Hi Everyone!

This is inspired by a song called "What Hurts the Most" idk artist sorry

Disclaimer: It totally is mine XD *hears sirens* ekkkkkk I'm joking JOKING aughhhh

Ok enough of that here's the story! I hope you enjoy! Ignore any mistakes i'm writing this at midnight give me a break here! (jk u want tell me any mistakes and i'll fix them) Reviews or critiques are much appreciated 3

two years

He has been waiting for two years. Huh it's already been two years since then hasn't it... time sure goes fast.

Kudo Shinichi sat in the shadows leaning on to the trunk of a big oak tree while watching kids play in the park. He smiled softly as he thought back to a conversation years ago.

"ne ne tantei-kunnnnnnnn"

"what KID I'm trying to read" Conan growled at the annoying thief.

"you do know you're in a park right like on the swings and all."

"yes KID I know"

"then why aren't you playing that's what people do normally at a park"

"I wanted to read but Ran told me I had to go outside so here I am"

*Poof*

"KAITO gimme my book back!"

"NO! not until you play. I'm boreddddddddd."

Shinichi chuckled to himself thinking about the white clad thief that revealed his identity to his rival because he wanted an opportunity to hang out and cheer up the detective when he was depressed about his "small problem."

When he got his body back and told Ran the truth she was furious with him and for good reason too but it pretty much ruined their chances of ever getting together as Ran refused to even talk to him and let him explain himself and his reasons.

Kaito cheered him up.

After he got his body back he thought Kaito would forget about him and go on with his life as Shinichi already swore not to tell anyone his identity but to his surprise Kaito stuck around and was always there for him even when it got a little annoying like when he hid Shinichi's books or case files declaring that he needed a break before whisking him off to some random location for a short vacation.

It wasn't long before Shinichi realized he loved the magician/prankster/thief all rolled up into one. Contrary to popular belief he wasn't that dense, thank you very much. Its just that even though he knew he loved Kaito but Kaito probably didn't feel the same so he kept it to himself thinking that it would be fine if their relationship continued like this.

With Shinichi's help and FBI connections Kaito found Pandora and Snake was arrested with those he worked for. The moonlight magician bowed off the stage to the disappointment of KID fans everywhere and the fury of Nakamori-keibu (and probably sadness as well though he would never admit it... the moping was really telling)

Shinichi grinned at the memory of Nakamori-keibu pouting like a sad child for weeks after KID's retirement until his daughter, Aoko marched into the station and threatened him to cheer up with a mop (Shinichi still isn't quite sure how that would make him cheer up but didn't want to point that out and earn some rage in the form of a mop chase).

Shinichi got up from his spot in the tree shade and started heading back home. He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't notice that it was already evening.

Three years. That's how long the friendship lasted: one being Conan and two being himself. Then that happened.

He still remembers the day he found out like it was yesterday but in fact it is exactly two years ago today.

"KAITO" yelled red-faced panting Shinichi as he runs into Kaito's room.

"Yo! Shin-chan what's up? Did you run all the way here?"

"I just talked with Aoko-san...Is it true...are you really leaving?"

Kaito shifted uncomfortably "yea... it's true." He looked down at his feet to avoid looking at Shinichi, "I'm leaving in a few hours. I couldn't to tell you goodbye so...yea" he finished lamely.

"Well will you at least tell me why? We are best friends right?" shinichi pleaded.

"Since I've destroyed Pandora and retired I figured that now's a good time to start my career and become a world famous magician like oyaji. I can't do that without traveling around the world ya know," Kaito chuckled softly in hopes that it will lighten the mood.

"oh..."

"I hope that you achieve your dreams then. You deserve it with all that crap you went through as KID with Snake and all. I'm so happy that you finally are going to do what you want. I'm sure you will be better than your dad. Good luck Kaito. I have to go to work so... goodbye."

Upon hearing the reason Kaito was leaving Shinichi shoved all his emotions down and hid it behind his well crafted poker face (he has an actress mother, spent two years pretending to be a kid , and was best friends with the Kaitou KID, he has a pretty darn good poker face) Shinichi knew that he shouldn't stop Kaito from leaving after all Kaito did deserve this and Shinichi didn't want to hold him back. So he hid his true feelings, pretended that the love of his life wasn't leaving, and made a pathetic excuse to leave. God what was wrong with him!

Kaito left.

Shinichi sighed as he reached the door to his house, he was being stupid. He could call Kaito or send a letter to the magician, who was pretty famous by now, but he just couldn't find the courage. Pathetic, I can face down murderers and evil organizations but I can't do this.

Shinichi grabbed a cup of coffee as he sat down on his bed and watched the sunset, the last rays of light disappearing to give way to the inky night sky and the shining stars. There was no moon tonight.

He knew that he should go to bed, he had to go to work tomorrow and he didn't want any of his coworkers to know that something was wrong and that something had been wrong for two years but he couldn't bring himself to sleep.

I don't mind pretending that everything is fine. I have been for two years.

What hurts the most...

was being so close and watching him walk away without knowing what he would've thought about how I feel.

Would he still go away, disgusted even? or would he smile and say that he loved me back?

I guess I'll never know what could've been.

If I could go back to that day I would say the words I left unspoken but that's just regret.

Well did you like? hate? wanna kill me cause of it (plz don't by the way I value my life)? Review plzzz thank you darlings XOXO

If this is too sad then i'll make another chapter where Kaito comes back :) just ask

Well I hope you have an amazing dayyyyyyyyy! See ya!