What Hurts the Most
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me.
It's been three years since she fell into the digital void. I knew I could have prevented it. Odd and Jeremy say it wasn't my fault. Aelita knows it wasn't anyone's fault. I don't believe them. Not now, not ever. The whole gang, Jeremy, Aelita, Odd, Yumi, and I lived in one large house that we all contributed to pay for.
I can take a few tears now and then
And just let them out.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me.
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm okay but that's not what gets me.
I can't show the others how I feel. They're like family to me, but I hide things from everyone, especially myself.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away.
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do.
How was I supposed to tell her how I feel?
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it.
It's hard to force that smile when I see out old friends and I'm alone.
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret, but I know
If I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.
It's hard you know, seeing Jeremy and Aelita walking hand in hand, and Odd with Sam. I never got the chance to tell her how I feel. It's her birthday today. I promised myself I would tell her how I feel three years ago on this day. So I could make her birthday special. I can't use the return to the past, it won't bring her back, I know it. We shut down Lyoko last week, three years after Yumi fell. The materialization code didn't work this time. X.A.N.A must have changed it. I still remember, Yumi pushed the mega tank off in the forest sector, before the laser could hit me. X.A.N.A. took away the devirutalization, and Yumi chose my life over her's. She fell into the void right after the mega tank.
What hurts the most
Was being so close.
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away.
And never knowing
What could've been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.
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