Prologue- The Ultimate Decision
" I've given up on you." he said voice also soft. " The fades. Mines has"
I looked at the man I loved more than anything with unbelievable calmness. On the inside my body was shutting down, my world coming to an end. Did he just say that he didn't love me? Not just that but our love would shrivel up and fade away into nothing?
Tears that seem to have been in my eyes for days waiting to come out finally gushed down my cheeks. Something flashed across Dimitri's face but was gone before I had a chance to figure out what it was. The cold, hard, expressionless mask appeared over his face which only seemed to make me angry. If he didn't care about me fine. I didn't care about him anymore either.
Everybody wants to joke around about how Rose Hathaway was selfish and immature and only though about herself. That was the biggest load of bullshit I have ever heard. I was always putting someone before myself an now I'm sick of it. Dimitri wanted to sit there forget everything that we once had then fine. I'm tired of trying to make him love me. And I'm so sick and tired of loving him. All it did was hurt me in the end. Even when he wasn't strigoi he would always push me away. But no more. I'm done.
" I hate you" I whispered. " I wish you had let me fall fall that day on the bridge."
Shock flashed across his face, which was replaced by hurt and self hatred. Why the hell was he hurt? He brought this all on himself.
" I'll give you your wish Dimitri. I'll leave you alone. I'm so done with you and your cold, unfeeling heart."
He looked away from me and into the crowd of people surrounding us. Oblivious to the conversations around them. When he looked back at me I had composed myself once again. The tears were gone and my on cold expressionless mask was on my face. No longer would I cry over him. No longer would I sit around and think of ways to get him to see that he loved me.
" Goodbye Guardian Belikov." I said " I hope you injoy life free of all your regrets of our relationship, if we even had one in the first place."
He looked ready to say something. But before he could I left he, staring after my retreating figure.
So what do you guys think so far? Good or Bad? Chapter 1 will be up tomorrow I promise. Reviews are greatly appreciated since this is my first fanfiction.