I have a secret. A sinful secret, I love my childhood friend. Yes, Yohane the fallen angel can be in love, but it's not my fault, it's her fault, she is too perfect, she looks like an angel. The girl I'm in love with is Hanamaru. It has been years since I last saw her, we used to play together back when we were little kids, but now, she is a gorgeous girl, she is small, kind and has a nice body... But enough for that. I know I can't be in love with my childhood friend and what's more a girl, but I can't help it, I know we are opposites, If I am a fallen angel, she is a pure angel. I love her so much that it hurts, and what it hurts the most is that when I finally reunited with her, somebody was already by her side –Ruby- Ruby is the perfect girl for Hanamaru, Ruby is kind, small, and she looks like a little animal, this makes Hanamaru's maternal instincts pops out whenever something happens to Ruby. It's not that I hate Ruby or something, in fact, I appreciate her a lot, she is now one of my friends and my fellow School Idol... But still, I always have this weird feeling when I see the two of them being so... close, it hurts...
-Hanamaru... I want to see you... I want to feel you... Why Ruby and not me.
I say those words. If I don't say them I feel like I'm ready to die.
-Hanamaru...
I whisper her name with a falling tear...
Finally, school is over and now is time to start our School Idol activities, I head towards our club room with Ruby and Zuramaru, they are talking with each other and as always I feel like I'm the third wheel here.
-Yoshiko-chan...
-Yoshiko-chan...
I want to die... Maybe I should skip the club today.
-Yoshiko-chan
-Yoshiko-chan
-What do you want, Zuramaru, Ruby?
-Yoshiko-chan looked like she wasn't feeling good.
-Yoshiko-chan, are you okay? Maru can go to the infirmary with you zura.
So kind... These two girls are so kind that it hurts.
-Ara, my little demons. Do not need to worry, Yohane feels super great today, my little demons shall not need to worry about me.
-Yoshiko-chan, are you sure?
-There is no need to push yourself zura.
-Yohane is fine, Ruby, Zuramaru, hurry up and let's go to the club.
I start running. I don't want to see their faces, they are so kind with me, and still I feel jealous when I see them being so close. As soon I get to the club room I see Chika, You and Lily in there. Chika and Lily are talking to each other while You is sitting there watching them while she is smiling.
-Yoshiko-chan!
-Yocchan you are early today.
-Yoshiko-chan, ohayosoro!
-What's with that "ohayosoro" it's not morning anymore.
They greet me as usual, I start feeling a little better now.
-And also it's Yohane!
-Yoshiko-chan, why are you here so early?
-Yocchan, where is Hanamaru-chan and Ruby-chan?
-You always come together.
-Well... About that...
I don't know what excuse I can say. I'll just let my fallen angel side of me answer their question.
-My little demons were walking very slow and Yohane wanted to start practicing as soon as possible.
Is that poor excuse going to work?
-Is that so Yoshiko-chan?
-I'm happy that Yoshiko-chan wants to practice!
-Chika-chan calm down, there is no need to shout. I'm happy that Yocchan wants to practice too.
I think it worked, well whatever. I guess I should take my seat and wait for them to arrive. As I take my seat, Chika and Lily resume their talking.
-Hey Yoshiko-chan.
-What's the matter, You?
-Are you ok? You don't look good.
-Yohane feels super good right now, in fact, I want to start practicing right now.
-Yoshiko-chan...
You made a troubled expression, how did she knew I was feeling bad? Maybe I should try to make a happier expression. Just after that the third year trio came to the room, it seems that they finished with the student council work, after them Hanamaru and Ruby entered the room. That sight hurts, they are so close and they are holding hands. We go to the roof and start our stretching, this is my opportunity to approach Hanamaru.
-Zuramaru, the fallen angel Yohane orders you to help her with the stretching.
-Yoshiko-chan, sorry. Maru already promised Ruby to stretch with her zura.
-Hanamaru-chan is ok, you can stretch with Yoshiko-chan. Ruby can ask Onee-chan instead.
Ruby... why? Why you want me to take Hanamaru away from you? I can't, not like this.
-Zuramaru, Yohane orders you to stretch with my little demon Ruby. Yohane is fine by herself.
-Yoshiko-chan...
-Yoshiko-chan, thank you. Maru promise to stretch with you next time zura!
In the end I can't take Hanamaru away from Ruby. I guess I should start stretching by myself, or that is what I was planning to do, but You approaches me.
-Yoshiko-chan let's stretch together !
-If my little demon says so Yohane has no option but to do it.
-Yoshiko-chan is not sincere...
-What are you saying!? Yohane is taking care of her little demon.
-Yoshiko-chan. Are you ok?
-Why are you asking me that? Yohane is perfectly fine.
-I saw how you asked Hanamaru-chan to stretch with you, but now she is stretching with Ruby-chan.
-Well...
I have no clue how to respond that.
-It's ok Yoshiko-chan. I'm here for you, so don't worry and tell me what's the matter.
-Like I said, Yohane is fine, my little demon does not need to worry about me, in the other hand you got rejected by Chika, right?
-…
-You asked Chika to stretch with you right? But she is stretching with Lily instead.
-Yes, I did ask Chika to stretch with me, but I'm ok if she is stretching with Riko-chan.
-Don't you feel jealous?
-I feel sad that I can't spend too much time alone with Chika anymore, but everybody from Aqours is here, so I don't feel lonely.
