New Year
By Mrs. Nina Cullen
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight.
Part One of Four
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Edward Cullen's POV

December 31, 2011

I was home finally after almost three years I was home. I never wanted to leave. Not just because this was home but because of my Bella. She was my heart and soul. Leaving her was the hardest thing in the world, but I had to. We had met in college she was per law, I was per med. We were both busy students but we always made time for each other. When we were almost done with under grad, we applied to all the same schools or at least some close to each other. We had choices and ended up Harvard together. Those years were hard but we did it. We made out out together. Our next step was really hard. She was done with school. I had my residence to do. Bella was holding off on taking the bar till we knew where we were going to go. We talked about what we wanted and where we wanted to end up. We wanted to get married and have a family but we also wanted careers. We had our plans set then everything changed. With the encouragement of one of my professors I had applied to study in London. It was the hardest one to get and only two US students get picked from from the country. So when I got the letter telling me that I got in I was in shock. After alot of talking and a few arguments we decided that I would regret it if I didn't go. So with a heavy heart I took the job. Then we had the conversation I didn't want to have.

June, 2008

We were sitting in our livingroom. It had been an hour since I got the letter. After listing the pros and cons we decided that I should go to London.

"Edward?"

"Yes love."

"When you go to London if something were to happen I won't hold it against you." I looked at her for a moment trying to understand what she meant.

"I'm not sure I understand what you mean."

"A well if you meet someone and you have urges then I won't hold it against you if you satisfy them." I was upset now that I fully understood what she was saying.

"So it's okay with you if I fuck any one I want while I'm gone."

"That's not what I said."

"That's what it sounded like."

"What I meant was that if you find some one you like and care about, I won't hold it against you if you explore that avenue."

"Are you planning on finding someone while I'm gone?" I asked now very angry

"No, of course I'm not. I'm not telling you to go out and find some one while you're gone. What I'm saying is that if you find some one that you can see your self sharing that with, and you want to see if it works. Then go ahead."

"That's great Bella. Do you expect me to offer you the same, because if you are then you're out of luck. I don't share well with others. If you plan on looking for some one to keep you warm at night while I'm gone then maybe we should end this now."

"That's not what I want. I'm just trying to keep mt heart safe."

"Do you really think I would go anything to hurt you?"

"Not intentionally but you never know."

"Fine, if that's how you feel then maybe we should just end this now" my eyes were full of tears. I didn't bother hiding them. I hadn't wanted things to end. I just wanted her to know that that was what it looked like. How had I let it get this far. I looked up at her, her eyes full of tears. I was waiting for for to say something.

"I'm sorry." she said. I saw her get up and walked in to our room. Most of our things were packed since I was leaving in two days. She walked to the door when I grabbed her and held her close.

"Please don't go. I didn't mean it. I love you. I don't want to be with out you."

"I know I don't want to be without you either but if you don't go there will always be the 'what if' in the back of your mind. You need to go. I'll be here waiting for you. I promise." We made love that night it was slow and passionate and filed with all of our love.

December 30, 2008

I looked at my watch as I walked in to the hospital. I was a few minutes early. I was about to get my phone out to call Bella when it rang with her name on the caller ID. I smiled. I missed her do much.

"Hello my love."

"Edward,"

"What's wrong?"

"I need you..."

"Masen, we need you stat four car pile up. Let's go."

"Baby I have to go. I'll call you when I'm done okay."

"Edward please I need you right now."

"I'm sorry baby there was a really bad accident, I'll call you." I hung up and went to work. I hated to cut any conversation short but I had to work. I hated that I kept disappointing her; I could hear it in her voice.

It was six hour later before I could call. She didn't answer. I worried after she didn't answer. Four days later and I still didn't hear from her. I called Alice, a friend of ours. She said she hadn't heard from her in a few weeks but she'd call as soon she knew something. She called me two hours later. Bella was upset with me and didn't want to hear from me. I never stopped calling. And when she changed her number I kept track on her by talking to Alice.

December 31, 2011

She was here. For the first time on almost three years I'm in the same room as my Bella. She's beautiful as always. I moved in to the next room so she didn't see me yet. I needed a game plan. I need to get her back; I hope that I'm not too late. "So what's your plan?" Jasper asks me. I've known the guy for all of one hour and I can tell he's going to be one of my best friends.

"I'm not sure yet. I'm not sure what happened to make her cut me off with out a word but it had to have been something big. Alice says she hasn't dated at all so who knows."

"Well she knows your here and she can't keep her eyes off you." I looked over and met her eyes. I missed those eyes, her beautiful big brown eyes. I can see the shock on her face so I smile.

"I'm going to go talk to her." I said looking at Jasper. When I looked back to Bella she wasn't there. I looked all over the house but she was gone.

"Alice, where did Bella go? I can't find her any where."

"I'm not sure maybe she went home. She told me she wasn't staying long. She only came to meet Jasper."

"Where does she live?"

"I'm only telling you this so you can win her back. I better not hear anything bad or your dead mister." I smiled and kissed her head. She handed me a paper with an address. "Thanks." She waved me off and I ran as fast as I could to Bella's house.

