Disclaimer

I don't own Evangelion or any of its characters; Gainax does (even though it we be SOOOOO FRIGGIN COOL to own an Eva…… I need a bigger garage… lol) though my girlfriend is about as close to being Asuka as possible aside from the red hair, and I used to be a lot like Shinji, until I realized… … … IT SUCKED!!! well, now I'm more relaxed and carefree, more brave and impulsive… now, weather that's a good thing or not, I cant tell, but that's the reason my girlfriend loves me (same basic reason Asuka liked Shinji) and that's how I'm going to stay. For now, I'm writing fanfics about 1 chapter every other day, so always be hopeful for a new chapter. I also thank PrincessKikiTotoro for correcting grammar, spelling, and the parts that make ya say "WHAT THE F&$?!?!", so I thank her for all the corrections.

OK now, setting the scene. This fanfic takes place after the 15th angel, after Asuka got "mind raped" by said angel, she's been acting weird and Shinji's worried that she might do something that they'll all regret. After the 15 angel, Rei starts to realize, She's worried about Asuka as well... she also worries about Shinji's safety, knowing how mad Asuka gets, and how easily she could overpower Shinji if she felt like it. Rei is worried about Shinji and Asuka, Shinji is worried about Asuka and Rei, And Asuka is Fucked up in the head 7 ways till Sunday...

OK, so, now on to the story!!!

"Reflexes…"

It was just another night… … … Asuka was thrashing around like she usually does at this time of night... or at least, this time of night ever since the last angel attack. Shinji's been worried about her ever since it happened…

'she just hasn't't been the same since then…' he thought to himself, 'If I lose much more sleep, I'm gonna look like a raccoon...'

Ironically enough, Misato was asleep in her room... but the last thing that she thought before she went to sleep was: 'Damnit... I just know Shinji's gonna give in to temptation... He's gonna try to take advantage of Asuka's condition if this goes on for any longer...'

Asuka was still thrashing around in her room, having a nightmare of some sort. 'Damnit... I wish there was something... anything I could do to help her... if only there was a way to talk yo her without her trying to kill me again...' he thought as he placed his hand on the cut across his neck... Asuka had swung at him with a butcher knife, and he would have been dead right now id it hadn't been for pen pen running by, tripping him backwards... the knife barely grazed his throat instead of ripping it open...

At around midnight, the thrashing stopped… this immediately grabbed Shinji's attention.

Shinji sighed, "Ahhhhh….. She finally relaxed a bit… … … wait… why did she relax? ... better go check it out…" a discontented Shinji forced himself to get out of bed…walked to the door and slid it open quietly.

"Is something the matter Pilot Ikari?"

Shinji barely kept himself from screaming out loud. He had completely forgotten that Rei was staying over for a few weeks (as of earlier that night), apparently when Asuka dropped the laser rifle, one of the rounds had hit Rei's otherwise abandoned apartment. She had come over to Misato's apartment because it was the closest. Misato said that she could stay for as long as she wanted to, but Rei insisted that she only stay until she could "locate a new residence". They were going to buy her new clothes in the morning since all she now had was the clothes that she was wearing… which consisted of her school uniform and a small wallet for carrying I.D. and such. He didn't mind that Rei was taking residence at Misato's place, hell, he preferred it. Here, he knew she was safe from everything, burglars, rapists, criminals… … his father… It wasn't the fact that she was there that bothered him, even though "wonder girl" wasn't helping Asuka's condition, No, what bothered him was that it was only earlier that night, he had realized, she was an insomniac! … She just sat up all night watching T.V. , you know, the news, history channel, military channel (which showed a lot about the Eva's lately) or occasionally a children's show if there were any on during those ungodly hours.

"No… I'm just going to check on Asuka… … Sorry to bother you Rei."

"Is it a bother to give me someone to talk to?" she asked in her usual monotone.

"Hmm… well, when you put it that way, no."

Shinji smiled and went to walk away, but before he did,

"You know Rei, If you wanted to try to sleep, you could always sleep in my bed." She looked over at him. In the dim light of the T.V. he could see her blushing deeply. "Well- I mean – Well – YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!!!" Shinji whispered, blushing as deeply as Rei was.

