This is slightly dark, but it's the first of seven drabbles about the team.

Character: M'gann M'orzz/ Miss Martian

Pairing: Slight Supermartian

I do not own this.

"Superboy, hi!" M'gann calls as the teen walks into the room. He glances at her then makes his way to the couch, sitting down and turning on the TV. He is still as he watches the static flicker across the screen.

"Everyone's coming soon," she says, hand scrubbing at a plate. Her scrubs a little too hard, and her hand slips, splashing water up from the sink. Grimacing, she plucks the hand towel from beside her and wipes at her neck. "Are you excited?"

"For what?" Superboy asks, not turning around. "They come over every Friday."

"Well…yes," she murmurs slowly. "I just—we haven't seen them all week. Hopefully Wally and Artemis don't fight too much."

"Why? They don't fight with you," Superboy tells her, and she glances over at him, eyebrows furrowed. "I—I know. It's just…sometimes it can get annoying."

"But why?" Superboy prompts, turning slightly. "They aren't fighting you."

Instead of fighting, M'gann sighs, turning back to the sink. "I know."

i.

Back on Mars, there was a boy.

He was nice, and sweet, and she doesn't remember his name. She didn't really know him. He was older, but he was so nice to everyone—

But things change.

"Will you get a room?" Robin snaps, fingers moving swiftly over his keyboard. "Seriously not feeling the aster right now."

Artemis smacks him on the back of the head, and Wally's "Dude!" is loud enough to make M'gann wince. They need to be quiet or someone will hear them.

Kaldur seems to notice this, and goes to intervene with the three, while M'gann stays back with Superboy. "How's your arm?" She asks, remembering the way he'd cried out when the man had pulled it.

"S'fine," he replies gruffly, eyes looking everywhere but her. "Why?"

She doesn't know why. "I don't know, just wondering."

Superboy eyes her, brows pulling together.

"You wanna talk about getting a room," Artemis remarks, glaring at Robin. "Then look at Superidiot and Miss Subtle."

The blonde is unusually mean that night, and M'gann doesn't understand why. Superboy also doesn't speak to her for the rest of the night.

ii.

The boy was beautiful.

On the outside, yes, of course he was, but especially on the inside. M'gann would see glimpses of him a lot, when he helped with the children or elderly.

He never called her by her name though. And when he pushes her into her room, the night after her sister and him get engaged, she's happy that he doesn't say her name.

And in the morning, when her mother and father asked her how she slept, she had to keep the bile from rising.

Artemis doesn't show up for the next mission, and nobody knows where she is, though they don't tell the team this.

M'gann is pulled aside by Wally, his usual joyfulness gone. "You didn't read her mind or anything before she left last week, did you? Did she seem off? Rob thinks so too…"

Wally reminds her of the Martian boy. Before he—before he hurt her and when he's not flirting with her, or trying to make Artemis jealous. And Artemis—well M'gann hadn't read her mind, but the…the fear that stained the girls every move was enough to make her nod.

"Something…did seem off…"

iii.

The Martian boy goes off to fight the—the White Martian's, and M'gann's sister cries, because her fiancé might not come back.

M'gann cries too, but it's not because she misses him.

When Artemis comes back, she's scared and dirty and in Roy's arms.

He carries her through the tunnel and into the training room, walking past the teenagers and straight to Black Canary who takes one look at them and tells Roy to follow her. Artemis meets M'gann's eyes over Roy's shoulder, and M'gann can just make out the fear and anxiety in her eyes.

Nobody comments on her ripped civilian clothes.

iv.

When the Martian boy comes back, he is in pieces. Literally.

And M'gann finally learns what it's like to sleep easily.

Everyone is back to normal. Well, as normal as possible, and it's a Sunday night when M'gann comes to get a glass of water and sees Superboy. He's sitting on the couch, but the TV is off.

"Superboy?" She asks cautiously, moving towards him. He turns slightly, and she can just barely make out the tear tracks on his face. Before she can ask what's wrong, he's up in an instant, in her face and pressing her harshly against the counter.

