Chapter 1: Reveal

With each breathe she took, Regina's nose twitched by the salty sea air. She remembered that smell, almost as it was just yesterday she had left this land. It wasn't a normal smell of the ocean, it had a spice to it; where it burned and didn't feel right. Neverland was not a place that left you wanting more of it; it was a place you never wanted to return too. She wrapped her arms across her chest as tight as she could to keep warm. Not able to sleep because so much was running through her mind. Is Henry alright? Should I even trust these people? Will my past come back to get me? It was something she didn't want to think about but couldn't help it. Especially a secret she had buried long ago.

"Enjoying the view, my dear?" Hook smiled as he approached her gently. It snapped Regina out of her thoughts and she just smiled back.

"As much as I know this place isn't paradise — Its hard to not take in its beauty" Regina answered.

"Looks can be deceiving, can't they?" Hook sighed, crossing his arms and leaning by the edge of the ship.

"You have no idea" Regina sighed. Hook sensed her answer was more than it seemed but wasn't sure if he should press the matter. 'Maybe she is just worried about her son?' he thought. The Evil Queen was still human after all and her son was out missing in a horrible place. It would be normal for her to act a bit strange. Hook kept quiet and looked back out into the sea. The quietness was making Regina uneasy and felt the urge to just be alone.

"I think I'm gonna try and get some sleep" Regina said before walking towards the stairs.

"Regina, Wait" Hook said to stop Regina in her tracks. She looked at him and waited to see what he wanted. "Just know, your secret is safe" He slightly smiled.

"You mean ours?" Regina smiled back at him. "Good night Hook" as she shook her head and walked down stairs. Hook's smile grew bigger as memories began to flood his mind. Good memories and bad ones as well.

Regina's dark brown eyes adjusted to the pitch black that surrounded her. She still couldn't sleep and started to feel sick to her stomach. 'Why do I feel guilty now?' she thought. It had been years and even though it crossed her mind before, it never felt so heavy as it did now. She didn't know if she should tell Hook the truth, or just pretend it never happened. Though losing her son is what made this secret so heavy to bare. 'Am I being punished?' she thought to herself again. She shook her head hard to try and get the thought out of her head, but knew she was really in trouble when a single tear fell down her face. Whether this was going to be the biggest mistake of her life, she had to tell him and she had to tell him now. She darted up from her cot and headed across the room to a side door that lead to his bed chamber. Even though their were ladies on board, the chamber was only reserved for the Captain and whoever he had invited in. She knocked gently before entering. She could see Hook turn over and slowly awake. He rubbed his eyes to adjust to the little bit of moon light that was in the room.

"Regina?" he asked confused. "What the hell, it's late"

"Ya well, this couldn't wait" She replied. "We need to talk"

"Now?" Hook asked frustrated.

"Yes, Now" she replied with frustration as well.

"Alright" Hook throws his arms up and turns on an oil lamp. "What is the meaning of this?"

Regina creep close to his bed and sat at the very end of it. Hook wasn't sure what she was doing or what it implied, but his heart grew to beat a tad faster as she approached. They may have had their differences but Hook always thought of Regina as such a beautiful creature.

"I know we have a past we don't like to discuss much about. Especially on how it ended between us" Regina began to explain… Hook just nodded. "But there is more to our story that — um — you don't know about" Regina took in a deep breathe.

"O…k" Hook said slowly and with confusion."What are you implying?"

"That night we had that big fight and I returned home. Well… I didn't return alone" Regina cryptically said.

Hook just raised his famous brow, not fully understanding what she meant. Regina than realized this was going to be much tougher than she thought. Either she just told him flat out what she did or just end the conversation right there. She decided quickly to no longer hold that burden.

"Hook — I was pregnant when I left Neverland" she blurted out. "And I thought you should know"

Hook couldn't believe what he just heard. He didn't know if to get angry at her, to scream out loud or to just kiss her. Feelings between them never left even though it was very complicated. "You had a kid? — my kid?" He stuttered.

"Yes. A girl" she sighed, feeling the guilt rush over her again. The Evil Queen feeling guilty was hard to do, but no one should ever not know their children.

"Why — uh — Why didn't you tell me — about her?" Hook asked calmly, even though inside he felt sick to his stomach.

"I didn't think I was ever going to see you again. You were here and I went back home. It's not like coming to Neverland is an easy task." She stopped for a moment to catch up with her thoughts. "When I saw you in Belle's room — I was surprised you made it back but I couldn't tell you. Not than"

"Why? Because you needed me to be a pawn in killing your mother?" Hook said angrily. Finally. He than removed the sheets from his body and darted out of bed; he began to pace the room. His good hand just ran through his hair as if he was trying to think about what to say or do.

"Hook — you need to understand…" Regina began to speak before Hook interrupted her.

"Understand? Really dear? You are telling me to understand when you kept my child away from me all these years?!" He raised his tone. Regina shot up from the bed and hushed him.

"Would you keep your voice down. I get your angry and you have every right but I kind of don't want the tweedle dees and dumb asses waking up in the next room and hearing our private conversation" Regina explained in a whisper.

"Oh well sorry my dear Queen. I shall be very respectful for your privacy as you don't give shit about mine" Hook then walked towards her, putting his face only mere inches away from hers and looking straight into her eyes. "You have no right to ask me anything. Especially after what you've done"

He than moved back and walked passed her. Regina sighed and closed her eyes for a moment, not knowing what to say at that point. Hook hated the silence and needed to break it.

