Disclaimer: I own neither Kingdom Hearts I, Kingdom Hearts IIi Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories, nor any of the Final Fantasy series
Sora wants to save the world. Sora would play with images of him standing up for people who wouldn't do it for themselves. He would entertain the thought of millions looking up to him and wishing to be like him. If only he was stronger, more important, anything that would help him. He didn't have money to launch projects nor did he have influence on anyone. He wanted to go to Africa and give vaccinations for malaria. He wanted to free the Tibetans from Chinas tyranny. He wanted to go…
Riku wanted to go too. Just fly away from home. His home wasn't abusive but suffocating. At night Riku would just focus on breathing before anything else. He'd just take three perfect long breaths; he'd survived another day without a breakdown. He hadn't let the pressure get to him. The pressure to get an A, the pressure to not, the pressure not to disappoint. The pressure on his chest to be perfect was so great sometimes that he'd have to take gasping breathes in bed like he was drowning. He couldn't disappoint any of them…
Kairi was happy pretending. She was good at lying to herself and anyone else. If she told the truth then she would tell you that yes, she was the perfect liar. She lies to herself to get through the seconds; minutes; hours; nights (oh especially nights); days; weeks; months; years; life. She lies about her friends- yeah they're perfect and we tell each other everything- she lies about school- no mom I'm doing fine in gym- and most of all about church- ha, ha yeah mom I got ta' go to CCD. Sometimes though when she told the truth to herself…
Axel likes to believe he is a sketchy guy. He likes to know that he's the reason why mothers cross to the other side of the street. He loves when the kids at school part the hallway cause no one wants to be near him. He craves the disdain on the teachers face when he walks in twenty minutes late. Axel though knows if put in that certain situation…
Roxas knows that he's the unimportant one. The expendable one. Ollette was the one who held the group together. Pence talked sense and rationalized when they were about to do something or illegal (or match-make in Ollette's case.) Hayner was the brawn of the whole operation. Roxas wanted to be important but he knows his friends could go on and his family was ready for him to be onto college. He thinks he doesn't mind. That this is endurance for the real world. But sometime endurance has to run out…
Demyx is clueless. He doesn't think much about anything than music and swimming and maybe this is why he is so happy. He doesn't see anyone more than platonically and doesn't know any of the games that you play when the sun goes down. He prefers to believe that his parents were wrestling and that drugs don't exist except for prescriptions. Sometimes though he overhears…
Zexion is quiet. He likes thinking that he can observe habits of people better from a distance. He believes that if he unbiased by not knowing people his information is more accurate. He feels superior to them. He finds them stupid and slow. Not worthy of his presence. Sometimes though he wonders if he is just as ignorant as the people he watches…
Cloud is quiet too. Friends and family surround him but he feels separate from him like if he spoke his thoughts they wouldn't understand. He knows they wouldn't understand. At night he wonders who would…
Leon is content. Leon is quiet, but he likes it that way. He liked it that way. Now he feels like he needs something more. He feels half awake, half alive, and one day bleeds into the next. He feels like he needs something more…
They all do.