"Thank you pilot… Thank you Shinji… I will consider it…"

Shinji just blushed again and smiled, "Ok, just let me know if you'd like to take my offer" he looked back at all the events that had happened recently... he and Rei had become truly close to each other. They could Synchronize as easily as him and Asuka could, which means that they could all read each others moves...and with that thought, he walked towards Asuka's closed door…

He was in front of Asuka's room... Shinji quietly slid the door open. His eyes flew open and his lower jaw dropped. Asuka's dresser drawer was open... ... ... and she was shoving a round into what Shinji recognized as a .45 caliber revolver, she then proceeded to raise the pistol to her head…

"ASUKA!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!" Shinji screamed. he was pale as a ghost and his blood felt like it had frozen over.

"Huh-?!"

Asuka turned her head at just the right angle, and at just the right time that the round missed her head by barely more then an inch.

"What do you want?!?!" she said, the venom in her voice was almost paralyzing…

"Asuka, What Are You Doing?!?!"

Shinji took a step towards the distressed Asuka.

"Stay back!!!"

She shot the floor a few inches in front of Shinji, hoping to keep him back, but it wound up ricocheting into his right leg.

"God… (Panting)… Damnit!!!" (Thinking-- ) 'Smooth Shinji, real smooth, walk towards the crazy pissed off bitch with a pistol that could blow your head off… aw, who am I kidding? … I probably deserved that one for something… Karma's a bitch… and she slaps REALLY hard…'

Shinji was on the floor, staring up at the revolver… he could see that there was only one round left… (thinking-- ) 'If I do this right… I can pull this off with out anyone else getting hurt…'

"Asuka… don't do this, its not worth it, trust me for once!"

"YES IT IS SHINJI!!! I can't take it any more! … … There's no point in living if you can't feel alive… that god forsaken angel… that angel brought back all the memories that I've tried for so long to bury… so long to forget… … My mother and that fucking doll she hung herself with… … the father that I had but never knew… wonder girl always stealing you away from me no matter how hard I tried…"

"Wait… what?..."

"Never mind… it doesn't matter anymore… no one loves me… no one did… and with my luck no one ever will… … …" she raised the pistol up to her head again…

"I did… AND I STILL DO!!!"

Asuka's eyes flew open, Shinji had lunged at her, grabbing the pistol and pulling it away from her head… … just as she squeezed the trigger… … the flash… and the bang… and then… … the silence… …

A/N ok, ok, don't start crying just yet, the fan FICA's83" value"ficus, fig's, Fiji's, focus, fog's, fucks, fug's, figs, fir's, Bic's, Fin's, Mic's, Ric's, Vic's, fib's, fices, fin's, fit's, pic's, tic's, FAQ's, fag's, foci's, Fox's, fox's, Dick's, Fitch's, Foch's, Fuji's, dick's, five's, fix, focus's, FICA, fogy's, fork's, Fri's, C's, F's, Felic's, fogs, fiche's, fichu's, Fair's, Fax's, Fisk's, fact's, fink's, fixes, flicks, foe's, fur's, Fiat's, Fido's, Fifi's, Fina's, Finn's, Fuchs, Mick's, Nick's, Nico's, Rica's, Rick's, Rico's, Vick's, dicks, face's, fakir's, fiat's, fiches, fichus, fief's, fife's, file's, fine's, fire's, fish's, fives, hick's, mica's, nick's, pica's, rick's, tick's, wick's, Fe's, Ki's, fa's, fies, firs, fixer, forks, Ac's, Fm's, Fr's, Sc's, Tc's, fibs, fins, fits" / not over... And I promise that Asuka wont get killed, or even shot for that matter. ok, well, reviews are appreciated, unless you're just fuming at me... so please don't fume at me... I'm gonna run now because Asuka's pissed off at me that the fic isn't all about her, so, gotta run, till the next chapter: "His Promise..." till then, Keep on Keepin on!!! ... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! (Takes off like a rocket, Asuka following close behind swinging a butcher knife)