Today is the day I get to breathe again. I can finally let go of the burden that has bled my heart dry. I know longer have to look Mandy in the eye and tell her Mom's not coming home.

Mandy. The thought of her makes me want to hurl. I've lied and cheated my way through life to make her some what comfortable. People have beat me, cursed me, and taken every shred of my humanity, but that's better then them doing it to my Mandy.

My sweet, sweet Mandy, tonight I do to you what our mother did so long ago. I'm leaving you. You're big now. You don't need me. Mandy I tried my damnedest, but it never worked out. It all had to burn and burn it did. I'm sorry for leaving you with nothing but my ashes.

If only I had said what you had needed then. I quickly unlatched the lock and threw open the door, letting the cruelty of the world in and Mandy's innocence out.

Putting all thoughts aside I scanned the area and then bolted for the trees, making sure to toss a treat at the neighbor's dog. And I ran, ran all my troubles away like the coward I was meant to be. Now it's just me against the world.

A scared, beaten, and abused boy whose daddy never loved him enough. It's just scared little Cas, lost in his maze of a mind, looking for a hand to hold.

"Did you hear me boy?" The man slurred.

"I'm leaving you drunk and there is not a thing you can do about it." My words were dripping with white-hot rage as I stood there seething "So do the world a favor and go to hell."

With a slam of a door to signify the end of our fight, I trotted towards the car and revved up the engine. It's funny how all things start with doors. Each person is their own little door, protecting mysteries from prying eyes.

Once you meet them they open their doors just enough for a quick peek, then it's closed again. Sooner or later when you've been allowed inside you can see all their secrets bundled up with care. You shift around the forgotten memories each one darker than the last.

You've come to the end what their doors hold and all that's left untouched is the door at the end. You have been given to choices, stay or go. I choose neither. I choose to destroy. I choose to break their memories and to hide their sins to spare the next person who passes through.

I take the loneliness and pain all for myself. I take the sins and run. They're mine now. I want the burden, I want something to fix. I have something to control. And that's my life. I, Sam Winchester, will no longer take your shit. So think about that long and hard. Lock your doors and don't come out.

The reality of what I had done hit me at full force when I got off the bus later that night. I stumbled through the streets like a drunk until I found an empty park, and then proceeded to throw up the contents of my stomach. Shaking I brought a hand up to wipe the sweat off of my clammy forehead.

"Hey, you alright kid?" startled I spun around to face a young man around my age looking at me with concern. I just stared at the stranger warily until he spoke up again.

"Did ya hear me? You okay?"

I stumbled around for the right words that felt heavy and awkward on my tounge. "W-what do you want from me?" The stranger looked at me seeming slightly offended but then quickly brushing it off as if he didn't care.

"Woah, calm done. Just asking."

Still trying to understand the man's kindness towards me I hurriedly said "Sorry I'm just a bit shocked is all. I didn't mean any offense." I suddenly found a crack in the ground very interesting as I tried to hide the blush creeping up my cheeks.

"It's alright. I understand I spooked you." He said giving me an encouraging smile "Well my name's Dean by the way. And have you seen my brother anywhere by chance?" Dean never was one to beat around the bush.

I woke up to the sound of Carl rummaging around in the kitchen at the ungodly hour of 5:30. Probably looking for the vodka. Good thing I hid it.

That man could get drunk just by staring at a bottle of rum, so for Sammy's sake I hid it. Uhhh! Does that man ever stop drinking? Stupid question. I've lived with him for so long now to know he doesn't have a limit. Then I heard it. The loud thump of Carl's boots clambering their way up the stairs.

Shit.

I leaped out of my bed and made a run to the door trying to undo the latch. All I could think of was keeping Sam out of harms way. We kept the locks on our doors to keep Carl out. Or in.

But I saw how tired Sam was, he didn't lock his door. Finally after fumbling with the latch for what seemed like ages, though was probably only a few seconds, the door flew open and I sprinted past Carl to the safety of Sam's room.

But Sam, he wasn't there.

I threw myself forward into his room searching frantically every inch of it. I turned to his closet, the last place I hadn't looked. Practically tearing the doors off their hinges I rushed inside his rather large closet. Sammy's duffel bag was missing along with the majority of his belongings.

We didn't keep our valuables out in the open in fear of Carl taking them for his amusement.

I learned that the hard way.

"Uncle Carl?" a shy young Dean Winchester asked "Don't call me that!" he growled. Dean's eyes went wide and he nodded furiously. Not another word was said on Dean's part for fear of being rejected, so the pair stood in silence.

Carl was zoning in and out of consciousness barely registering the slight tug on his pant leg. "What?" he bellowed. "I-I was wondering if you had seen my dinosaur? Ya know, the stuffed one?" Dean inquired.

"Oh that stupid thing? I burned it along with everything that was in MY den!" Carl barked out and then smiled crookedly at his nephew who was on the verge of tears. "Don't give me that! It's your own damn fault for not picking it up!"

Dean didn't sleep a wink that night. He thought about his dinosaur. Dean didn't care about the stupid lizard he wanted what was on it. That night as he listened to Carl's drunken ramblings he knew that one day he was going to kill that man.

That's it he's finally gone of the deep end and has committed murder. He's taken Sam's life and now I'm gonna take his.

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