AN: This is a songfic to Passing Afternoon, by Iron and Wine. I don't own the song, I don't own the characters. Constructive criticism is encouraged, but any review would rock my socks. :D
Passing Afternoon
Artemis sat in the manor, his
wrinkled hands typing meticulously. His eyes did not even register
the words that he was writing. The passion had long left him. His
work was simply habit, one he couldn't break despite the lack of
necessity and enjoyment. It was soothing, if unsatisfying. The
familiar click of the keyboard reminded him of less empty time, where
his frantic typing would mean victory, or even more exhilarating,
possible defeat.
Of course, we all must
age, but Artemis never really thought that included him. True, his
strict diet and stolen magic had helped him outlast every friend,
colleague and school mate, but it didn't stop his heart from
faltering when he climbed the stairs or prevent his knees from
creaking every time he stood from a chair.
Still, he had feigned immortality as a child, and he had been a child
for an extended time. Artemis was nearing the end now, he could feel
it, but he wouldn't let go. Living was yet another habit he
couldn't break.
He allowed his mind to
wander, as it had taken to doing these days. Artemis couldn't sum
up the feeling to mourn for his lost intelligence. He still retained
enough to continue his work, but his mind just wasn't the same. He
would find himself lost in thoughts and memories sometimes, and other
times unable to think or remember at all.
Now he remembered many things; Butler's death, though he couldn't
recall his father's, the twins' falling out, and, as always, the
day Holly left him forever.
Holly. It had
been a long time, and some days he forgot about her entirely, while
other days she was all that was on his mind. Holly would no longer be
young, he could imagine the first streaks of gray flecking her short
hair.
Though he knew that she wore it
long now, Trouble liked it long. Artemis had always liked it
short.
Artemis envied her youth. He
envied Trouble's even more.
There are times that walk
from you like some passing afternoon
Summer warmed the open window
of her honeymoon
And she chose a yard to burn but the ground
remembers her
Wooden spoons, her children stir her Bougainvillea
blooms
Holly went through her morning routine. She brushed her teeth and
got dressed, nobody needed to see her right after she got out of bed.
She must remain beautiful in her family's eyes. She put on the
coffee, Trouble needed it in the morning, then made the bed, perfect
and smooth. Finally, she served breakfast and packed lunches for the
children. The movements were almost instinctual, it had taken forty
years of marriage to get into this routine, and another forty to
perfect it.
It had started off slowly.
She couldn't get out of doing all of the feminine tasks, that's
not equality. But the perfectionist in Holly just couldn't watch
the dinner burn every night or the living room transform into a trash
heap. After a while she did the chores, Trouble just wasn't very
good at them.
Then their first child
came. Somebody had to stay home, preferably somebody with the ability
to produce milk, so she went on temporary leave of her job. After
their second child was born the leave seemed less temporary. When the
third child and final child came into the world, and grew, Holly just
didn't have the effort to go back, it had been too long. The years
of being a housewife had worn away her fighting spirit, it no longer
leaked into her life, but remained as a ball at the center of her
chest, a guilty feeling that reminded her of her loss.
While she dusted she hummed a melody, a mud man song, bittersweet and
filled with the longing she felt. Her mind journeyed back before her
life became perfect, when everything was uncertain, when she knew
Artemis.
She remembered him as he was
presently, Foaly kept a feed, and even after he retired he passed it
on, typical paranoia. Holly could picture him in her minds eye,
Artemis was frail, his skin hung off of his bones and his eyes were
dull, but still held the spark of defiance that led him through his
life. He was still beautiful.
There are things that drift
away like our endless, numbered days
Autumn blew the quilt right
off the perfect bed she made
And she's chosen to believe in the
hymns her mother sings
Sunday pulls its children from their piles
of fallen leaves
Artemis could
still remember so much of her. The chestnut colour of her skin, the
way the light fell on her hair, the sound of her voice after...
After the one time that they dared to destroy one another.
He wondered if she ever told Trouble. He wished that she had.
But no, it would have destroyed their marriage.
Artemis tried to tell himself that she would be happier this way. He
thought that he should be glad for her.
He
wasn't. He never would be. Love is selfish, and he was head over
heals.
There are sailing ships that pass all our bodies
in the grass
Springtime calls her children 'till she let's them go
at last
And she's chosen where to be, though she's lost her
wedding ring
Somewhere near her misplaced jar of Bougainvillea
seedsHolly hugged her children
tightly as they attempted to struggle away from her. She wished that
she could keep them with her. They wanted to leave, to fly away. They
wanted independence and freedom and privileges.
Holly held her daughter close and stared into her bright blue eyes.
Their calculating look bore deep into her. The girl blushed,
terrified that someone might see her hugging her mother. Holly sighed
and reluctantly let go.
The mother winced as
they ran off into the terrifying world. The thought of the
intelligent blue eyes warmed her, but not enough to stop the
tears.
There are things we can't recall, blind as night
that finds us all
Winter tucks her children in, her fragile china
dolls
But my hands remember hers, rolling 'round the shaded
ferns
Naked arms, her secrets still like songs I'd never
learned
Artemis' breath echoed
around the manor. He climbed the stairs slowly and entered his
bedroom.
He sat on the hard bed and lay down.
He closed his eyes and crossed his arms over his chest.
There
are names across the sea, only now I do believe
Sometimes, with
the windows closed, she'll sit and think of me
But she'll mend his
tattered clothes and they'll kiss as if they know
A baby sleeps in
all our bones, so scared to be alone
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