I was half way there when I started to get nervous. I knew my Bella but so much time had passed. I knew that she wouldn't be the same person, not really. Every one changes. Some people go threw drastic changes some minimal. I knew that I've changed. I knew I was stronger and I knew that I was a better person. I saw things I had never wanted to see but in doing so I became who I am now. I lost the single most important thing in my life and I came out stronger. I knew that I wanted her back. I didn't want a life with out her in it. I wanted to marry her and start a family. I knew what I wanted a life that involved and I was scared shitless that I wouldn't get it.

I hesitated at her door. I didn't know what to do or say. I didn't know what she would do or how she would react. I didn't know if she would see me out or if she would slam the door in my face but I knew she was worth it. She was worth the pain. I took a deep breath then knocked. I stood there waiting for her to answer. After few minutes I was still standing there waiting. I felt the sadness hit me. I knocked once more hoping she would answer. My heart sped up in my chest as I heard the chain on the door. She opened the door she didn't look happy and she didn't look surprised either.

"What are you doing here?" She asked some what angry.

"I wanted to talk but you left before I could even say hi."

"Well the last time I wanted to talk you had better things to do."

"That's not fair. I was working. I took that position because you asked me to. You wanted to make sure I didn't have any regrets. I'm being punished for doing what you asked of me."

"I know I'm sorry. It's just I needed you more than ever that day. You're the only one that I needed, the only one that would understand." The tears in her eyes made me weak. I felt my own tears forming in my eyes.

"What happened baby?"

"Come in and we'll talk." I followed her in. She guided me to the living room. I sat on the sofa while she grabbed a book from the shelf. I saw her take a deep breath before she started talking.

"I didn't take it to well after you left. I had a hard time doing anything. I was staying with my dad but since he's hardly home he didn't notice at first. I wasn't really eating. Anything I did eat made me sick. I spent most of the time in bed sleeping waiting for your calls. I hated myself when I missed your calls. Three months, that's how long it took before my dad had enough. He came in to my room told me to get up and I did I got up walked fours steps before I fell hitting my head. When I woke up I was at the hospital with my father. When I woke up the doctor told me that I was three months pregnant." I was shocked I had never heard her tell me that she was pregnant. I didn't know what to say to her. The shocked look on my face must have given my thoughts away.

"I tried to tell you. Every time I got you on the phone it was always cut short. I think the longest conversation we had was all of one minute. I didn't want to leave you a message telling you that. I wanted to hear your response when I told you before I knew it was almost Christmas then my world was turned at its axis. I was getting ready to go to my monthly check up when I started to feel the pain. I could barely walk from how bad it was. Sue came and got me. When I got to the hospital they told me I was in labor. They tried to stop it but it was hopeless. At 3:24 am on the twenty fourth of December, Nayeli Mabelle Cullen was born." She handed me the book in her hand the cover had the name Nayeli Mabelle Cullen in big bold letters. Under it had I love you my beautiful one. I ran my fingers over the letters. "That's what her name means, I love my beautiful one." She said softly. I opened the book and saw sonogram pictures the dates written under them. As I turn the page you can see that she was growing. Then I get to the heartbreaking ones. I see Bella's hand holding her she was barely bigger than Bella's hand. I looked up to Bella's eyes. I see the tears in her eyes. I turn the page and see a few more pictures with dates. Then, on the last page I see something I never wanted to see, I saw her death certificate. It had her name and the time of death. I sobbed when I saw it. It was that night. The night you called saying you needed me. I had never thought it was something this serious. I looked at the time. It happened three hours after I had hung up on her. Three hours before I tried to call back. I understood now why she didn't want to talk. I understood and I hated myself for missing this. I hated that I wasn't there for her for both of them. I had missed the birth of my baby girl. I had missed the hardest thing Bella had probably ever gone through. I had lost more than Bella that night and I couldn't help but feel like I didn't deserve them. I didn't deserve to be in there life.

"I'm so sorry." I tell her even though I know it's nowhere near enough to cover how I felt or what I had done. "I… I'm so sorry that I wasn't there. I'm sorry I failed you. I'm sorry that I failed both of you. I'm sorry you had to go through this alone. I'm sorry that I… that I … I'm just so sorry and I know it's not good enough. I know nothing I saw will ever make it better."

A/N: I started writing this as a WitFit prompt in Bella's POV. Then I started to write some in Edward's. I thought that Ed's would be better as the first chapter instead of Bella's. I am posting Bella's next in a few moments I just need to add a few things. I will post the other two parts next week. It will be what happens after this and maybe I'll add a few extras that I started to write. Form other POV's Pleas enjoy. I wouldn't hate hearing your thoughts on this.

The prompt I was using just in case you were wondering:

Today's prompts: December 29, 2011
Word Prompt: Annoy
Scenario: Your friend invites you to a New Year's Eve party. You don't want to go, but give in at the last minute. When you arrive, your eyes scan the room and land on someone you never dreamed you would see.