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All my life I've put on a smile for everyone, even thought most of the time I didn't want to. It's not like I have a bad life or anything, my life isn't really too bad at all except a few things. I have a secret I can't tell anyone, even if I did tell someone they wouldn't believe me. Who would believe my family are all vampires, my lover is a werewolf, and that I'm a half-vampire?
Even if someone would believe me, I have no one to tell. I live with my family in Alaska, I hate the cold but I manage to put up with it for my family's sake. They sparkle if they're in the sun, so if it's sunny here no one will really see them since we live far away from any towns here. That's just another of the differences between me and my family, the sun doesn't make me look any different.
My parents, Bella and Edward, home school me at my house I look about 18 now and I'm not going to ever look any older. Despite my apperances I'm only actually 6 years old, but my mind is more like an adult's already.
Even though I hate where I live, and I'm not allowed to go to school, I like to be around my family so much, and Jacob. Jacob always visits me every week, even though he comes so often I still wish I could see him more, he stil lives in Forks. Forks is where my parents met eachother.
So you're probably wondering why I put on a fake smile for people? My family cares about me, a lot. They care so much that all of them are way too protective, Jacob, Bella, Edward, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, Jasper, Carlisle, Esmee, all of them.
I'm grateful they care about me so much, but I want to have my own experiences. I want to travel the world, meet people from different places. I want to experience life how other people live it, I want to make mistakes and learn from them.
Do you think they'd allow me to travel the world? No of course not, at least not on my own, and I doubt it will be the same as I imagine it if someone comes along.
Honestly I love everyone dearly, but this is something I really want to do. It started out as just a silly little thought. Then it turned into much more, now it's almost all I can think about. I haven't told anyone, it's something I want to keep to myself.
However I know I need to do this, I'm going to follow my dream, somehow, someway, I'm not going to give up. I'm trying not to be selfish but I've gave up a lot to be with my family and this seems like a small price in return. There's only so much overprotection i can take, after all I'm still half-human.
If I could just travel the world on my own for a little while, I'd take whatever punishment was waiting me when I came back. Also, maybe I'd be able to accept my differences from the rest of my family easier.
I can't help but to feel left out a lot, Jacob has his pack, everyone in it is a werewolf. In my family everyone is a vampire. Then there's me. A half-vampire. The odd one out, even my power to have others read or see my thoughts is unsual compared to my parents which is the opposite. My mom can keep others out of her mind, except for me, and my dad can read minds.
Yet again it seems like I turn out to be the freak. Someday this all bothers me more other than other days. I try to ignore it but sometimes its hard to ignore.
Maybe if I could see the world with my own eyes, I'd have the courage to tell the other how I feel. Maybe I'd stop smiling my fake smile, and have a real smile instead.
Okay this is pretty short but I just want to see what people think! Please, please, please review! :) This chapter mainly only focused on Renesmee's feelings. I'm working on another story at the same time so I'll update every once in a while.