"I'm never good enough," he tells her harshly, and she wants to tell him that he is. That he is absolutely and completely and totally worth it. But the words won't come out, and the empty liquor bottle is poised dangerously on the edge of the counter next to her.

"I'll never be enough, and I don't know how I can prove that I'm good. I've tried everything!" He's yelling now, and soon Red Tornado will be in there with them, pulling Superboy away from her.

He grits his teeth and leans forward so they're nose to nose. "I can't be what he wants me to be," he hisses, eyes flashing, and she's so scared because she's never seen him like this—

His mouth is close. God, it's so close to hers, and all she wants to do is lean forward (just a taste, only a taste-) but she doesn't because his hands dig angrily into her sides, and tears leave new paths down his cheeks, and he's sobbing into her shoulder then.

"I can't tell him," he hiccups against her. "He'll think it's weak and I can't be weak. I'm a weapon and weapons are not weak."

Hands shaking, M'gann raises them, rubbing smooth circles into Superboy's back. "Its okay—"

"No it's not!" He roars, anger filling him again, and he's back in her face. "It's not okay! I don't have anywhere to go I don't have anyone!"

Her heart stutters, and it's not one of those heart-stuttering happiness things, it's a heart-stuttering heart ache because Superboy has the whole team. He has her.

He moves away then, sitting back down on the couch. "Just leave me alone."

When she makes it to her room, the tears have already begun, and she buries the sobs into her pillow.

v.

("Just like that," he tells her. "Don't cry, they'll hear you." He tells her. "You don't want your sister to find us like this do you?")

No, she doesn't.

Artemis tells them what happened to her. About how the man—she still doesn't know who it was—how he raped her, and beat her, and and and—

M'gann leaves in the middle of Artemis' talk, ignoring the questions and looks.

Her sister never finds out.

She takes a shower, though she doesn't really need to, and scrubs her skin raw, watching as red marks take their place against her green skin.

She didn't feel this dirty before. Before when he—

So why does she now?

vi.

They talk about him always. About what a wonderful person he was. How caring and generous and loving he was.

She thinks of all the things that completely disregard that.

Her friends knock on her door, and since she doesn't open it, Artemis strolls in, boys on her heels. "What's wrong?"

M'gann hides under the covers, slows her breathing, and hopes that they think she's sleeping.

"She is probably not used to hearing about how…cruel humans can be," Kaldur supplies. She hears her friends sigh, and they leave the room.

M'gann knows all about cruelty.

vii.

"Did you love him?" her sister asks voice hoarse. "Did you?"

She thinks maybe she did, before. But she hates him now.

"Yes," she tells her sister, and the green-skinned Martian seethes with rage as she leaves M'gann's room, slamming her door shut.

Something inside M'gann wonders why nobody has noticed what he did to her. They are mind readers, after all.

"Hey," Robin smiles at her when she comes into the training room. She smiles at him, and everyone else, but doesn't offer an explanation as to why she left the previous night.

"Why're you in your stealth gear?" Wally asks, shoving chips into his mouth. "We haven't even been assigned a mission."

M'gann blushes, "I just—I wanted to be prepared."

viii.

When her uncle comes to visit, she's ready and planning on leaving.

He takes her with him.

They verse someone who can make your worst nightmare come to life.

Needless to say, her friends have found out.

ix.

Her sister hugs her when she leaves.

I get it sister, she tells her. I know what he did to you.

She has to go through a long conversation with her uncle.

He tells her it wasn't her fault. He says she didn't do anything wrong. He says she should have told him sooner.

J'onn tells her to go to sleep. She leaves the room, ignoring everyone.

It's around two in the morning, and she hasn't slept at all, so when her door opens, and her friends pile into her room, all in pajamas. They stand at the foot of her bed, watching her. M'gann's chin trembles, and they all crawl into the bed with her.

Once everyone is situated and comfortable, Superboy on her left and Artemis on her right, while the others are spread out somewhere next to them, she sleeps.