping with him then she thought of the time they spent after he got his soul, it was different, she thought about her last moments with the vampire that saved the world with his soul, the soul he got for her. She thought about what she said to him before she got out, her last words to him
'I love you'
She thought to her self did I mean it what if I said it out of pity what if I convinced myself in that moment that I was head over heals in love with the beautiful creature standing in front of me or is the fact that I have been feeling that same feeling every time I saw him or touched him since I rescued him from that cave and looked into his deep blue eyes count for anything. She sighed as her deep thought lead her to wishing that Spike was their holding her, comforting her and whispering into her ear that it was going to be ok and that everything was fine and that thought lead her to realise that she meant what she said to Spike, she loved him with all her heart, body and soul and now he was gone and with that thought she cried, cried for Spike and for the fact that he didn't believe she loved him and she cried out of anger at herself for not telling him sooner. She looked out into the crater with tears streaming down her face and shouted out
"SPIKE, Spike if you're out there somewhere, I know you're not but... I love you, do you hear that you jackass I love you, but you're a complete ass for leaving me Spike, I mean why couldn't you come out with me, Spike why I ..."
She trailed off her words as she cried uncontrollably as she fell to her knees. She heard footsteps coming from behind and automatically thought it was someone from the bus to come and get her so she started to wipe away her tears even though they were still coming from her eyes, she called back over her shoulder not wanting whoever was coming to see her crying
"I'll be there in one sec ok just go back to the bus I'm fine." She said a little to quickly, but who ever was there just kept walking towards her so she got up and turned "I said I'll..."Buffy trailed off her words as she saw an amazing sight and whispered "Oh my god"
"Happy to see me luv"
"Get –away- from me." Buffy said with anger raging in her voice, as she turned round from the figure she thought was the First, "Your not Spike, I want the real Spike your not real so get away from me."
"Buffy look into my eyes and tell me if I'm real or not," he said to the back of her head as she was turned back towards the crater. She turned round slowly and looked up into his blue eyes and she began to cry again.
"Now do you think I'm real" he said with his famous grin.
"Oh my God, Spike," she cried as he picked her up into his arms and she wrapped her legs around his waist and cried into his shirt.
"Guess that's a yes then luv." He said as she began to frantically kissing her way up his neck and up his jaw line and to his lips as they were locked in a passionate kiss. When she broke off for air she said quickly with excitement filling her voice,
"What's happening? Why are you? I don't care." she said just before she kissed him again feeling him chuckle under her mouth. She broke off the kiss and started to hug him tightly as her legs tightened around his waist.
"Oh god Spike don't you ever leave me again not ever ok I love you too much for you to leave me again promise me that you will never leave me again." She said frantically as she held on to him.
"I promise I will never leave you a...wait what did you just say?" he said as he realised what she had just said. Buffy lifted her head and looked into his eyes and said,
"I love you Spike, god I love you so much."
"Buffy you don't have to say that I know you don't mean it I know you could never love me," He said as he bowed his head so not to look at her and as he did that Buffy lifted it back up again to look back in to her eyes.
"Spike, I –love-you." She said looking directly into his eyes
"Buffy..." He said with sorrow in his eyes, as he still didn't believe her.
"Oh my god, Spike will you listen to the words I am saying *I*am in love with *you*." Buffy said, not only for him but also for herself as the more she said it the more she knew it was how she felt.
A big smile came to Spikes face when he realised Buffy was serious and that his dream had come true.
"Really." He said just to make sure he wasn't hearing things.
"Really Really." She said before kissing him softly on the lips still with her leg wrapped around his waist.
She broke the kiss and started hugging him again and said to him into his shoulder "We should get back to the bus."
"Ok then" he said as he broke his hold on her only to find her still holding on to him tightly.
"Err pet don't you want to walk to the bus"
"Would that mean me letting go of you?" she asked still hugging him
"Well, yeah"
"Oh, well then No, I mean not just yet" she said chuckling into his shoulder as he started to carry her to the bus.
"Buffy." He said as they came closer to the bus.
"Yeah"
"You do know I love you don't you." he said nervously.
She lifted her head and looked into his eyes. "Yes, and I love you too." She said with a smile.
They were close to the bus when Buffy suddenly realised something.
"Wait a minute Spike why aren't you in flames?" she said realising that all this time they had been in the sun light.
"Ah yeah, that, I'll tell you when we get inside luv."