She is right, I'm not alone anymore.
-Thank you, You. Let's start our stretching.
-Yes Yoshiko-chan ~!
After we did our stretching we start practicing our new song, Happy Party Train, it has Kanan as the center so she has to work extra hard in this one. As always in our recess we have to decide who is going to buy beverages for everybody. Today I'm not going to lose!
…...
-WHY DO I ALWAYS LOSE !
I shout those words as I'm on my way to the convini store.
-One of these days I'm going to win!
-Yoshiko-chan why are you talking to yourself zura?
-EH~!?
Why!? Why is she here!?
-What are you doing here Zuramaru?
-Ruby-chan said that Maru should go with Yoshiko-chan today zura.
-…
Why... Why are you so kind to me Ruby? Don't you see that I want to take Hanamaru away from you? I want Hanamaru to be only mine.
-Is something the matter Yoshiko-chan?
-Why are you saying that?
-Recently Yoshiko-chan is been kinda sad y'know zura.
-Zuramaru your accent.
-My bad zura!
-I don't know what are you talking about, Yohane is super fine.
-But today you ran away out of nowhere zura.
-Well... About that...
-Also today Maru declined your invitation to stretch with you zura.
-That can't be helped.
-Still Maru feels bad for doing that to Yoshiko-chan. That's why Ruby-chan told Maru to go with you zura.
-…
-Zuramaru.
-Yes zura?
-Go back with Ruby.
-Zura?
-Yohane is fine by herself, I can take care of this errand alone.
-But...
-Little demon Zuramaru. This fallen angel Yohane orders you to go back with Ruby.
-Are you sure about this Yoshiko-chan?
-Yohane is absolutely sure about this, now go and return with her!
I start running again, I don't want to see Hanamaru's face right now, I don't want to see Ruby's face right now. I just want to run away. My two dearest friends are too kind, yet I feel guilty, I want to monopolize Hanamaru. I can't have this anymore, maybe I should just confess to her and get rejected...
Hanamaru's POV
-Yoshiko-chan... Is this Maru's fault?
Hanamaru says those words as she goes back.
-Hanamaru-chan, Why are you here?
-Ruby-chan... Yoshiko-chan told me to go back with you zura.
-Yoshiko-chan did that?
-It was an order zura.
-Hanamaru-chan you are back !
-Hanamaru-chan where is Yocchan?
Chika and Riko ask Hanamaru, as Dia approaches her too.
-Hanamaru-san where is Yoshiko-san?
-Yoshiko-chan told Maru that she is fine by herself, she order me to come back zura.
-Yocchan did that?
-Yes zura!
-Now we are late for practice, it can't be helped we have to start practice without Yoshiko-san.
-Dia-san we should wait for Yoshiko-chan a little bit more.
-Chika-chan is right, Onee-chan please wait for Yoshiko-chan a little bit more.
-Fine... But if Yoshiko-san is not here in 10 minutes we start our practice.
Dia says that as she returns with Kanan and Mari.
-Yoshiko-chan... Are you really ok?
You says those words as she waits for Yoshiko.
Yohane's (Yoshiko) POV
-Now what...
I can't just show up and say everything is ok.
-And I have to give everybody's drink...
This sucks... As I go to the rooftop I see everybody talking so happy. I can't show up like this, I know I look so gloomy right now. Whatever, I'll try my best to put my cutest expression.
-My little demons. Yohane is back ~!
-Yoshiko-chan!
Chika, Hanamaru, and Ruby come running towards me and start hugging me. Lily and You are behind smiling, while Kanan, Mari and Dia are watching the scene.
-Let me go! What happened to you all?
-Yoshiko-chan !
They tighten their hug. Too much affection hurts.
-Chika-chan let go Yocchan, don't you see she is in pain.
-Hanamaru-chan and Ruby-chan too.
Finally I'm free!
-Thank you Lily, You.
-Your welcome.
-No problem!
-Yoshiko-san can you explain why are you so late?
-Dia don't ask her that with that voice, you are going to scare Yoshiko-chan.
-Kanan is right. Dia don't you see Yoshiko is exhausted.
-Kanan-san... Mari-san... Fine, I will oversee her tardiness today.
-Sorry for the troubles I caused today...
I feel terrible, this is my fault. We resume with the practice I do my best to make up for my mistake and as a way to apologize to everybody. After practice I go to the bus stop as usual with You, but this time she is acting different.
-Yoshiko-chan.
-What?
-Please, tell me, what is happening to you?
-Can you stop being this stubborn, I told you already. I'm fine.
-Yoshiko-chan, stop lying, I know something is happening please tell me.
-You...
-I don't want to see you like this. I know you are having a bad time. I am here for you, everybody from Aqours is here for you, you can count on us, you can count on me.
I can't stop crying... She... You is really worried about me, I'm a bad friend. I...
-Yoshiko-chan!
-Just... let me stay like this...
I put my head on her shoulder and I start crying. I can't tell her right now why I feel bad, but if I can do this I can feel better.
-It's fine Yoshiko-chan, I'm here for you. When the time comes, please tell me your problem. I'll do my best to support you and help you.
You starts patting my head and starts hugging me. She is so nice, She smells so good, she always has her smile on her face, she is willing to be there to help me. This is bad, I think I'm going to get addicted to this.