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Never
Haruka's POV
Never… not once have you approved of what I've done with my life. What I wanted and I what I chose was never what you thought was right. It was always foolish.
I told you I wanted to race and you called it a frivolous pastime that would never amount to anything. You told me I should stop wasting my life pursuing things that would never make a real career. You told me I needed a real job. One that was respectable. One that all the other mindless drones of the world performed. You want me to be like everyone else so that if I were to fail… it would go unnoticed. Something that looked good in the eyes of others and was never outlandish. Something you would have done.
I told you I was gay and you looked at me with confused and unbelieving eyes. You asked me if I was kidding; if it was all some big joke that I was playing on you. The only joke being played is on me by the cruelty of this world… and you. You've never accepted that I was gay. You chose to ignore it. To pretend it wasn't there. Well it is… and I can't change it. I didn't choose to be like this. I didn't choose to have you turn your back on me and always dance around the subject if it ever arose. No… I didn't choose this.
All I ever wanted was for you to encourage me when I went for something. Help me strive towards it so that I could achieve my goal. I don't want to have to succeed only to prove you wrong. That's not what I want. I've never wanted that.
I wanted you to be happy for me. That no matter who I find love with would be alright. It didn't matter what gender, man or woman as long as they loved me. As long as I was happy you would be happy too… that's all I wanted. I never wanted to avoid talking about my love life simply because I knew it would make you unhappy and uncomfortable.
I just want to live my life and be happy about who I am, what I'm doing and who I'm with. But I'll never be good enough for you will I? I'll never be what you wanted out of your daughter. I'll always be a disappointment that was never good enough.