MASSIE BLOCK (ALPHA OF THE PRETTY COMMITTEE)
STEREOTYPE: CONFIDENT
CONFIDENT: BELIEVING THAT YOU CAN DO SOMETHING WELL AND/OR SUCCEED AT SOMETHING

The last time I checked, confident is not a word that describes me.

If I was so confident, I wouldn't wake up at 4:30 each morning to stress about my outfit.

If I was so confident, I wouldn't always be worried whether my friends will ditch me for someone cooler.

If I was so confident, I wouldn't always be worried whether Derrick Harrington will ditch me for someone cooler.

If I was so confident, I wouldn't have bullied Claire when she first came to Westchester.

Should I explain that one?

If I was so sure of my abilities, so certain of my Alpha spot, I wouldn't have felt threatened by Claire.

Not that I was worried Claire would actually steal my spot.

But I was worried that befriending her would mean people would think I was slipping. After all, if I openly admitted my friendship with Kuh-laire, it was only a short step until I was friends with Layme.

And that would be slipping.

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Basically, I'm always worried/stressed/freaking out about something.

I mean, I always get this feeling I have to be perfect. But no one's really perfect, are they?

I'm certainly not.

The only time my outfits are tens are when Alicia picks them out.

The only time my hair is perfect is when Jakkob does it from scratch.

The only time I say the exact right thing is when I spend hours thinking about it the night before.

The only reason I keep from crying when I'm miserable is because I have my friends there to support me.

Obviously, I wouldn't be anything without other people helping me.

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If I was confident, I would wear stained leggings and a baggy tank top to school.

I would let my hair be natural.

I wouldn't wear makeup.

I wouldn't be as mean to people, either.

Confidence is believing in yourself.

I sure don't believe in myself.

But I just fake it.

Because when you fake it, people believe.

Apparently.

I know what you're thinking: oh, no, another story.

Sorry, guys. But I put No Match For Us on hiatus, so I'll have at least a little more time. And this was begging to be written.

If you hate it, I'll delete it, of course.

So please tell me what you think. Just a few words in that box down there will make me happy. A simple, 'Hey, this is really cool!' or 'You could do _ to improve' will be fantastic. I cherish every single review I get. You guys have no idea.

Heart ya,
Joy