"Where is she?" Hooked asked simply. Regina turned around with glassy eyes. Hook saw the pain her eyes and knew it couldn't have been a good answer.

"I don't know" Regina replied.

"What do you mean you don't know?!" Hook raised his tone again. Regina almost shushed him again but realized the second time may not go well.

"I gave her away" Regina said simple and to the point. Hook just started to laugh. He couldn't believe just how ridiculous everything sounded. His anger began to make him turn mad. He walked passed her again and just began to slice his hook into the wall. Punch after punch, stab after stab; he hit it harder and faster each time. He let out his anger and frustration of not understanding. Sadly, this was the straw that broke the camels back as Emma walked through the door quickly, wondering what the commotion was all about.

"What the hell is going on here?!" She asked.

"Ah, Miss Swan. Please, ask our dear Queen on what is going on here. I'm sure she would love to tell you this fine tale" Hook said sarcastically before he pulled his hook out of the wall and walked up on deck. Regina sighed and looked down before looking at Emma.

"Are you gonna tell me what just happened?"

"No — because its none of your business" Regina replied.

"Well whether it's my business or not, I suggest you fix or deal with whatever you two are doing, and do it now" Emma said with sheer power. Regina chuckled at a bit at Emma's attempt to intimidate her.

"And if I don't?" Regina asked.

"Hell might need to be paid if you don't Regina. If this little spat turns into something that could hurt Henry or even slow us down in finding him, than you do not want to mess with me. We are suppose to be working together to find our son and we don't need this right now" Emma explained. Regina's smug smile disappeared quickly as Emma discussed Henry. 'She's right' She thought; this secret she carried not only was hurting Hook but it could hurt Henry. She needed Hook to understand on just why things happened the way they did.

"Ok — I'll take care of it" Regina said.

"Good. Than I shall go back in my room and try and sleep. Don't mess it up" Emma warned. She turned her back to see three bodies standing in the door way listening in. "Parties over. Back to bed everyone" Emma shewed David, Mary Margarete and Gold back in the room before shutting the door. Regina took in a deep breathe before walking up on deck.

She saw Hook leaning over the bough and staring blankly out to sea. She needed to find the right words to say to have him listen before he doesn't not want to anymore. She walked closer and just blurted it out.

"I couldn't be a mother to our daughter" Regina said, causing Hook to turn and look at her. "I didn't know how to be one since I really didn't have a good role model. It wouldn't have been fair to her"

"and yet you go and find a kid to raise?" Hook rudely asked about her relationship with Henry.

"I was older and circumstances changed. But as you can see I wasn't the best mother to him either — I tried but I still failed" Regina looked down. Hook swallowed hard feeling some sympathy towards her. In just those five minutes he had alone, it was enough time for him to calm down and really listen to her. Not that he thought what she did was right, but knowing maybe she just didn't have a choice.

"You didn't fail Regina" he rubbed his good hand across his forehead. "It just proves how good of a mother you are or you wouldn't be here back in Neverland" Hook commented. Regina was shocked by his kind words and didn't know what to say.

"Thank you — I think"

"Don't except that as forgiveness. What you did was reprehensible. I get it that you didn't think you had much choice but — you should have at least told me instead of waiting until now" Hook explained how he felt.

"I'm sorry Hook. I really am"

Hook didn't want an apology. He didn't even want an explanation; at this point all that mattered was wondering where his own child in this world might be.

"Do you know where she is? How old is she? her name?"

"No. She would be around 6 years old but — with the curse, I don't know if she landed in Storybrooke or was stuck in the Enchanted Forest. I didn't get the chance to name her nor do I know what she was given" Regina explained.

"How long did you have her before you decided to give her away?" Hook's tone was dark but to be expected.

"I held her for about 5 minutes just after she was born. Than they took her. I haven't seen her since" Regina's voice cracked a bit thinking about that moment. "It wasn't easy Hook — but I knew, she would stand a much better outcome in life if she wasn't stuck with me" Regina than began to cry by the end of her sentence.

Hook didn't see the Evil Queen anymore, he saw a broken woman that didn't think she had any other choice in doing right for her child. He walked to her and quickly just wrapped his arms around her. The moment of the embrace was shocking to Regina but was something she needed. She held this secret with her for so many years and now the child she did get to raise was missing; It was too much to bare.

Regina began to cry harder as Hook just held her close. The pain of losing children is something that no one should feel. Hook let go of Regina and placed his good hand on her cheek and his hooked hand closer to her ear, barely touching her. Regina slowly began to calm down. Just than, before she even realized what was happening, he kissed her. First gentle and slow, Lips barely touching; Then it became more fierce. She wrapped her arms around his neck as he pulled her closer to him by wrapping his hooked arm around her waist. They hadn't felt that kind of passion since the last time they were in Neverland together. Where their secrets and pain were created. As Hook released Regina from their passionate moment, he looked deep into her eyes.

"We are going to find your son. And then we are going to find our daughter" Hook said with reassurance. Regina just nodded as a tear fell down her cheek. They began to kiss again, walking towards his bed chambers and shutting the door behind them.

So here is a story i have written. Just a few chaps in but let me know what you think...