Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight Saga, it's belong to Stephenie Meyer and her great mind for creating such a wonderful piece like Twilight Saga (Although, I wish I can own Edward and Alec ...TT^TT). Also, I don't own the cover pic which I use for this story's cover. The one who had made that wonderful cover is LanWu. I merely downloaded it from her. So, if you want to see the real size, just visit her at lanwu .deviantart .com (just erase the space). The art was titled Guilty. It was and still is one of my favorites from all her piece of art (^w^)
Warnings: It contains OC. This story takes time on the Twilight Saga: New Moon with minor changes to the storyline. Unbeta, so please bear with the poor tenses and some mistakes I made.
Pairings: AlecxOC, SethxOC
Genre: Romance, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
"..." for memories in Italic
'...' thought in Italic
And "..." present time
-Freedom to Love-
-The Meaning of Your Existence-
-Sera-
Sometimes, I can't help but thinking if I had been wrong from the start. I mean there is no use for me to stay in here with you, when I know that my time is limited while you're not. You can live forever, the word eternity applied to you and your very existence but not for me. I'm different from you, from your kinds. So why I keep torturing myself by staying close to you? Why I keep insisted on knowing more about you even though I know it was all futile in the end? Why...?
They often said that love always makes everyone become blind and stupid, but I don't believe it. Instead of stupid, I think it was right to say that love always make people do the unexpected and the impossible all in the name of love. In my case, it was probably right to say that love make me think illogically. I can't differentiate what is right and what is wrong anymore when I have to face you. Whenever I stand right in front of you, everything becomes a blur for me. Nothing matters anymore except your existence in front of me.
When does this kind of thing start to happen? When exactly your existence mattered much for me? Somehow, no matter how many times I asked those kind of questions towards myself; I never find the right answer for that. The only thing that I know for sure is the fact that I can't take my eyes away from you. Your whole being fascinated me, captured my heart and I know that you had bewitched me. It was a normal thing to happen since your very existence was to allure people like me to come to people like you, still I know that's not the reason why I feel such a pull towards you. No. I know it was something else, something deeper than what those peoples feel towards you whenever they see you.
It was something deeper and darker, and I'm completely helpless against it. I can see it in your eyes whenever you look at me, the helpless feeling that you also feel every time I refuse to do what you asked me to. How you felt completely helpless against the pull that you also feel whenever you're in my presence. I can tell you for sure that you're not the only one who feel like that. Because I know it. I know how much it irritates you to experienced such a thing when you never feel something like this for a long time but what can I do to change that? It's not like I asked it to happen either.
You have asked so many times to leave. You even demanded it from me. Acting so cold like the ice itself, hurting my feelings intentionally and all those kinds of things, only to make me leave and never look back again. Instead, I kept my ground and being stubborn on staying. Even though, I know it was all futile in the end. Because I can't let go of you.
I can't just go and leave you after everything that had happened. Not after knowing that you have become my sole reason to live and survive in this kind of world. No. I never can do that. So how could you ask me to leave you when you know that I can't live without you? How could you ask me to continue living without you when being far from you only manage to hurt me so?
Although I know that by staying with you will only hurt myself more than I already am, I won't leave you. No, I won't ever leave you. That's why, please let me stay by your side. Because only by staying close to you, I can find the will to live in this world. Because you are my reason to live, you are my life and my soul. And you are the only one who completely own me, body and soul. Forever...
Authoress' Note: This is my first attempts on writing Twilight Saga fic, so please be nice to me. I'm still new on writing Twilight Saga story, that's why do forgive me if somehow I end up making the characters OOC although I really tried my best not to make them OOC. Anyway, I've tried my best on writing down this stuff but I'm sorry if somehow there are still some grammar errors and tenses errors. I still try to improve my writing skill. I planned to make this story with each chapters back to back from my OC to Alec's then to Seth's POV before back again to my OC. This one is a prologue from my OC's POV and the next one will be Alec's. Please give me your review so I could know what do you think about this story.