WARNING: Mushy mush ahead, and maybe with a little waffy-ness on top.
Author's Notes: This fiction is a songfic based on the lyrics of "I'll Be" by: Edwin Mccain and this fiction is entirely Mae-chan's fault~! *points a finger on her accusingly* You are the reason I got messed up and did this ultra mushy thing~!.
I'LL BE (Syaoran's POV)
[ Syaoran's Point of View ]
I still remember the feeling when you told me that you cared for me. That I'm your number one person. and, that you love me. That even though you thought the card of void erased all my memories, you still *wanted* to be mine. and me to be yours.
Aww... hell, since when did i start to think like this?.
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
When? I ask myself. Since the day I realized all my tumbled and tangled feelings for Yukito was all a thick fat lie just to cover the budding love I kept from myself. Everyday, when we go to school and eat lunch together, it tears me apart to know how impossible it is for you to return my feelings. Although, I've tried, knowing what would be the consequences. I finally gathered and summoned all the gods there is to help me confess this biggest confession in my life.
The memory of me and you looking deeply and solefully into each others eyes, looking unknowingly of the chemistry that was obviously sparking between us.. it was all still carved in the deepest portion of my mind... I still remember your face gazing up to mine, the soft light above softening the contours of your face making you look like a surreal angel. No. not a surreal, but a real earth angel. And then there was your eyes. Your eyes were my favorite part of your angelic face. I love the way and the shade of your green eyes blend with the sunlight, making them spark and look like the most precious jewel of all.
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I had to admit, I was a big fool in front of my ancestors, when I came back to Hongkong. But that didn't matter, all of it didn't matter, as long as I had the chance to be with you again. and then all of a sudden that silent wish i fervently prayed for weeks, came true. A chance to visit you in Japan! although, it was hard to get permission, Meiling, my *former* fiancee helped me to ask permission from the elders of our clan, telling them that she would be the one liable for me. I never even known that the chance to go again at Japan was one of her schemes for me and Sakura to get together. I never knew she could be so... unselfish. Knowing Meiling, my own cousin, she always gets what she wanted and cries when it was not given to her. She was always being 'favored' but now, look at me. I actually *owe* her. And I'll make sure I'll pay her no matter what price it is. As long as I get to see Sakura again. and again. and then again.
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
I hate it when I see you cry, but then, I'm always the one you're running to, when you're crying, but I'm glad that I'm the one whom you could turn to. But I hate, I *really* hate it, when I'm the one who causes you all this, I still remember the first ever real tears you shed for me, that was when.. the void was supposed to erase my memories, my mind, and my love for my friends... and most especially you. But I knew then, that deep inside me, I'm sure, I'll never be able to forget you, and even if I would or did. I'm 100% sure, i'll fall in love with you again. I know I'm not *that* verbal on my feelings, but it's the way I am, but i guess.... i don't know.
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
Now, as I'm closing in on our tight space, remember that we're only separated by sea and ocean, but our hearts will forever be tied, drawn by a single string and woven by the most skillful hands, if only I could fly my way from Hongkong to Japan, I can't wait to get away from here together with the other unspeculating passengers on this tight and enclosed space we all know as the *airplane*, aww, man, could this thing run any faster?...
I see the clouds pass by, or rather, as we pass them by. I wish I could get there as soon as I could hold my heart to stay still and stop this new hammering that it has adopted.
I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said
At last, I'm here, back where I truly belong... i now sense that pink little cute aura of yours, a gentle aura that seems to surround me like the strongest perfume, that dulls my senses. I know you're near, and i know you know I am too. I wouldn't turn back now, even if it kills me, I have come this far and i won't ever turn back. I'm trained not to back out.
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
Now, I see you, you're the same as ever, the same little graceful girl I had the lucky chance to get acquainted with. I just wish I could get this awful nagging feelings out of my heart, my mind and mostly, my mouth, to let you know how true it is.
aw... man, this is sooo... corny, but I guess this is what they call 'love'.
[ to be continued ]
The three parts of this mini-POV series.
I'll be - Syaoran's POV (finished)
I'll be - Sakura's POV (ongoing)
I'll be - The real song fanfic and not a POV-type (still thinking about it)
Author's notes:
I know, It's a bit corny, oh no, as a matter of fact it's not a bit corny, but awfully corny, and terribly OOC. But i can't help it. Gomen. So just give me some decent comments.. pretty please? it hurts when you give none.