The Aftermath
I still remember the fear in the pit of my stomach when I realized that I had missed my last two periods. I justified it away as the stress of Arizona dumping me and work but deep down I knew what was up. Still actually seeing the positive sign on stick sent my mind reeling. I tried to count back exactly how far along I could be. But the truth of the matter was that I just didn't know. Mark and I had been, well for lack of better words, losing ourselves in each other for at least 7 weeks. It could have been happened during any time. We were careful mostly, but there were a few times that it was just straight sex. I should know better as a doctor, but what most people don't know about Marc is that he has a bit over OCD when it comes to sex without protection. He told me it took him months to sleep with Lexie without a condom. Part of it was that he never wanted to get another woman pregnant again and have her choose not to have the baby. That whole thing with Addison really did a number on him. Plus with all the women he beds he didn't want to end his so called brilliant career by dying of AIDs.
According to Marc and I have to believe him because I have not gotten anything from him but this baby, I was the only woman he trusted to have sex without protection. OF course thinking back on it now, I can't believe I didn't think to at least use birth control. I just didn't ever need it before. I shake my head of the stray thought. Lexie Grey was going to be livid when she found out. It wouldn't matter that we hadn't been having sex for weeks. Or that a few weeks ago I couldn't do it any longer because I knew he loved Lexie and I Arizona. The sex was off the hook but it still didn't make other parts of our lives better. Everything seems to happen so fast. Arizona came back begging for me to give her another chance. I was so angry but more angry because I knew that saying the words would rock her world. True she had done it to me but I knew how she felt about Mark and hearing that I was having his child would devastate her.
I had to tell Mark who was over the moon until he realized he would have to tell Lexie. This baby was changing so many things and but deep down I couldn't' be angry. I already loved her or him. I just hoped that everyone else would. Arizona decided to stay when I asked which surprised the hell out of me but Lexie left Mark. I felt so bad that he had to give up his love for our baby. Arizona says this is our baby but sometimes I get the feeling like she really means it as if Marc were some willing sperm donor to make our dream come true. I feel the storm coming and I'm scared. Arizona practically forced me to move back in with her even though I wanted to, it all felt so damn fast. Like living in a glass house with a kid holding a pea shooter just on the outside. I keep wondering when it all falls down.
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