Disclaimers: None of them belong to me
Summery: What Faith feels & what She thinks Buffy Feels
Rating: Romance one sided/ anganst
Feedback: I'll take it any way you send it
For You....
For you I learned to adjust, I gave in and accepted to live with someone wanting to help.
.
For you I gave up my ways of being a loner and let you in.
For you I felt things I never had before, I gave you everything including my trust.
Somehow I thought it would be alright then with one mistake You took all that away, You couldn't see the pain I felt.
No matter what I did or tried to say, You still believed someone like me was unable to feel.
So I played the role of the one who had no heart, could feel no remorse.
Each time I saw you I felt the pain of knowing I'd never have your love or trust.
The hatred and disgust I saw in your eyes caused more anger than I had ever felt.
Causing me to want you to feel the pain you made me feel.
So I tried to destroy everything you cared for after all I knew it's what you expected of me.
But through it all I never could stop the love I felt everytime I looked into your eyes.
That's why the night you came to me I knew you were there to take my life
.
I had already decided to let you win but I could'nt give you the satisfaction of knowing.
So I put up a fight but when I felt the knife go in I looked in your eyes and smiled.
I knew you would be confused seeing me happy to die.
I could'nt let you see what I really felt inside the relief of it finally being over.
Knowing I would no longer have to see you look at me like I was a cold blooded murder.
Imagine my surprise when I realized I hadn't died.
I woke up feeling the anger of living through it and knowing that you were just waiting.
For the chance to cause me more pain.
That's why I tried to take your life and giving mine in exchange.
Hoping maybe I could have another chance of making you see what it was like to be me.
Knowing that everyone only thought of you as trash.
But even as I was in your body I knew it would'nt change anything.
So even though you thought you once again had beaten me I let you win and decided to run putting everything behind me.
Still somehow our paths crossed again I should have known that it wasn't over.
I tried once to make you see that I wanted to make things right
But as always you could'nt get past what you wanted to see
.
Telling me that if I tried to apologige you would kill me.
What you did'nt realize is that you had already done that.
Maybe not physically although it was'nt lack of trying.
I thought that there would never be a pain worse than when I saw the look in your eyes.
The night you stuck me with my own knife.
But I was wrong now I know the worst pain.
I'll feel is from the words you spoke tonight.
I decided to confess all my crimes and do my time.
But with you that still was'nt enough I don't know what to do anymore.
For you I have and still give my all.
To you I have given nothing
Summery: What Faith feels & what She thinks Buffy Feels
Rating: Romance one sided/ anganst
Feedback: I'll take it any way you send it
For You....
For you I learned to adjust, I gave in and accepted to live with someone wanting to help.
.
For you I gave up my ways of being a loner and let you in.
For you I felt things I never had before, I gave you everything including my trust.
Somehow I thought it would be alright then with one mistake You took all that away, You couldn't see the pain I felt.
No matter what I did or tried to say, You still believed someone like me was unable to feel.
So I played the role of the one who had no heart, could feel no remorse.
Each time I saw you I felt the pain of knowing I'd never have your love or trust.
The hatred and disgust I saw in your eyes caused more anger than I had ever felt.
Causing me to want you to feel the pain you made me feel.
So I tried to destroy everything you cared for after all I knew it's what you expected of me.
But through it all I never could stop the love I felt everytime I looked into your eyes.
That's why the night you came to me I knew you were there to take my life
.
I had already decided to let you win but I could'nt give you the satisfaction of knowing.
So I put up a fight but when I felt the knife go in I looked in your eyes and smiled.
I knew you would be confused seeing me happy to die.
I could'nt let you see what I really felt inside the relief of it finally being over.
Knowing I would no longer have to see you look at me like I was a cold blooded murder.
Imagine my surprise when I realized I hadn't died.
I woke up feeling the anger of living through it and knowing that you were just waiting.
For the chance to cause me more pain.
That's why I tried to take your life and giving mine in exchange.
Hoping maybe I could have another chance of making you see what it was like to be me.
Knowing that everyone only thought of you as trash.
But even as I was in your body I knew it would'nt change anything.
So even though you thought you once again had beaten me I let you win and decided to run putting everything behind me.
Still somehow our paths crossed again I should have known that it wasn't over.
I tried once to make you see that I wanted to make things right
But as always you could'nt get past what you wanted to see
.
Telling me that if I tried to apologige you would kill me.
What you did'nt realize is that you had already done that.
Maybe not physically although it was'nt lack of trying.
I thought that there would never be a pain worse than when I saw the look in your eyes.
The night you stuck me with my own knife.
But I was wrong now I know the worst pain.
I'll feel is from the words you spoke tonight.
I decided to confess all my crimes and do my time.
But with you that still was'nt enough I don't know what to do anymore.
For you I have and still give my all.
To you I have given nothing