Notes:
1) To all of you who do not speak French, maintenant means now.
2) Also, this fanfiction, what I consider to be a drabble, is assuming that once Kurogane finally returns to his world for a second time, he stays, and looking back from the present time, Fai remembers deciding to leave and not intrude.
3) I do not support yaoi in any way, form, or fashion. That being said, I will also say here and now that the statement only explains my opinion in what I write. No, I do not limit what I read to only "straight" material, nor do I expect my reader to refrain from yaoi opinions/comments from my writing.
4) Enjoy!
Maintenant
~Zary~
I smiled once upon a time in a word full of meadows full of flowers, and a sun that never fades—only at night.
I smiled that day once upon a time because I cared. If I died, how would I have felt that warm protective stance you always wore around me? I wouldn't. And I cared.
I smiled once upon a time, and you broke my heart, the smile not returned. Because you so hated a showing of false emotion—oh you hated it so—and if you couldn't smile back there was no same emotion underneath that eternal scowl.
I smiled twice, once upon a time. But that was fake, and that was wrong. I love you, she would sometimes say, and you were happy. We were only friends. You said that you would stay with her, leaving me alone. I wonder—why alone am I, after all this time? Pretended I did not care.
I smiled thrice, once upon a time. It was real because I felt the tears stream down my face. I left, you stayed, and I could never stay. I could only linger as some phantom from the past, a scar marking the flawless entity that was you. She loved you more than I. I could not stay. I smiled, nonetheless.
I smiled a fourth for that once-upon-a-time, as a drop of water touches the ground. A faraway memory, a dream. The one I cannot reach, nor wish to reach. I'd hate to see your face because I'd smile once again.
And once upon a time, I missed you.
And once upon a time, I cried.