Title: I Am Thinking About It
Pairing: Literati
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Short (only a few parts) story about how things could have gone after Swan Song.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls.
A/N: This was just kind of bouncing around in my head as I watched Swan Song today…hope you like it…R&R!
Chapter One: I Am Thinking About It
"Keep thinking what you're thinking," Rory said, looking up into Jess's eyes.
He smirked at her and her knees went weak. He always did that to her. "I don't have a choice," he quipped and her heart soared at the implication.
He kissed her one more time before she picked up her bags and made her way home. Her brain was racing and she shook her head one she was out of sight. Jess's kisses always made her head spin, but her conversation with her mother earlier only gave her one more thing to think about.
With Dean, the sex thing had been easy. She really had never felt the desire to have sex with Dean. The kissing was good, as long as they were seated and she didn't have to crane her neck, but other than that she never felt the desire to progress. The one and only time they had made it to second base, she basically felt like it was an obligation.
With Jess, on the other hand, the first time he touched her like that, she was panting and moaning like a dog in heat. They hadn't progressed passed that, but she had to admit that she had been thinking about it. She told her mother that she wasn't because she knew Lorelai was not on board with this relationship not matter how many times she tried to say she was.
On the other hand, she did need her mother's perspective. Plus, she felt bad for lying to her about the sex thing. It was just hard to admit to her mother that she wanted to have sex…with the town hoodlum.
Before she knew it she was home and she walked into the house with a sigh. "MY FOOD!" Lorelai said, sitting up on the couch. Rory laughed and handed her the take out. "You are an angel." Lorelai said, dramatically.
She stood there and watched her mother dig through Al's food. She was talking about something, but Rory wasn't listening. She was playing with the sleeve of her shirt, trying to think of the best way to bring the subject of sex with Jess up. "What's wrong?" her mother asked, noticing that Rory seemed preoccupied.
"Nothing," Rory said, quickly. "Nothing's wrong."
"O…k…" her mother said, digging into her food.
"It's just…" Rory started, sitting on the edge of the couch. "Do you remember what we talked about yesterday?"
"Ummm," Her mother said, looking at her funny. "Well…we talked about a lot." Her mother said, confused.
Rory sighed. She wasn't going to make this easy, was she? "About me thinking about having sex." She clarified.
"Oh," her mother said, putting down her fork.
"Yeah, well I said I hadn't been thinking about, and I guess that was because I didn't want to admit it. But I am. Thinking about it." She clarified.
Her mother watched her fidget and sputter out her confession, and she had to admit she wasn't really happy about what she heard. Jess wasn't right for Rory. Jess was like Chris, and she knew exactly what guys like that do in the end. But her daughter was so nervous. "Well, I guess we are talking about this now," she said.
"I know, I should have told you," Rory said.
"Wait, you aren't…" Lorelai said, feeling her heart stop in her chest.
'No!" Rory exclaimed quickly. "Not yet, but I just wanted to tell you that I'm thinking about it." She said, looking at her mom for some sort of response, verbal or otherwise.
"Wow," Lorelai said, looking down at her feet before looking back at Rory. "So…" she didn't have words. She wanted Rory to talk to her about this. She grew up in an environment that didn't allow her to talk about anything, She promised herself, and Rory, that she would never do that to her.
But she hated Jess. He wasn't good enough for Rory, and she knew her daughter was just going through a bad boy phase. But could she really stop them if they wanted to do it? She knew from experience that two teenagers that wanted to have sex, were going to have sex. "Well, can you promise me something?" Lorelai asked.
"Tell me before you do it." She said, trying to make the look on her face accepting.
"Right before or…" Rory asked.
"Ummm just before will be fine," her mother said, praying for this conversation to be over.
"Ok," Rory said before starting to eat her own food. They sat there in silence for the rest of the night until Rory said she was tired and went to bed. When she couldn't sleep she pulled out her phone and dialed Jess.
"Hello?" he answered, not paying attention to the caller ID.
"Hey, it's me." Rory said.
"Hey," he said, smiling.
"Still thinking what you were thinking?" she asked, almost giggling at herself. God, he made her such a girl, and if it weren't for the fact that she was pretty sure she was falling in love with him she would probably be complete mortified.
Jess chuckled lightly into the phone and said, "Well yeah, what about you?" he asked.
"Well, it never was established what I was thinking in the first place," she quipped.
"We didn't establish what I was thinking about either." Jess returned with a smile.
"No," Rory said before turning a shade of red, "But I did feel it." She couldn't believe she just said that, but she also knew that Jess was one of the only people who she didn't have to be guarded around. Her mother was the other, but she had a feeling that that would be changing if she and Jess took things to the next level.
Jess almost choked. "Ummm…" he said, "Well, you know I can't help it." He said, feeling like a dork. How did she manage to make him tongue tied like that?
Rory smiled to herself. "Anyway, I was thinking the same thing," she said cryptically. "So, I'll see you tomorrow," she said. "Night." Then she hung up before Jess could even respond.
She couldn't believe she just said that. She wasn't even sure yet. She was just thinking about sex with Jess, yet she found herself basically telling him she was ready. She sighed and snuggled under the covers.
TBC…