She's crazycrazycrazy
That girl
Nothing but trouble
A head full of air
And ears stuffed tight against all those who say
She's not all there
(and maybe they're right,
What does she know?)
.
But she hears the names they call her
"Looney" they say
"Off her rocker"
"Completely mental"
And it hurtshurtshurts
Because she isn't trying to be different
It's just the way she is
The way she was raised
And who are they
To tell her her truths are wrong
And theirs are right
(what if theirs are wrong?
Hers could be right, and if they aren't
They're right for her at least)
.
She tries so damn h a r d
Every day
She tries to be 'normal'
But that fails
Miserably
Because, no matter what she does,
She's nowhere near normal enough for them.
So she stops trying to make them accept her
And tries instead to block her ears from their jeering insults
To ignore each sneer and cruel laugh
And this,
This she's good at
She can pretend that it doesn't hurt
.
They steal her shoes,
Hiding them different places
Why?
"Kids will be kids"
The adults say
And the adults
(who also find her uncomfortably queer)
Do nothing to stop
The kids from acting like kids
And do nothing to find
Her missing shoes
.
And that's it
It's her versus the world
A not-so-epic war
Of miniscule proportions
Because each battle is fought quietly
Almost silently
And the victor is only declared when she is sitting
Alone, always very alone
And c r y i n g
(that means they won
They always win)
.
It's tearing her to bits
And that ripping is the sound of her heart
Onetwothree shredded pieces
Scattered on the floor
Soaked in her tears
Three patient pieces
Waiting for someone to glue them back together
And place them back into the cavity
In theirowner's chest
Waiting for Luna 'Looney' Lovegood to finally be
W h o l e
A/N: Wow, I really love writing Luna freeverse. I had forgotten how relieving it is, just letting go and pouring insecurities, doubts, fears on to the paper. But she's so delightfully innocent, so it's fun to play off of that, too. Her innocence leads to optimism, I believe, which allows for happy endings. I'm thinking this will be a series of freeverse, mostly romances, with different characters and pairings. What'd you think?