Do you remember that night when we broke curfew and slipped away into the fields for a while? You told me that there was nothing I could ever do that would make you love me less. But there is. I am a Titan shifter. The Armored Titan. I broke through Wall Maria five years ago and I killed people and ate them. I'm the one that made you an orphan.
I need to tell you this because I can't take it anymore. And I can't bear to see your face when you realize that I'm a monster. Sometimes I forget what I did and what I am, and every time I remember it's like dying. I figure I'm prepared for the real thing by now.
I know you, and now you're probably wondering if it was all a lie. I don't know. I mean, what I felt- what I still feel for you- is real. But everything else was a lie from day one. We shouldn't have had anything at all- something like what we had shouldn't have been founded on lies and blood. But I can't lie to you anymore.
I haven't decided what I'm going to do now. Whether I'll go home or go to Hell, though I doubt there's much difference now that I've failed in my mission to locate the Coordinate.
You'll never know how sorry I am. I truly regret everything. If my death would restore everything, I would kill myself in an instant. I am so sorry. I can tell you how sorry I am until we're both old and gray, but it still won't change what I am and what I did, to you and to the rest of humanity.
I won't ask for your forgiveness because what I've done is unforgivable. All I ask is that you don't scorn what we had together. I really did- do- like you. I wish that things could have ended differently. That's not a lie.
With blood on my name,
Reiner