Okay so new story. First FF. I'm not sure if this is any good… oh geesh! Haha.

Disclaimer: clearly I don't own anything twilight… I just don't *tear*

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Preface:

BPOV

Do you ever get the feeling that you're being watched? That peculiar feeling that someone is following your every move. But you don't want to look because you're afraid of an awkward stare down.

Well I'm pretty sure that's how he feels. And when I say he I mean Edward Cullen, the boy I've been crushing on for about four years now. I'll find my eyes drifting in his direction unconsciously when he enters the room. I'll watch him gracefully leave a room. Hell, in the few classes we have together, I'll watch him just writing notes or sharpening his pencil! I'm just drawn to him.

I need professional help. I mean my obsession can't be normal. Actually I take that back its no longer an obsession. It feels more like a routine or lifestyle. I mean after four years of this its natural.

Poor guy. Edward probably doesn't even know I exist let alone know that I'm practically in love with him. But this year is the year. I swear!

I'm finally going to do something about my fascination/ crush on Edward Cullen. I WILL go on a date with him by the end of the year. By the end of the year, that leaves me three months……